Chapters Author's Note
SOoooooooo sorry about this... I know I said I would have more time in the summer, but this vacation has me going to many places and events where I can't write this story. I promise I'll release the next chapter sooner than the wait for this one.
Growing Realization
You knew that you couldn’t hold onto this much more. For your entire life you never told people the problems you had and if you needed help, even though your mom and friends always told you to tell people what you were feeling. You never did it since you were 10, that was the first and last time you told someone that you needed help and told them how you were going into depression.
The way your friends responded was laughing and beating you up until you were on the ground crying and bleeding, ever since then you decided to always keep your feelings and emotions to yourself because if you do they will laugh and just leave you there to rot.
“I can’t keep doing this, I need help. It doesn’t feel like the ponies I’m meeting aren’t friends because I’m only showing them a shell of who I am.”
“But you can’t, they will just do what they did to you too, they will just leave you in a void. I know what you need to do, just don’t tell them anything and LISTEN CLO-”
“Why do you always care about what I do huh? You never tell me why you care SOOO much about my life when you won’t even show me who you are!”
The void just stares back at you, in silence. Blue smoke starts to gather around your feet as you hear footsteps getting louder. No matter how much you turn the sound is the same volume as if you were in a 2d world, there was no direction at all.
“Because I AM YOU.”
“The Fuck? What do you mean?” After you say that you see someone come out of the void. It was human as you see yourself stare back at you but instead of having brown eyes like you it had blue eyes.
“You did a lot of bad things in your life on Earth. All the sins you committed, the crimes you did. I’m you except I did the right thing, I am the you that you always dreamed of being.”
Before you can say anything the other you forces you out of the void while laughing as you wake up from your slumber.
As you get up from the mattress on the ground the laughing still rings in your mind. He’s me but he didn’t do all the bad things I did.
“Mornin’ sleepy head!” You hear an unfamiliar voice call out from beside you. You turn to your side to see an orange mar with a yellow-ish mane with red bands at the end of their mane and tail. She had emerald green eyes and three white freckles on each side of her face below her eyes. From what you can see at this angle and your drowsiness is three red shapes on her flank.
“Uhh… What’s going on?”
“Twilight told me about you already so don’t worry. She and Spike had to go talk with the princess in canterlot so i'm here to look after and make sure you don’t cause anything bad. Name’s AppleJack, nice to meet you.” The mare said as she raised her hoof out to you. You shake her hoof as your brain tries to comprehend all she said in that short of time.
“How long were you there?” You say starting to get uncomfortable.
“Since Twi left, I had to keep an eye on you.”
“Oh, ANOTHER one. This is stupid, more distractions.”
***
It had been a few minutes since then and you and AppleJack went up to the main room and started talking about each other. Turns out this orange mare actually lives on a farm with her family and is rich with their business from the many apple trees in that farm. She “bucks” the trees to get the apples out and even sometimes makes apple cider with them.
I could use some real cider right about now.
“I also never lie!”
“Wait, you NEVER lie?”
“Not since I was a kid, it hurts pony’s feelings.”
“But sometimes you have to lie.”
“What do you mean?”
“Like if a kid’s pet dies, or if you don’t want to share personal information, or if-”
“While yes that is a good point, it’s better to always tell the truth.”
“You sure about that AJ?”
“Why did you call me that? I didn’t tell you that you can shorten it.” She said with a blush
“Hahahaha!” You laugh as you pat her on the head which causes her blush to get even more red. “It just makes sense since it gets stale after saying it the longer way all the time.”
You then hear the door open as you see Twilight walk in with Spike behind her looking like he was tired of walking.
“Why did you need to talk to the princess?” You say as Spike jumps in fright at the sound of your voice.
“We talked about you being in this world and tried to figure out how you got here in the first place.”
That did make sense, you still don’t know why you’re here or how you got in this crazy world. That brings your mind back to Derpy, something was different about her that made her stand out from all the other ponies, it wasn't her eyes that was all, there was something else that you couldn’t figure out.
“So predictable. You keep on going on and on in your mind about that one pony, why is she so important to you!? Oooooo…. ARE YOU?”
NO NO STOP IT, I DON’T THINK OF DERPY LIKE THAT!
“Uh, are you okay?” Your mind snaps back to reality as you find yourself having an angry expression with all of the ponies (and Spike) looking at you with confusion. Your face droops as you go back to a normal expression, Shit, now I’m sweating, I look suspicious now.
“HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! You amuse me more than when you found your sister stuck in the dishwasher!”
“Oh quiet you…” Wait was that out loud-
“Excuse me?” Twilight said, giving you a glare. You start sweating more as Spike looks at you with confusion and AJ looks like she is about to rip out your vital organs.
Ah, shit.
You are at a bar, drunk, and with some other people at a table. It has been 2 months since you have turned 21, so to celebrate, you decided to go to your first bar. During your time there you met some people who wanted to play a game with you, and what better way to ruin friendships than a good classic game of UNO.
“Get plus 4’d dude.” One of the men said making you the next one to choose, you decide to wait and get the 4 cards. “I pick yellow as the color.” The man says again after you drew your cards.
“You mean gold, right ?” You say, loopy from the beer.
“Boy what you talkin’ bout?” The dude across from you on the table says, “That is clearly yellow.”
