The God Delusion

Celestia tried to remember what the next word was as she wiped her crying eyes with her blanket. The thought had been in her head just a few moments ago but now it had disappeared like a show off magician with smoke bombs. Finally she tackled the fleeing word.

'Omnibenevolence.' She said aloud in almost triumph.

She then began to think about the word, carefully analyzing the word as if she were a jeweler studying a gem. She said the definition out loud.

'All loving and all caring, one of Starswirl's ideal traits of God.'

She then thought about the word deeper for any comparison to her. At first she thought that maybe she was this. Her subject loved her, during her reign her acts of charity and liberal policies had earned her many friends. Maybe this was the trait that she could actually relate to. However it all went crashing down as she looked at two small words that were carved into the canopy that she only just saw.

Don't Forget

At first she looked confused, wandering which maid she would have to punish for such an act of vandalism till she remembered. It was her. She had wrote that on the canopy. Why she had written such a remark down was slowly becoming clear to her.

It was about a two years ago. There had been an orphanage in Canterlot that was funded by the state. Originally it received money for what ever it asked for such as beds, food, heating etc. However a scandal came out that the orphanage had secretly been using these funds to spend on alcoholi and parties for the owners of the orphanage. Celestia herself had condemned the action and banned the Orphanage from getting any more funds. Then there had been a fire in which all of the orphans died in. Worst of all a few days before that the orphanage had begged for money so they could buy much needed fire extinguishers to this Celestia had personally said no.

'Why couldn't I of forgiven them?' Asked Celestia bitterly.

She had ever right to be bitter about it. She felt as if the deaths of all those orphans were in her hooves had she forgiven the owners of the orphanage they could of had the fire extinguishers that would of saved those children. Celestia closed her eyes tightly as her mind started to sting from the events she was remembering. Was she really to blame for their deaths?

As this came out more and more examples of her harshness came into view before her. She had banished her own sister to the moon for a thousand lonely years for a minor crime, was she even a good person at all? Could she of forgiven Discord sooner? Was is hatred of ponies her fault?

She closed her eyes as tears streamed down her face.

Only one word to go.