Black Rose

Chapters

Mysterious girl on the farm
Life
Hung over my head
Simple Need, Ecstasy, X Marks the Spot
Dark Endeavors

Mysterious girl on the farm

Big Macintosh:

Big Macintosh here. I'm a simple farm stallion. Every day I buck trees and care for the crops. Day in and day out its the same thing. Except for the days I go out to town, somedays I'll meet a mare. Now, I've never been one for dating. But once in a while I'll have a small fling.

Like I said, small flings. Some days I'd get an admirer wondering into the farm and watching me. Usually I'd give them a smile and off they'd go. Most would come by and stay for at least a week, they'd stop sooner or later. The longest I had someone coming by was for a month or so. But there is this mare, her mane is black and her coat was red. I'd smile at her, she would respond like the others. She'd just sit there and watch me, sometimes ducking behind the tree she'd use for cover.

At times I would come up to her, to try and talk to her. But she would duck behind the tree. Once I got there, she would be gone. No where to be seen. It's been about three months or so. I was actually starting to get suspicious. I tried to point her out to Applejack or Applebloom. But by the time they look, she'd be gone. I just didn't get it. Today was the day I had it with her. As soon as I spotted her I ran toward her. This time I caught her.

"Who the hell are you, and why have you been watching me!" I was angry, so I didn't watch the volume of my voice. She ducked down and looked away from me. She kinda of reminded me of my sister's friend, Fluttershy.

"I'm sorry...I'll just leave." She said weakly. She backed away from me with tears in her eyes. I felt ashamed for what I did. I blew up on the poor girl. I bowed my head and watched her as she started to walk away.

"Wait!" She stopped in her tracks and looked back at me. She still looked spooked. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean any harm. I just didn't know your intentions. But from your reaction, I can tell you don't mean any harm to me or my family."

"I didn't mean to cause any suspicion." She said quietly. She turned around and sat on the grass. Her mane covered half of her face. Honestly, she was cute, like a playful kitten or a baby pup. I took a seat myself. Her eyes were a bright hazel, if I didn't know any better I'd say she was blind.

"What's your name?" I asked her kindly. She bowed her head. It looked to me she had to think about it, but I think she was just being shy. She looked at the grass and then back up at me, looking at me with her one eye showing. The other one was covered up by her mane.

"Rose...Black Rose." She said quietly, she was looking at the ground and then her gaze shifted to me. She was making circles with her hoof on the ground. "What...what's your name?"

This struck me as odd. Everypony knew who I was. Nearly ever mare in town knew who I was.

<flashback: "Oh Celestia! Harder Big Mac!

"Isn't he the best? My turn!">

"My name is Big Macintosh, but everypony calls mah Big Mac for short." I said trying to look her in the eye. She was mysterious for one. She certainly had my attention. "It nice to meet you."

"Can I call you Mac?" She asked making circle in the opposite direction. I couldn't help but smile. My mom had called me Mac when I was young.

"I don't see why not." I said kindly with a smile. A slight breeze blew in the air. Some leaves had flown between us.

"Big Macintosh! Where in tarnation are ya'?" I heard Applejack yell. I looked behind me to see my sister. She looked at me, I looked back at Rose. But she was gone, for one she was quick and quiet. I looked back at Applejack, the wind blew again. "Breaks over, back to work."

"Yeeup." I said, I glance back at where Rose had been sitting. I headed toward my sister, I tried to get my train if thought back to work, but for some reason her image wanted to remain on my mind.

Black Rose:

I watched him go toward his sister. I loved that stallion more then life itself, and life was short. He was handsome and caring.

"You know you can't have him." I was told. I had a voice inside of my head. Call it a split personality. Most days I'd ignore it, other days it became to much and I'd argue with myself. I turned away from him and went toward the Everfree Forest. My home had been the forest ever since my birth. Couldn't tell you how I was born, I just woke up at night someday and I found myself surrounded by the forest. I never felt scared of the place, it just felt like home for some odd reason. But I never questioned it. I built a hut out of branches and leaves. It blended into the the place very well. No pony could find it unless they were looking for it.

I never had to worry about food, many edible things grew in the forest. Never had to worry about poisonous things. I some how knew what was safe to eat and what wasn't safe to eat. I did have an immunity to poisons. I'd get sick for a few days. What would kill some other pony, it just made me I'll for a day or too. Learned that the hard way from a snake that I accidentally came across when it was shedding. Poor thing was probably scared out of its mind. "I hope he dies."

"Shut up." I said to the voice. It wasn't a kind voice, I believed it was the hatred others feel once in a while. Mine was just a personality. Didn't know why, didn't really question it honestly. I learned to live with it. Wasn't hard, besides it was the only thing I could talk too. Mac was the only pony I had ever talked to. At that moment I felt lonely for the first time.