While yes, he is true. But gold has been your favorite color ever since you were 15, at that age your mom passed away and since her favorite color was gold, you changed your favorite color to that to keep a part of her always with you.
It was your turn again, you were about to place a card down when you felt the chair below you go away. At first you thought someone snatched it and anger grew in your mind, you put your arms to the ground to catch yourself until you fell that below you there… is no ground as well. What the hell? You think to yourself as you fall through the hole and the men stand up, confused. Instead of falling through the hole and hitting the foundation below, you keep on falling, it’s like a big tunnel appeared below you. You are more confused about how this happened than scared. Soon you feel a wave of pain as your back hits something and then you black out. Damn it you think in your mind before succumbing to the pain and becoming unconscious.
You regain consciousness as you feel breathing on your face. You open your eyes just to be met with bright lights hurting your eyes making everything a blur, but what confused you was that you also saw a gray-ish blur jump back to the other side of the room with an audible yelp. As your vision comes back you can see yourself in a different room than the bar you were just at, it seemed to be the back room of a place, judging by packages all over the place you could be in a post office but why would you be in one if you were just at the bar.
You turn your head to face the blur you saw jump across the room and you see…you don’t know what you see, it’s definitely not a human, that’s for sure. It appears to be a short animal on four legs; it even has a mane and tail, a horse? Maybe, but it looks a little small to be a horse, maybe a pony? You then notice the two wings on the creature's side and your mind is stumped, Last time I remember, horses didn’t have wings, your brain says as you pay attention to the symbol on their butt. 7 bubbles were on the pony’s butt, you are confused before remembering that some horses were branded by farmers so you assume they belong to a farmer nearby.
You then see their big eyes and you realize that the pony seems too cartoony for the horses you know back home, you also see that they had big…golden..pupils. Your mind is actually happy for the first time since you came here, but the pony’s eyes look weird, they aren't facing the same direction, one looking at you, and the other looking at the ceiling. Their eyes lock on to yours as they make another yelp in surprise, it hurts your ears at the same time you get drowsy because of the beer.
“Uh, hello?” You say trying to calm her down, the pony gets shocked as soon as you speak.
“You, speak? W-What are you?” The pony said in a calm but disturbed voice.
“Yeah, I can speak. I have questions too but, I am a human, by the way you look, I assume you’re a pony?” You say as you get up and the pony’s ears droop when they see your height.
“Y-Yeah, I’m a pony. Can you sit down please? I-I'm scared.” The pony says, trying not to run away.
You sit down trying not to scare the pony as you hear other voices outside the back room, maybe more ponies? The pony calms down as they get a little close while cautious at the same time.
“M-My name is Derpy, Derpy Hooves. Well, Derpy is what most people call me because…” She goes silent before shaking her head and holding out her hoof, a handshake? You assume they call her Derpy because of her crossed eyes. You hold out your hang and shake her hoof, you can feel short fur on her smooth skin before letting go and bringing your hand back.
“Well, nice to meet you Derpy. Now can you answer me some questions?” You say before looking around again, thinking of them in your head.
“Yes, ask me anything, well not ANYTHING.” Derpy says in an adorable manner as her nose scrunched up.
“Well, first off, where am I?”
“You are in the PonyVille post office, I work here!” Derpy says, showing the bags hanging off her sides. You were so drunk you didn’t notice them till now.
“Ponyville?” Such a creative name… you say sarcastically in your head.
“PonyVille is the town we are in right now. It is a large central place in Equestria, the world we are in!”
“Uh, then where is Earth?” You question your low knowledge of geography from high school.
“Earth? What is that place, well, that would explain why you are different. You must not be from here. Wait! Pinkie Pie can throw an awesome party!” Derpy said jumping up and down like a kid going to a McDonalds, wait, MORE PONIES? You say in the back of your mind. You already knew this was going to be a long day, man, what you would do for a nice bottle of beer right now.
“Hooves!” You hear from the voice outside the front door, both of you turn to the door as you hear footsteps getting closer. Oh Crap.
“Quick! Hide in the closet!” Derpy whispers as she points towards the door behind you. You enter the closet and find out it is a dark walk-in closet with many dusty boxes and letters, you find two big boxes to the left of you so you hide behind them and the boxes cover you up while crouching and you can hear outside the closet.
“Yes boss?” you hear Derpy say to the other voice as the other door opens. The rest you hear is muffled voices before both of them walk out, close the door, and now you’re in silence.
“Well well well… “ You hear a voice say, you look around and the voice laughs to your confusion.
“What the hell? Derpy? Is that you?” you say with silence again greeting you except the voice.
“She’s just using you for her advantage, they will use your kindness to make them feel better. Don’t believe the lies they tell yo-”
“Listen here!” You interrupt, “I don’t know who you are, but she is just trying to help me because I’m in this new world! I trust her, she is nice.” Your anger is starting to boil up, you have to stay quiet because you hear footsteps all around the post office.
“You seem to be calm, but how is your voice clear if you’re drunk?”
“We made a deal so that every time someone lost a game they took a shot. I don’t know why I'm not drunk yet if it was…..” You trail off thinking to that day, you remember before the game starts and you made the deal of the shots you saw that the bottle looked different. Your mind clicks the two together. Oh come on! They must have thought I was weak, so they gave me a bottle of Soju! Your mind said as your anger is replaced with fatigue, you need rest, you haven’t gotten it since last night and it seems to be getting late. You close your eyes.
