Alone.
Alone.
I am
I am
so alone.
so alone.
Twilight tells me
Twilight tells me
otherwise.
otherwise.
She says I
She says I
have friends.
have friends.
Rainbow Dash,
Rainbow Dash,
Applejack,
Applejack,
Fluttershy,
Fluttershy,
Pinkie Pie,
Pinkie Pie,
and Rarity.
and Rarity.
She tells me
She tells me
they're my friends
they're my friends
as well.
as well.
But
But
are they
are they
really?
really?
Are they
Are they
friends with me
friends with me
for me?
for me?
Or are we just
Or are we just
friends by proxy?
friends by proxy?
Maybe they just
Maybe they are just
feel bad for me
scared of me
for who I am.
for what I did.
I'm not a pony.
I stole their marks.
I'm a dragon,
I stole their lives,
yet they accept me.
yet they accept me.
But is that all
But is that all
it is?
it is?
Acceptance?
Acceptance?
Are we just friends
Are we just friends
because I'm Twilight's
because I'm Twilight's
sibling?
student?
Am I just
Am I just
a companion to them?
a liability to them?
Dragged along,
Kept in my place,
keeping Twilight
so I don't
company?
break again?
I had friends,
I had friends,
real friends,
real friends,
before we moved here.
before I moved here.
Moondancer.
Sunburst.
But over time,
But when he got his mark,
she leaned towards Twilight,
he left me for magic school,
and forgot about me.
and forgot about me.
Then there were
Then there were
Minuette,
Double Diamond,
Lemon Hearts,
Party Favor,
Twinkleshine,
Night Glider,
Lyra.
Sugar Belle.
They were my friends.
They were my friends.
And I was theirs.
And I was theirs.
I belonged.
I belonged.
But then we left them,
But then I hurt them,
moved to Ponyville,
betrayed their trust,
all for
all for
an assignment from
my petty hatred for
the Princess.
cutie marks.
And I can't go back,
And I can't go back,
not back to them, but
not back to them, but
back to then.
back to then.
Because I did go back,
Because I did go back,
to help Twilight reconnect,
after Twilight opened my eyes,
and I saw them all again.
and I saw them all again.
They knew me
They forgave me
and hugged me
and hugged me
and we laughed together.
and we laughed together.
But it is not
But it is not
the same.
the same.
How could it be?
How could it be?
I've been gone for
I've done too many
so long now,
terrible things,
I missed out on
I tried to break them
so many jokes,
with my magic,
so many parties
with my words,
so many tears.
with my beliefs.
How could they
How could they
ever really
ever really
remember
forget
what it was like,
what I did,
when they have
when they are
done so much
so much better
without me.
without me.
Every night,
These past few nights,
I think about
I dream about
going back
going back
and doing more,
and doing better,
had I known
had I known
how much I would
how much I would
miss them.
miss them.
But I can't.
But I can't.
Those times are gone.
What's done is done.
And now I'm here
And now I'm here
in Ponyville
in Ponyville
surrounded by ponies,
surrounded by ponies.
so many ponies,
so many ponies,
so many possible friends,
so many possible friends,
as Twilight has
as Twilight has
comforted me with.
lectured me with.
But how would that work?
But how would that work?
They see me
They'd see me
as a child,
as a stranger,
a filly,
an outcast,
someone
somepony
to be
who does not
careful with.
belong.
Are they really
Are they really
wrong?
wrong?
And Twilight's friends,
And Twilight's friends,
how they
how they
adored me
feared me
when we first met.
when we first met.
Twilight's assistant.
Cult leader.
We've done things,
We've done things,
many things together.
many things together.
And yet deep down,
And yet deep down,
I can't tell if
I feel as if
they see me
they see me
any different.
the same.
Each of her friends
Each of her friends
have something
have something
special
special
with each other
with each other
something unique
something unique
to define their
to define their
connection.
connection.
After over a year,
After several days,
I never found
I can't find
how I could connect
how I could connect
to them
to them
except through
except through
Twilight.
And it would've
And it might've
stayed that way
stayed like that
if it weren't for you,
if it weren't for you,
Starlight.
Spike.
The only other one
The only other one
to know this feeling
who was there
of disconnection,
to watch me
of detachment
rip away the future
from everyone.
from everyone.
You accepted me,
You accepted me,
not because
not because
I'm Twilight's friend,
Twilight told you to,
but for me.
but for you.
You know me,
You know me,
don't you?
don't you?
You just want
You just want
to connect,
to find a place,
to fit in again.
to belong again.
You don't want to be
You don't want to be
alone anymore.
You're just now
For so long, you've
getting to know
really only known
Twilight,
Twilight,
Your only light
Your only way
out of the dark
out of the crowd
you were lost in.
you were lost in.
And now you see
And now you see
me,
me,
under the same ceiling,
behind the same walls,
as I see you.
as I see you.
Someone who will listen,
Someone who can understand,
who I can stand beside
who I can stand beside
and not feel so
and not feel so
small.
intimidating.
Someone who doesn't
Someone who doesn't
look down at me.
fear me.
And maybe
And maybe
if we are alone
if we are alone
together,
together,
being alone
being alone
won't have to
won't have to
feel so
feel so
lonely
anymore.
Author's Note
it's a fic that serves as me wanting to showcase Starlight and Spike's bond and similarities, lets me try poetry, and also lets me sorta vent some lonely feelings, all in one :o
please would appreciate comments and feedback on this one a lot! This is my first time writing this sort of thing <3
