Discord,

We don't speak much. I know that's obvious, but I thought...

I know how much you must have hurt after Fluttershy passed. I wanted to thank you for what you did for her. It was absolutely beautiful, and it warms my heart every time I go to their graves. What a wonderful gift, to help her carry on what was in a way her very life's goal. I think that was the first time I realized you were really good now.

How did you get past her death? I feel everyday like the pain is going to drown me. She died doing what she loved, but it seems so unfair that she would be killed by the animals that she so loved. How do you do it, keep moving forward?

Every day, I think about them. I look at Luna's stars at night, losing track of my studies and wondering if maybe they're up there somewhere, watching over me. I find my mind wandering back to each of their funerals everyday during court, until tears start to form in the corner of my eyes and I have to excuse myself. I can't do my duties, and all I feel is sadness, no matter what I do.

With Spike not returning, I can hardly breath. With him, I lost the last part of family, and my last friend. I can't even make myself leave my chambers for meals any longer. I... I don't know what to do. Losing Fluttershy, your first true friend, I thought maybe you might understand what I'm feeling. Celestia will always have Luna, so there's no way she could truly understand this. I thought, maybe you might know... You seem so calm, like you've moved past it.

I also need to know something else. I doubt you know much about Pinkie Pie's death, I asked Celestia to keep it from everypony, to keep that from being the last thing anypony knew about her. She killed herself, because we left her behind. She couldn't handle the emptiness of Ponyville and her friends passing or leaving. I just feel so responsible for it. Celestia told me about something which happened early in her time as ruler, before Nightmare Moon. There was a young stallion, one who wanted to court her, but she played his heart. And she challenged him to search for the fate of Star swirl the Bearded, and that he eventually came to you. She saw him sit and speak with you, and knows that you told him where Star swirl's home was. That's where he died. You sent him to his death. I know at the time, it probably meant nothing to you... but how did you get past leading him to his death? I have to know, because, maybe it can help.

I am truly sorry for bringing these painful things up, but I have to know.
Twilight.

Author's Note

Sorry it's taken me so long to write these. I have some big papers coming up, so I've been working on them. I promise Discord's letter will be much longer!