“Don’t trust them!” You hear the voice remark, before you can say anything, you fall asleep.
***
Your mind connects to the world as you open your eyes and find yourself in the closet. So it was not a dream you think, of course I wasn’t dreaming, her hoof felt real. You blush slightly by the way you worded that. You duck behind the boxes as you hear the closet door open.
“You can come out of hiding now. Don’t worry, I didn’t bring anyone.” You can hear Derpy say, you calm down as you hear the pony’s voice. You stand up as you see Derpy hopping back in surprise. “Look, I don’t think you can go outside without causing chaos, I think your only option is to stay here. Don’t worry, I will bring you food every day and no pony goes in here except for me.”
“So you are just going to leave me here with these dusty boxes and nothing to do?” You question trying not to be too aggressive.
“Look, I’m sorry, but there really is no other option. If anypony sees you they might freak out.” Derpy said give you a plate, the plate had some bread and some meat on it. Well, better than nothing I guess.
“Thanks Derpy.” You say and she smiles back. “But, what's with your ey-” You aren't able to finish that sentence before Derpy runs out the closet door with tears in the back of her eyes. I messed up, real bad, you want to go after her but she is right, you don’t know what the other ponies would do to you. So you just sit down and eat your food while feeling like the worst person in the world.
The day goes by in Equestria, you wait there and try to listen to ponies talking to not be bored, but most of them are quiet and just come to the post office to send and take letters. You get food in the morning, at noon, and before the office closes for the day but every time you get food Derpy just puts the food in the closet and leaves. Derpy, I’m so sorry, you never had time to say that as she always leaves right after dropping the food off.
One day, things were different, when Derpy walked in the closet to drop off the food, another pony walked into the back room. Man.
“Hooves!” you hear as footsteps get closer to the closet. “What are you doing going into the closet, and WHY DO YOU HAVE FOOD WITH YOU? YOUR BREAK IS IN 15 MINUTES!” Derpy’s boss says, practically yelling at this point.
“U-Uh boss! I uh uh..” You can hear Derpy say trying to think of something. Oh no , you can’t let Derpy get in trouble just because of you. Then you think, you have been using Derpy this entire time because you appeared in her world. Well, there goes more of your self esteem as you feel even worse now, but you don’t want Derpy to get in trouble because of you. So, you decide to do something bold.
“Ey! Don’t yell at her like that!” You say as you get up from your hiding spot, Derpy looks at you with a NOT NOW! Look on her face as her boss looks at you with horror. She seems to have a horn coming out of her head and is more of an orange color.
“WHAT THE HELL!?” You hear the pony scream before her horn glows and now there is a bright projectile going to your face Oh crap, the beam of energy hits you in the face as you back hits the wall as you black out.
“Oh what a show! That was so funny!” The random voice says, trying not to laugh, “You really are stupid aren’t you?” the voice teases. Then you think, why did I do that? Now your secret is revealed and now ponies might experiment on me, and even worse Derpy might get fired because of this. I really am a terrible person.
You stood there in the void, darkness was all around you, and there you stood, right in the center. No noise except for your breathing, you stood there thinking about what you did, you know your actions have consequences, but man, you don’t care about your consequences, all you care about is knowing what’s happening outside your body.
“Are you just going to stand there in silence?” The voice teased seeing how there was nothing else in this black void.
“Shut it alright!?” You yell back, “I’m in a world I do not understand and your comments aren’t doing anything you’re trying to do! So how about you show yourself and get this over with!?”
After that, you hear footsteps, and it’s getting louder, before you can do anything your mind is brought back to the real world as you wake up. You now feel yourself on a more comfortable surface than the closet floor you are used to, it feels like a bed and your back is heething a sigh of relief. You can also hear scratches, like someone writing. You open your eyes to see that you are now on a bed and in a library. What The He-
You couldn’t finish that thought as you hear the writing sound stop and you hear a gasp.
“Oh! You’re awake!” You hear a voice say, you never heard it before and turn to find a pony with notes and a pencil. The pony you see seems to be a purple and lavender unicorn with a sorta stary design on her butt. “You’ve been out for quite a while, so where are you from? I have never se-”
“Look if I answer that you wouldn’t believe me.” You interrupt causing the pony to look with shock and confusion. “All I want to know is what the hell is going on, and where Derpy is.” That last part came out even if you didn’t intentionally want to say that.
“Ooo, you are so worried over that little parasite. Trust me when I say that they are going to use you, you can escape, the door is right behind you.” You try not to speak to the voice and instead just sigh in anger.
“You're not from here, aren’t you? I suspect you’re from the beyond.”
“The what?” With that the unicorn showed you a map and as you suspected. It was not the maps of Earth you know.
“This is a map of Equestria, we are here.” She said, pointing to a part labeled ‘PonyVille’. “I suspect you are from here, correct?” she said before pointing to somewhere near the top of the map labeled ‘into the beyond’. You can’t get anything out as you hear footsteps from behind you, both of you turn to see a familiar pony walk in before looking at you and smiling and jumping into you and giving you a hug.
