...But I'm Ready To Wake Up Now

Something is wrong. I called sick to work. I am not sick. I entered the living room earlier this morning. The broken couch was gone. I assume Shining Armour had someone remove it. Him and I haven't talked much. I need help. I will never get through this alone. I don't know what is wrong. I can feel it. Something is wrong.

I miss my Shining Armour, my one and only soul mate. My other half. My life. It seems like we drifted over the past few days. Maybe I am going insane. I'm not sure what is happening. I can't think straight. I need to leave. I need fresh air.

The security guards wouldn't let me leave. They claimed that I looked much too disheveled, and if the media managed to get a picture my reputation would be ruined. I did not care. My horn glowed. An azure aura captured the guards. They were propelled backwards with much force. One of the stallions yelped in pain as he hit the wall. The other fell into a rose bush. It probably hurt. I wasn't thinking. I walked away. I did not care. I miss Shining Armour. My hoof hurts, it is not healing correctly. I continued forth as they groaned behind me.

I walked through town. The fresh air offered contrast from the bottled emotion stuck in my mind. I enjoyed it. I saw nature. I enjoyed nature. There were birds and turtles. There were frogs and insects. They were so peaceful. I did, however, realize that their soothing sound was... well... them trying to... reproduce. I guess I'm not the only one missing a partner. I miss Shining Armour. I think I'm going to get some confectioneries from the bakery. Shining Armour would enjoy that. Yeah, he'd love it.

I purchased a chocolate cake and various other sweets. I walked home, embracing the nature as the sun set. I’d compliment the royal sisters if they were here.

Wait.

That’s it. They can help me. I will explain my situation. They will help. They will fix everything. It’s going to be okay.

Shining Armour is not home. Perfect.

I can’t get a hold of the princesses, they are dealing with political matters. Fuck them. I got another idea. I’ll be on my way to Ponyville. My train leaves in 20 minutes. I’ve packed. I’m leaving no notice. I’ll leave through the window. The guards... the new guards... will notice if I leave. I wonder what happened to the old guards. I hope they aren’t hurt. That is one lawsuit I am not looking forward to. Perhaps if I pay their hospital bills, it will be okay. Why did I get myself into this mess? I can’t turn back now. It’s too late.

I made it out. I am on the train. I made sure to dress tightly and lightly. No one has recognized me yet. This is good. I can do this. I’m nervous. This will all be over soon.

Somepony recognized me. I faked a deep voice. She looked at me suspiciously. I smacked her. She backed off. She looked at me angrily.

“You’re right. Princess Cadance would never hit a citizen. You are trash.”. She spat at me. I resisted the urge to use the same magic that I used on the guards. I need to keep my cover safe. It is 23:00. Shining Armour should be home now. I wonder what he is thinking. I miss him. I hope he misses me.

Something is wrong, but it won’t be wrong for long.

I’m in Ponyville. I arrived at Twilight Sparkle’s library. I figured, if anyone can help me, she can. She knows her brother better than I do. However, she did not answer the door. I assume she is asleep. I’ll have to break in. I’m nervous. If I get caught, I’m dead. I keep breaking things. First, my own heart. Then, the couch. Next, the guards. Now, Twilight’s house. I’ll enter through her balcony. It’s usually open.

I’m inside. Twilight is asleep. Spike was awake, cleaning. I startled him. He suggested that I wait until the morning to speak with Twilight Sparkle. Understandable, she is a very hard working pony.

I ought to get some rest as well.

It is morning. I spoke to Twilight Sparkle. She’s more concerned about my mental health than her brother’s activity. One thing at a time, Cadance. Take it slow, it will all be over soon. I miss Shining Armour. I want to go home. Why am I so stupid? Something is very wrong. Shining Armour misses me. I know it. I can feel it.

I need to pull myself together. No more paranoia, no more stupidity. I can do this.

Twilight Sparkle took me to lunch today. We had sandwiches. They were delicious! I am enjoying this... socialization. I guess it is all I need. Change is nice. We are going to see all of Twilight’s friends later. I’m so excited. I missed all of them, they make great social companions. Today will be fun. Maybe this is all that was wrong. I can express myself. I like this interaction.

We went to the lake today. Nopony saw us, it was peaceful. Fluttershy’s animal critters joined us. They were adorable swimming in the water together. I need to return home soon. I don’t want to. I like it here. It is much better than city life. I don’t want to be a high class pony any more.

Spike fell down. It was funny.

Twilight just received a letter from Princess Celestia.

“Dearest Twilight Sparkle,

This is urgent. Princess Cadance has gone missing. Shining Armour and his special forces team are searching the entire land of Equestria for any kind of clue. She harbors a lot of power and emotion around this time, she could be dangerous to somepony if she fails to control herself. As you know, emotion is her centerpiece. If you have any clues, please do not hesitate to respond as soon as possible.

Yours truly, Princess Celestia”

I don’t know what to think. I... I can’t... I... Emotional... Power... What?