Farewell Letters

It was raining that night

The lifeblood of the earth and sky bothered me little

But inside

By the hearth

I pondered

What was I to do next?
What goal could I set for myself?
What hopeless dream could I fool myself with?

For to not ponder

Would stoke the flames further.

Squeeze something hard enough

Long enough

And anything will burn.

It was tempting that night

There was nothing else left to say

For there was no one to say it to

But then

A door opened
A sign was given
An angel stepped inside

I never believed them

The old pegasus tales

Yet there you stood

And your unrelenting eyes fell past the membrane

And you saw the unseen.

It was raining that evening

Blood was given back to the earth yet again

I was told

That with this act of remembrance

You'd be left in the past

With a nod I spoke my farewell
With a sad smile I rejected concerns
With a firm step I walked away

The greatest thief of all time

Surely if it was you

You'd steal even from his firm grasp

Wouldn't you?

The memento I carry
The beacon that'd guide
The gift of my eye

It would lead me to you

Wouldn't it?

But as the years passed

As my sphere grew to support others

I found it again

Or maybe it found me

I can't be sure

But of what came next is certain

For they were mine

And I was theirs.

Yet another thief appeared

I pondered if they surpassed you

For they stole everything

Leaving me as an empty husk

Devoid of value to myself

or the world.

But then

The unthinkable

In my lowest of lows

You found me again
You stole your way into my sphere
You reunited me with the place I belong

Because of the memento

The one I still hold dear.

I wish you remained

For you never left me.

It was raining that day

Blood and tears soaked the earth

The only way to keep away the flames

It reminded me of you

Of the day we met
Of the day our souls touched
Of the cruelty I subjected you to

For some reason

I hoped it was you

But that which have been returned

Can not walk again
Can not laugh again
Can not be argue with again

Why am I like this?

We should have walked

Together towards the horizon

Wasn't that what you wanted?
Wasn't that why you pushed?
Wasn't that how you never refused to give up?

The flickering flames

They refuse to yield

Not even a flood being enough

It all reminds me of you

How you could be here
How you could stand by my side
How you could be the one I need

If only I'd been better
If only I'd been the one you needed
If only I'd learned

But I didn't.

Maybe next time I will?