“You’re okay! I was so worried!” Derpy said with tears in her eyes. You get her off of you, thinking of your apology.
“Hey, I’m sorry that I blew my cover, I should have stayed down.” You say trying not to look into her golden eyes.
“No! Your heart was in the right place. I’m glad you cared enough to try and defend me. Because you were revealed, now I am suspended from my job for 2 da-” She was saying to you before your mind snapped.
“What!?”
“It’s alright, I’m just glad you’re okay.” She smiles at you and you smile back and didn’t realize that the unicorn was there the entire time. She cleared her throat, reminding you two that you weren’t alone, you blush slightly as you realize that. Then you hear the door open again, you see a bright pink mare with poofy hair walk in.
“Hey Twi! I heard a new voice, '' the pink pony said before squealing when seeing you. “OH! THAT’S WHO!” She said before running off.
“Oh dear.” The purple unicorn says.
“What is she going to do?”
“She always throws a big party anytime there is someone new here.” Derpy looks at you with a smile.
“That was the Pinkie Pie I told you about earlier.” It didn’t matter about that though, all you thought was the party. Your entire life you have not been good with parties, you don’t like large crowds and you would rather prefer being alone with your thoughts. This party is going to make the crap hit the fan.
“You don’t have to be in the large crowd if you just escape.” “No matter what you try and believe you know I'm right. Once the ponies use you for their gains, don’t come crawling back to me.”
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Author's Note
Sorry this took a long time, I had a long road trip that ended at 12am and the next day I had my friends come over for 5 hours. :|
You were only 15 years old when it happened, your mom had called in sick from work a few weeks ago and she had gotten worse over time. Since it was a day off you were lying down on the couch scrolling through your phone. You heard your mom fall off the bed and started coughing violently, you quickly came to her side as you saw the woman with blood coming out of her mouth.
“Mom!” You say trying to get her up, she stands up and tries not to worry you.
“It’s okay,” She wiped off the blood, “I’m going to be okay, don’t your friends want to hang out?” You knew this trick where parents made you try not to worry by acting fine, but you were no child at this point. But then your phone rang, after picking it up your friends had an emergency on their hands. So you left your mom in her room, alone in the house since dad was at work, she stayed in that old house, where her last breath would take place.
Your mind reels as the day flashes into your mind at the time Pinkie left. You looked around in fear to again find yourself in the library.
“So where is this party going to be?” The unicorn said with a sigh.
“The first time I saw him was when he appeared in the post office, so I think it will be here.” Derpy said in that adorable voice. Twilight groaned and rolled her eyes, she looked at you with a questionable and angered expression.
“Where are you from? I don’t want to have another party in my house.” The unicorn said, you just stare at her, trying to think of an answer.
“I’m….” You trail off, you don’t want to lie but you worry they will not believe you if you tell the truth. “It’s a tough question, I don’t I’m on my home planet anyway.” You say you cover your mouth as your mind slipped and accidentally said that last sentence.
“Great. Just great! You really are stupid aren’t you? What is stopping you from listening!? I am trying to help you out!”
“What?” Derpy said sitting in front of you to focus on you more. The unicorn also got curious and walked up to you as well. You really didn’t want to say it but you thought of a solution.
“Look, I’ll explain after the party. I don’t come from anywhere so the party is going to have to be here. That’s all I’m telling you.
After you said that, you hear a crash from the front door as all three of you look towards the noise. Pinkie came back into the library with a giant cannon WHAT THE-? You aren’t able to finish that thought as the cannon fired right at your chest, the confetti launched at your heart as your chest burned. You flew up and forward with the blast, but instead of hitting the hard wooden floor like you expected, you found yourself on a bed in a different place.
You got up as much as you could with your chest feeling like death and saw a purple lizard notice you and run away while screaming down the stairs. You hear footsteps and Derpy and the unicorn both find you in the bed. The purple lizard hid behind the unicorn’s front leg while pointing at you in fear.
“T-Twilight! What is that THING?” The lizard said while looking at the unicorn Twilight huh? Your mind slowly slips as the pain in your chest slows your breathing down so much you collapse, the last thing you see before blacking out is Derpy running towards you with worry.
You stood in the field, the field of a gray world. Everything was gray, the sky, the ground, everything. You got up and started walking in a random direction, the farther you got the more distorted the landscape became. Eventually the landscape was sharp and rigid shapes all around you. You saw something in the distance from where you stood. It was a bright golden light, floating and glowing in beauty. The light began going away as you chased, the land becoming more and more dangerous as you tried not to cut yourself.
The light stopped in front of you as the gray landscape turned into a gray void. Silhouettes of ponies gathered around you as they started closing in on you with laughing faces. But amongst the empty void and enclosing figures far off in the distance, you saw your mom. Staring at you with a neutral expression. You ran up to her as fast as you could. Right as you got up to her, she started to fade.
“No matter what you do, you need to make a difference.” You mom in front of you said before turning to Derpy but her eyes were all golden, her pure golden eyes staring at you. “Show them who you are.” The figure said before you felt yourself pulled into a black void instead.
You felt your hearing and strength come back, you knew that you were waking up.
Your eyes opened up and you were on the bed again where you last were. You question that as you see that all the lights are off, and it’s incredibly quiet. Where is everyone? You stand up and notice that there are some bandages on your chest from the cannon. As you walk downstairs it gets even quieter somehow. You stand at the bottom of the stairs, looking into the dark. Oh no… you knew what was about to happen.
