Finding Self

*****Entry 3. 12-6-12.

It's early in the morning, before school. I woke up in the middle of the night, and two things crossed my mind. One, I forgot to ask why my Mom got me the journal, and two, my sides are hurting. This isn't a new thing for me. They've been going on for a few years. Nothing major, just a slight pain. It happens every few months or so. It feels like something's poking me from the inside, kind of like a tooth growing in. (If I start growing teeth on my sides, my life will only get more strange...although that would be kinda cool) Most of the time, it stops hurting in the middle of the day, so I just tough it out until the pain stops. I'm not going to cry over a little pain in my sides. I'll have to make sure I don't bump into anything though. Don't want to make it worse. *****

Sivad left for school, went to classes, ate lunch and talked with friends, then more classes with the occasional insult from somepony he didn't know. Just a normal day of school for him. The pain in his sides stopped as well. He was about to walk back to his house, but, "Aw, look at the freak of nature, walking home to his freak parents!" It was the same pony as before. Sivad was used to this kind of thing, so he ignored the insults and kept walking. Nothing new to him. Of course the other pony keeps spouting insults, "Do you know why you're a freak? Because your parents are! You're all mistakes of Nature! Accidents! Trash! Your lives are meaningless!" Sivad didn't even glance towards the other ponys' direction. 'Just ignore him and keep walking', Sivad thought to himself, 'Ignore, and keep walking'. "Hey! I'm talking to you!" The other pony ran in front of Sivad. Sivad was about to walk around him, but this time, instead of using words, he used physical force.

The other pony pushed Sivad against the side of the school. "What?! You deaf?!" Sivad normally would've used his horn to push the pony off of him, but instead his first impulse was to push back physically. He wasn't ready for it, and obviously wasn't expecting Sivad to fight back, or to be that strong for his size, and honestly, Sivad was just as surprised. Sivad had never thought of himself as strong, and yet here he is, having just pushed an Earthpony that was easily twice his weight, onto the ground with ease. The Earthpony quickly realized he was in way over his head and ran off. Sivad, slightly shaken from the turn of events, couldn't help but feel impressed with himself.

Sivad walked back to his house, where his parents were waiting for him. His Dad greeted him at the door. "Hey. How was school today?" The usual greeting. "Pretty good. We're learning about the history of Watercrest Bay. Apparantly it was founded because the wheels broke on the wagons, and since the settlers were already in a nice area, they decided they should just stay and build a small town where they were." Sivad explained the other things they were learning in school, but decided to leave out the part concerning a certain Earthpony who thought it was fun to make fun of a certain Unicorn. After he was done talking about his day at school, his Dad said "I remember learning about the founding of Watercrest. Do you know why the wheels broke, Sivad?" Suddenly interested, he admitted that he did not know why. "Because they were old and falling apart. That, is why they broke." Sivad looked at his Dad, "Really? I never would have guessed they broke because they were old and falling apart." Sivad said sarcastically. "What were you expecting? That they broke because your Mothers' great, great, great, great, Grandfather accidentally left the replacement wheels behind, and when the wheels they were using broke, that he was too embarassed to admit that it was his fault?" Sivad almost burst out laughing "Really?" His Dad looked confused, "Really what?" "Is it really because of Moms' Grandfather that the settlers' wheels couldn't be fixed?" An astonished look appeared on his Dads' face "Who told you that? Nopony else was supposed to know." He smiled and winked at Sivad, whispering "You didn't hear it from me."

***** Entry 3, Continued. So if it weren't for my Moms' Grandfather, Watercrest Bay wouldn't even exist. All because he forgot the replacement wheels, and was too emabarassed to admit it. The funny thing is, I didn't even ask about Dad about it this time around. Onto a different topic, what the Earthpony said to me got me wondering about my birth again. What am I? I'm not a Unicorn...well, not exactly. I'm not a Pegasus, or an Earthpony, and I'm definitely not an Alicorn. Am I really a freak? Maybe. At this point, I'd just like to be able to call myself something. At first, I would say "Hello, I'm Sivad. I'm a Unicorn." Now, I don't know what to call myself. I'm not a Unicorn. Am I a mix? Unicorn and Pegasus? No, I don't have wings. Unicorn and Earthpony? Could be. There's no significant trait that makes Earthponies stand out from the others except their natural strength, and I seem to have that...So I'm an Earth Unicorn?...Earthicorn? Sure. Why not? At least I'd be able to call myself something.

Also, the pain in my sides came back later in the day. What's causing them? I've had them for a while now, but they've never been anything more than a small, hardly noticable pain. Barely worth noting or worrying about. Now it's slightly worse. I've mentioned this last time I went for a check-up at Dr. Harts' clinic, but he said it was "Growing pains". I'm not a doctor, but I don't think growing should be this painful.

I still haven't asked my parents (If they really are my parents) about my birth. Are they my real parents? If not, then who, and where are they? If they are my real parents, then why am I so...different? So many questions. My Dad should be able to answer at least some of them. I'm not getting distracted anymore. I'm asking tomorrow.*****

Sivad closed the journal, put it back in its' drawer (along with the quill, of course), and got into bed. Eventually the questions floating in his mind died down, and he was able to sleep.