The Daughter Of Chaos

“Get up Rosie, get up!” I heard my father’s voice say over and over again as I kept hearing this loud ringing in my ears like a clock had just struck noon.

I was able to open my eyes ever so slightly as I got back up on my four legs. Let’s see, I was trapped within my mind, my fears, inner thoughts, and doubts were trying to lock me up and they just struck me down as I got back up, ready to fight.

“Poor little Rosie, too weak to face herself. Pitiful.” My inner thoughts said as I saw that I was still in the dark room my mind had become.

“What…what…happened,” I said as I slowly started to remember everything that just happened a few moments ago which didn’t take too long for me.

“Took you long enough. I was starting to get rather bored.” My inner thoughts said as I looked her straight in the eye.

“I…I can’t…I don’t want to fight…you? Myself?” I said as my inner thoughts looked at me, then laughed.

“I should have known that I would be so kind…TOO kind. Here, Fluttershy Jr, let me show you how I fight.” My inner thoughts said as she summoned a few big rocks, and then proceeded to fire them towards me.

Luckily, I remembered that I was also in control of my mind as you would guess. I was then able to transform the rocks into whatever I thought of. I turned the first rock into an ice cream Sundae, then the second rock into a banana, and so on. My inner thoughts kept throwing attacks at me and I kept dodging them all at once. It was almost as if I was finally getting used to my powers…maybe…was…was I using my powers and abilities…for good? If I didn’t have these powers…I don’t think I could have stood a chance against myself. Could I have been…wrong all this time?

“NO, impossible, HOW?” My inner thoughts yelled as I kept getting closer to her as she tried to back away. “You hated the mere thought of your powers! How are you doing this??”

“Maybe so, but at least I can use them to stop you!” I said as I held my hooves at the ready and guided my inner thoughts into a corner, ready to defeat her for good.

“I would…rethink that…bold statement.” My inner thoughts said as she then let out an evil laugh. I was confused…but a few seconds later, she then tilted the floor, it was too fast for me to process in time before I could even think of flying away, causing me to fall and land in another cage.

“I have to admit, you were tougher for a stupid, shy, and pathetic hybrid, it’s a real shame that all good things...” My inner thoughts said as she then kept reinforcing the cage. I kept trying to escape, making as many holes in the cage as I could but she was too powerful, she knew how to handle chaos magic far better than me, making all my attempts to get out almost impossible. “MUST COME TO AN END!” My inner thoughts yelled as she finished reinforcing the cage, locking me in...for good.

“You…won’t get away with this! Our parents and friends will know something's off. They all know me better than anypony!” I shouted as my inner thoughts smiled.

“Will they? Who’s been spending so much time…away…from them? Who’s been the one ignoring their words that would have…oh, I don’t know, prevented me and this? Who’s been doing that?” My inner thoughts asked with a smile.

I…I was speechless…because I know how right my thoughts were. I was the one ignoring my parents and my friends, I only hurt them in the process. They only wanted the best for me, they tried to help me when I needed it the most…and what did I do? I acted out like a foal, tried to change who I was, injured my friends, and hurt my parents when all they wanted was the very best for me. What kind of creature does that possibly make me? Not a good one I know, one that belongs in the pits of Tartarus for sure.

“That’s what I thought. After all, you can’t defeat yourself, or your fears and doubts. Not even with the little song and dance you put up.” My inner thoughts said as something else happened.

I remembered.

My life didn’t flash before my eyes like I thought it would, but one memory did. I was telling the story of how I got my cutie mark to my parents. I was embarrassed that I fell off the stage, claiming that I’d never go on a stage again. I’m still sad to say that claim is true to this day as I still fear the stage but for a slightly different reason. My mother then showed me the music box of her and Dad as she and Dad started to sing along to the song. I had heard the lyrics before, even very recently…but I never could remember them all, until this moment.

“Hush now, quiet now, don’t you worry about your little fell, hush now quiet now, it’s all going to be good. Hush now, quiet now, we’ll be here to give you cheer, hush now quiet now, it’s time to go and beat your fear. It all works out in the end.” I kept singing the song over and over again as I looked down at the cage.

It began to shake as if an earthquake was going on and within moments, my singing had broken the cage, setting me free at last.

“What…? How? You should be powerless?” My inner thoughts yelled as I stopped singing.

“I may not be able to defeat you once and for all, and you may be able to return whenever you want, but I can be sure you don’t control any more of my life than you already have!” I shouted as a bright yellow glow then illuminated my body as my inner thoughts were trying to break through.

“This…isn’t…OVER!!” My inner thoughts yelled as my energy then pushed her far away to…wherever she went as I felt…happier.

I felt more comfortable in my skin, I could feel myself smiling, and more importantly, the endless thoughts and doubts I had about being the first of my kind…well…weakened. I felt…as If I was going to wake up from my mind. I don’t yet know if this was all a dream just yet…all that I knew was that I had a lot of apologies to make…and I knew the first eight creatures I needed to apologize to first.