“SURPRISE!” You hear from many voices as the light turns on and now there are many ponies, balloons, confetti, and lots of desert along with food. You almost fall over as your heart rate increases. You then see all the ponies spread around to talk to each other as the music ringed in your ears. You then see Twilight walk up to you with an annoyed look.
“Follow me to the couch, we have a lot to talk about.” You saw no reason to reject it so you followed Twilight to a big red couch in the back of the room.
“Just remember, don’t tell them anything about where you came from. You need to learn to follow my directions!”
Author's Note
Look, school is taking up most of my time from this story but I promise once I get to summer break I will start posting more chapters sooner. :)
It was hard trying to relax in the party, the loud music blasting into your ears, the bright flashing of lights, and the big crowd of ponies. At this point you really started to accept that you would be staying in this world, you don’t know now you got here at all so you doubt you will find a way to go back. But why, out of all people in the world, was I chosen to go to this new place that I now have to call home?
“It’s because you were sent on a mission.”
That doesn’t make sense. What do you mean by ‘mission’?
“You will learn that along your way in this new world.”
Before you could think about that, Twilight sat you on the red couch and you saw Pinkie eat a big cake with one bite and swallow it as a large club went down her throat and disappeared. WHAT. THE. FU-
“That’s Pinkie for you. So are you going to tell me about your world or not?” Jeez, no need for the sass Twi.
As the party went on you two started to get into more and more conversations. It started with questions about where you came from and your world and then started just getting into talking about your story since you appeared in this world. Eventually, it got late enough to where ponies were walking out of the library and into their homes in the night. After the last of the ponies walked out, Pinkie jumped and landed in a sitting position right in front of you.
“SO! What’s YOUR story? How did you get here?” You were dreading that question. Then you saw Twilight and Derpy all look at you, waiting for your response. So you took a deep breath and explained everything.
***
After you were done saying everything you needed to all three of them gave different looks. Pinkie was laughing as if it was a joke, Twilight looked at you with a really? Kind of look, and Derpy had her mouth on the floor, zoning out and trying to understand all you just said.
“Are you telling the truth? Really? You were in a bar and then all of a sudden in the post office? You’ve got to be playing something here.” Twilight said, giving you an annoyed expression.
“It’s true, it really happened. I remember the sounds of them calling my name, the confusion I had when I fell and the pain I felt when I hit the ground. I’m not lying to you, I really did come from another world.” Once you said that Pinkie stopped laughing and sat up as a smile grew. She jumped up to you and started talking and a high pitched voice that made you want to die.
“I CAN’T BELIEVE IT! A CREATURE FROM ANOTHER WORLD IS IN EQUESTRIA!?” Pinkie said again, shining her bright blue eyes into mine as her pupils grew in excitement.
“PINKIE! For the love of Celestia! Sit down!” Twi said as her horn glowed and a purple aura appeared around pinkie as she was dragged onto the ground.
“I can’t believe it. You actually did it. You actually told them! I’m impressed, but also disappointed.”
“Yes, and I don’t think I wi-. Wait, who’s Celestia?” Your mind tries to think of who would have that name, you assume it’s another pony but why would this one pony be used in sentences?
Twilight then walked to the bookshelf behind her and used her horn to move a book and put it on your lap. It was a sorta big book labeled ‘The Tale of The Two Princesses’. So this place is a monarchy? Wait, TWO PRINCESSES? You look back at Twilight with a confused look and she looks at you back with a confirmation look.
“This will explain everything about the history of the world, it’s even updated to include the new stuff!” She said with a smile new stuff?
It had been around an hour after the party, Twilight had gotten a mattress and put your sleeping spot in the basement, despite Spike’s protests. Since it was late Pinkie and Derpy both left, but you already began to miss the nice pegasus. Once you sat down on your mattress on the basement floor you realized that it was very quiet. You knew that it always took you around two hours to actually go to sleep. Really nothing else to pass the time. Usually you would scroll through your phone for hours before sleeping, so you decide to pass the time you would read the book Twi gave to you.
***
After reading all the book had to offer, and you just stood there, dumbfounded. Twilight and her friends beat Nightmare Moon!? You also remained confused as usually monarchies back at home had one monarch, both kings and queens. You then are hit with a wave of fatigue, what I would do for a watch right now. Before you can do anything, the fatigue takes over as you fall on the mattress and fall asleep faster than you have ever done in your life.
Your mind once again appears in the black void as the crimson smoke moves around you while you stand there in silence. You keep thinking of where you heard the name ‘Celestia’ before, just then your mind clicks as you are taken back to that day.
You were 15 years old and you were going out for a night to hang out with your friends, you were all going to a candy store as you all wanted to stock up so you could give out treats for the kids going to your house on Halloween. The entire time you all walked on the sidewalk you were all talking about how you were all going to plan out the decorations for your house, you had gone by many crowds but one stood out to you and only you. It was two girls laughing while looking at one of their phones while rambling about cartoons.
“Spongebob can’t be beaten by anything alright?”
“Yea right, trying saying that to Celestia, you will be pummeled to the ground.”
Even after all the time had passed you always wondered what that name was at the park, at your house, and with your friends. After getting the candy you all quickly went home as all of you had curfew at your houses.
“You never knew who that was, but after all that time you can’t run away from THATpart of your life.”
Your mind hits back as you try to forget THAT part of your life, you didn’t want to talk or even think about it so you instead went to the part of your mind you only went to when you needed to, the dream section. For some odd reason you went like other people and you could choose whether to dream of being in the void and think, since you were now in the dream section, you started to experience a dream as if you were any other person while sleeping.
Author's Note
School sucks... But in 3 days I will be free in the summer and I will go back to this story soon.
“I-I wasn’t talking to you.”
“Then who the hay were you talking to?”
“It’s complicated.”
After that all of you look at the door as quick footsteps get louder and louder. With a sudden BANG you see a blue pegasus with rainbow hair, she was panting being out of breath. Uh… This is weird.
“Twi….”
Before she starts talking again all noise muffles as you hear a static noise in your head as images flashed in your mind. You and your friends are searching through an abandoned gas station, you all find a map leading towards a sewer, after you all enter the dirty sewer a man appeared with a gun and told you to follow him, next thing you knew one of your friends was on the ground dead with blood coming out of their head from the bullet.
“Descending into madness isn’t the only thing that followed that event.”
You could feel it all. Cracks appear in the void as you start to break. You couldn’t let this other you take over your soul, but was it both of your souls? Even if you didn’t want to listen to him he could always talk to you and every word he said stuck like glue.
Then everything goes away and what’s left is a crying mother. You tried to comfort her in your confused state but she snapped when you talked.
“YOU NEED TO SNAP OUT OF IT! ALL THOSE PONIES WANT THE REAL YOU! Let go of the past…. Do it for your mom, for her.”
“Who is that?” You go back to the real world to see the pegasus looking at you with confusion but still trying to assert dominance. “Is he a demon, or something else? Hey you! Don’t try to pull anything with me, you got it!?”
Uh…
***
It had been a few hours since then and Twilight let you go out into PonyVille. You loved it that you could have some time to yourself again. Eventually you were tuckered out and decided to sit in the shade of a big tree on a hill. You stare up at the big sun as you start to cool down when you hear wings flapping closer to you.
“Ah! You’re here.” You knew that voice. You turned around and, like you suspected, Derpy was there giving you a smile.
“Oh son of a bitch!”
“Hey Derpy. Where have you been this entire day?” Derpy started shifting around to get comfortable under the tree.
“I was trying to talk with my boss to convince you that you weren't a treat and all.”
“I didn’t mean to get you in trouble-”
“No no it’s okay! You don’t have to worry about me. I am also here to just get to talk to you. I only have around a one hour break every day. So, maybe we should meet up everyday?”
That was something you never had considered. Derpy was the closest pony to you and you wanted her to be your friend, and hey, maybe you could speak your thoughts to her.
“Don’t even try. You hear me?”
“Yeah that sounds good! We can meet up everyday under this tree.” Then you shook hands (or hoods) and then after that it was time to end the day.
That is how it went from then on, everyday you had a normal day going around Equestria. Every day you would meet up and talk with Derpy under that tree. You two became really good friends and learned a lot about each other. You learned that Derpy LOVES muffins, like, she goes full rapid wolf when she sees blueberry muffins. The first time that happened was a strange day to say the least. Then at the end of everyday the other you would tell you how stupid you were and try to convince you to not see her again, spoiler alert, it never worked.
One day you woke up like usual at 7 am and this time you felt different. Every time you thought of Derpy you felt a sense of calm and happiness rush over you.
What is going on?
“I told youuuuu.” The voice teased as you blush.
“Look okay it is NOT like that!” You yell in your empty house that you just got from Twilight.
Right?
Then you went through a normal day. Buying food, watching ponies play sports, hang out in your room for hours, talk with Derpy, and then spend the rest of your day at home before going to sleep.
The next day the feeling you had was stronger this time. You even blush every time you think of her. This can’t be true… Then later you sat by the tree as always at the right time for Derpy to show up.
Do I….?
You then saw Derpy having a bag with her this time. You get those thoughts out of your head and it is replaced with confusion.
“What’s in the bag?”
“I got us both some food.” She said as she took out a blanket on the floor and put the food on it.
“Why are we having a picnic?”
“Why not a picnic?”
“Hm, got me there.”
It was a nice picnic with some good food, she even gave you something to get drunk off of later. But she told you to only drink it tomorrow. The entire time during the picnic you just rambled in your mind.
Why her? Out of all of them, why is she the one I keep thinking about?
You expected to hear the voice but ever since yesterday the voice never talked to you at all, like if it was so angry they refused to talk to you. But why now? You remember him saying something about a mission but you never knew what it was.
After you get home and put the beer bottle in the fridge you enter your room and sigh.
“Come on. I know you haven’t been talking to me lately so what? What’s going on?”
With that you were pulled into the void as the other you stared back in anger.
“Don’t try to do this! You can’t just let her take control. I know how to take you back to your world!”
“What?”
“It’s been your mission your entire time! How could you not see it, you are so stupid!”
“The hell is the mission then? How can I be sure that doing it will bring me back home?”
“It’s quite simple really. Just do it and you will be back in your home where you can drink until you pass out!”
“All you need to do is to KILL HER."
Friends, family, even strangers impact our lives more than we know. But yet even when they go for just a second we feel the void appear. It’s a constant battle of trying no to be consumed by the darkness, but the more we fight it the bigger it becomes.
You could feel it all, your fist clenched and a vessel felt like it was going to burst. Anger filled your mind faster than you could handle.
“No.”
“Don’t try…”
“I don’t care WHAT you say. I don’t care if you are me from a ‘better timeline’, but that’s YOUR life! This is mine and I can do what I want in this new home and new life!”
You felt like you were about to explode with anger, but before you could you woke up as you found yourself in your bed.
How the hell did I get in my bed?
As you got up and tried not to scream in anger you saw something on your side table. It was a sharp kitchen knife with a note on it saying “for her”
No.
It had been a few hours since then and it couldn’t leave your mind. Why? You don’t care about what he claims to be good for you in this new world. You were you, and only you knew how you were going to do with this life.
You walked up to the familiar tree on a hill when you noticed something, off. The entire sound seemed a little quiet, but not as quiet as most stories would say.
“Hey, the rest of the ponies are off at the Summer Sun Celebration.” You look and see Derpy flying towards the tree.
“Tree.” You say before she goes to the side and onto the ground. You expected that ever since you saw her, because of her eyes she can be very clumsy and often get into crashes. Wait, what? You have heard of that celebration but you didn’t know it was today.
“Wait, then why aren’t you with them at the celebration?” You say as you sit down on that familiar soft grass.
“Eh, I’m not a fan of crowds and we do it every year. Besides, I wanted to spend it with my…only.. true friend!”
You could feel your heart warm up and shatter at that. Does everyone really leave her alone because of her appearance?
You both scoot up and sit next to each other as you put your arm around her and feel her coat of fur. While it looks like the ponies have a smooth skin but they have a short coat of fur that is very soft. She leans into your side to get some warmth as you both watch the sunset.
You have never felt this happy in your life, the last time it was like this was when your mom was still alive. This one pony changed your broken life and you have her to thank for it. You decide to do something you have never done before and move your arm up to scratch behind her ear. She seemed to melt into your side more as she looked the most adorable you have ever seen.
You couldn’t deny it anymore. This is what you want in this new life in your new world. All this time you have been in denial with yourself if it’s true, but you now know it is. You love Derpy…
It was time to end the day so you both went home and the entire time you felt a smile in your mind grow along with a warmth in your heart. But as soon as you entered it was filled with cold and bitter loneliness. I bet Derpy wouldn’t mind if we lived together. This house really is kinda lonely without her.
You went back to bed but then you were then filled with anger and distrust as he started to talk.
“You have one too far now. Loving someone!?”
“Why do you hate everyone so much?”
“Don’t act like you’re not in the wrong. You did crimes like stealing, trespassing, and even did fraud once or twice.”
“That’s because I wanted to help my friends! All the crimes I did were because I was trying to help my friends.”
“Going into an abandoned Gas Station?”
“My friend’s sister was sick and we didn’t have the money for the medication so we tried looking for some in there. Oh, I get it now. All the bad things I did was to help my friends and it made strong bonds with them. YOU only cared about yourself! You never did any crimes because you never helped ANYONE, the only thing you did was always think about yourself!”
“I never helped anyone because we know that they will just use us for themselves!”
“No! That’s what you have been doing this entire time! You only care about yourself because you think other people or ponies will use you and betray you when that is what you have been doing to others! Throughout your ENTIRE life you have used people for your own good and never did the right thing!”
“Well at least I didn’t commit any crimes! I only used them so that they wouldn’t use ME!”
You couldn’t handle this anymore, it felt like a never ending battle with him but you finally found out why. Many people only check if we did anything bad and then assume we are good. But for you, you did bad crimes in your life but yet you had good intentions because you wanted to help those close to you….
***
Days had passed since then and the voice kept on telling you to kill her and that if you did what he did then your life will be perfect. You kept ignoring him but it was slowly draining your sanity and patience. But that was not the point right now. You were planning on how to tell Derpy the truth, the voice, your love, everything.
After a few minutes you got it and then started walking to the local candy and bakery store. Pinkie had told you about her little store and despite her being a world bending creature like you have never seen, she can make some damn good treats. You walked up to the counter as Pinkie saw you.
“Hey buddy! What will it be today?” She said in her high pitched voice.
“I’ll just have a bag of blueberry muffins.” You tried not to look suspicious but Pinke got everything ready and you paid but as you were about to head out Pinkie jumped up to your ear and whispered.
“Good luck!” You didn’t know how she knew, was it mind reading, or were you really obvious. You shrug it off as ‘Typical Pinkie’ and go to the flower store.
You ordered some dandelions because of their golden nature. Huh, it was a good choice for my mom to be gold.
You then started going to the tree like normal and waited, then your mind began to panic as you didn’t know what to say.
“You are GOING to regret this….”
Wow. Your life has changed a lot, from an innocent child to now. You know where it all started; your mother’s death sparked something. You then started to get closer to your friends and helped them, even if it was wrong to do it. Then you become an adult and separate entirely from your family, your dad had always thought less of you ever since mother passed. Then turned 21 and…. You were transported to a new world, and now here you are. Under a tree waiting to tell your feelings to a talking pony.
Shit, things have gone very weird. If someone told me that I would be here I would have called you insane.
Your mind goes back to the world as you wait, you hide the flowers and bag of muffins behind the tree as you see her. Flapping her wings and going towards you stands Derpy herself.
“Tree.”
She moves to the usual spot as her golden eyes shined in your soul. You then start thinking of what to say as it all comes to you.
“Hey. How has your day been?”
“Eh, the usual.” That wasn’t true, but you couldn’t tell what you did today without telling her.
You were about to start speaking….when…
“She will use you!”
You sigh as you turn around away from Derpy as you stand up in anger.
“No! You listen here! I don’t care WHAT you have to say but you can’t stop me from doing this! When will you just let me live my life the way I want to? You think that always talking to me will switch me over but it is already decided! When will you get it through your little head of yours!? I HATE YOU!”
“W-What?” Your mind snaps back as you see something in front of you. A crying gray Pegasus, Shit.
“D-Derpy, I wasn’t talking to you. I-”
“Then who were you talking to!? What? Am I a crutch to you?”
“No. Derpy listen, you are not like the others here I-”
“That’s what they ALL say! They all say that I’m different all because of my eyes! Well, NEWS FLASH! I was born with this and I can’t change it but yet everypony sees it as a disability, and now I know you think it too!”
She was gone, running away, crying. I really am a terrible person. But you couldn’t just stand there when you needed to tell her everything. You grab the flowers and bag and start running. Luckily there was no pony around at this time but that didn’t matter. You needed to get to her, you were getting close when you stopped as you hear something.
“She deserves it! Don’t try and explain-”
ENOUGH! Why? Why can’t you just let me be? I want to be on my own in this new life!
“Then what happens if you do something bad. I could help you not make them.”
Then I will just work it out on my own. I know that I did terrible things in my life. I am willing to accept them and move on, on my own. I know you are just trying to 'help' me in this new world but it would be better to see how i do alone, to see how I can handle things in this world.
With that, cracks appears all around the void, surrounding the other you. With a snap in your mind the other you disappears, he is gone. Now it’s just you in your mind. For once ever since you got in this world you feel whole again. But not now, now is the time for helping her.
Eventually you get to her house, you go in to see everything is all around the room like a bear was in here. You walk into the bedroom to see a broken pony on the bed, sobbing. It’s time to tell her everything. You walk up to her just to see her flinch.
“W-What do you want?” You sit down next to her on the bed.
“Derpy, I got to tell you the truth.” With that she sits up.
“What do you mean?” She says, wiping the tears from her eyes. How do you explain the voice? Well, you say what comes to mind.
“You know when you're about to do something and a voice tells you not to do it?”
She nods her head in confusion.
“Well, I have that voice everywhere I go! No matter how long I wait, it doesn’t go away and it's there even when I’m not making a decision. It’s like someone else is always talking to you and no one can hear it, I am the only one who can hear it. That is why I lashed out there. I wasn’t talking to you, I was talking to the voice, I was just angry at them always telling me to stop.”
Silence, Silence throughout the whole room as you let it sink in.
“Is it still with you?” Derpy said being the caring pony she is.
“No. I just found myself and it went away.” Derpy then looked at you with her tears now gone.
“Why was the voice telling you to stop at the tree earlier?” There it is, she asked the question you were dreading. You decided to avoid answering it by bringing out the bag. She instantly recognized the smell and began digging in the bag.
“You got me muffins? Wait! Blueberry Muffins!” You smiled as you saw the mare take out the muffins and eat them quickly. She looked at you and blushed at the sight of your look, her mouth was full of them as she was basically inhaling them.
“Haha! You really like them don’t you?” You say as you scratched behind her ear again. She quickly emptied her mouth as she swallowed the big lump of muffins.
You then took out the flowers and took one out and placed it between her left ear and her head and it just laid there. She looked very confused, ah, you know now it's time, you have to say it now.
“Derpy, you have been there for me through everything. You were the first one to find me in this new world and without your help I would probably be in a lab being tested on. When I got here of course I wanted to go back home, see my friends. But over time I grew used to this place, while it wasn’t easy, you made it way easier for me to get into this society. I have been keeping a secret from you for a couple days now and I need to say it.”
Derpy just looked at you getting even more confused at that.
“What secret?”
With that you place a little small kiss on her lips and pull away. You expected her to blush and it would be adorable, but instead she placed a kiss on your lips and began hugging you tightly. You wrapped your arms around her and joined the hug. It felt like your chest was about to give up and you would die on the bed.
“Thank you. But why me?” Derpy said in your chest. That got you thinking, why? You didn’t know yourself, but you did have an idea.
“You are different from all the ponies in here. Everytime I meet a pony I don’t feel a great connection with them, you are the only pony I feel a great connection with. You're not only different from other ponies because of your eyes. Your personality and caringness, compared to the other ponies you are like gold.”
“But why gold? There are better gems like diamond or ruby.” There is the sweet Derpy you knew. You pat her on the head again as you chuckled.
“Well, even compared to the other ‘gems’ you are still unique from the others.”
“What do you mean?” She said as both of you looked out the window seeing the moon rise.
“I don’t know. I guess gold just stands out.”