"She speaks, great job! I hope you die too. Oh wait you will die soon." It said laughing. I mentally told it to shut up over and over. I went over to my little bed near the place I'd make a fire when the nights where cold and where I would make soup on occasion. I'd capture rain water for drinks, so I never really had to worry, plus there was a small stream nearby full of spring water that was consumable. I was consent with what I had. Never had needed more. But then one day I had gotten curious.

"Ugh, your annoying." The voice said. Like I said, I got curious and went into the open field that was beyond the forest break line. I found myself close to a apple orchard. That's when I saw Mac. He had been working, and was sweating a little. Now I don't know about other mares, but at that moment I felt my heart drop. So from that day on I had watched him from a far. I hadn't been the only one to do that. There were others who would come by, some watching like me and other friends that would visit. One I saw a couple, both were alicorns. One was black and the other was purple. That was the first time I had ever seen an Alicorn.

I would sometimes watch him with other mares. I had never seen or heard anything about what they were doing, but it made me feel weird. I would watch for a only a little before I would feel flustered.

<flashback: "Yes! Yes! That's it, oh yeah!"

"Shhhh, be quiet or we'll get caught."

"Ohhh....">

That's when I would leave, her eyes would roll back into her head, and her tongue would stick out. While Mac would pound her with something that was attached to him. I'd come back later to see Mac. He noticed me only about three or two months ago, but I've been watching him for about eight or nine. I guess I just got careless.

"I bet you'd like to get that from Mac, wouldn't you?" The voice said. I felt that odd feeling when I would watch him and those mares.

"Shut up." I said to the voice and to my mind. No didn't want to think of that right now. I started a small fire. I was starting to feel a little hungry so I was going to make some berry stu.

"Yummy, yummy. How about some roses." The voice said sarcastically. I remembered the name I told Mac. To tell the truth, I came up with it on the spot. Black Rose just jumped into my head, so I went with it. I was still feeling that odd feeling. I just couldn't help it, I was getting frustrated. I didn't know what I was feeling or how to deal with it. I just tried to cook up a meal. I was going through the motions, but the feeling remained. Usually it would go away quickly, but this time it wanted to stay for some reason. "Your pathetic."

"I told you to shut up." I said sternly. I felt stupid, I was talking to myself. I pushed everything out of my mind and focused on making my supper. It would be dark soon, so I had to keep this fire going. Which meant I'd have to eat fast and go and get some wood for a steady fire. I sometimes wondered what it felt like to live like a normal pony. But the. I'd think, I'm my a normal pony, so it didn't matter.

"You have nothing to show, and your gonna die soon. You have nothing and you'll die alone. Ohh your gonna die, die, die." The voice sang inside of my head. I felt tears well up in my eyes. I let them fall, I just kept making my soup. Same thing, different day.

Life

Black Rose:

I went the farm in the morning. I watched Mac and his sisters come out of their home. Mac stretched and went to the first apple tree. Day in and day out same thing different day. I watched him work the whole day. He had kept an out for me, but I remained hidden. I wouldn't even know what to say to him. So I just kept farther back. Sure was difficult to keep an eye on him, but it was for the best. At least, until I was found. But not by Mac, by his sister.

"What in tarnation? Who in the hay are you?" I looked at her with surprise. I didn't even hear her come close to me. I looked at her, my mind was blank.

"I'm...I'm Black Rose. I'm..." She looked at me with confusion. I didn't know what to say. Not like I could say I was here stalking her brother. "I was just leaving."

"You were watching Big Mac, weren't ya." I stopped, I looked at her with tears in my eyes.

"I'm sorry..." I froze, I wasn't good with ponies. I didn't know how to talk to them. I lived by myself since forever. I never had to deal with others, besides the voice in my head.

"It alright suger cube, I'm use to it to be honest. Mares always drop by to see my brother." She said with a smile. "Never had a problem. But, I've never seen you before. Ponyville is a small town, hard not to know everypony. You new in town?"

"Not...not exactly." I said weakly. She looked at me with confusion.

"What do you mean?" She asked, I was looking down at the ground. Making circles in the grass with my hoof.

"I ah...live in the Everfree forest." I said glancing up at her. She smiled at me.

"You remind me of my friend Fluttershy." She said with a slight laugh. "How long have you lived in the Everfree forest? Are from Zecora's homeland?"

"Zecora?" I asked, the look she gave me afterwords confused me. She looked me up and down. Sizing me up, there was something about me she wasn't getting. "I...I ah was born there."

"Really? Do you live with anyone else?" She asked, she was speaking a little slow. Like she was hoping I would say I had a brother or a sister, parents or anything. But I lived alone, and I wasn't going to tell her about the voice. No pony needed to know about that.

"No." I felt so different from it, was so uncomfortable. I think the feeling was mutual. She had an odd look on her face and her eyes were moving around like she was trying to think of something to say. "I'm a little odd."

She smiled at me and laughed. Wasn't quite sure what to say. Wasn't even sure what she was laughing at. So I was completely lost. "Ya mean to tell me, y'all lived in the Everfree forest, all by yourself?"

"Yes." I said really confused. She continued to laugh, it wasn't a laugh, like she was making fun of me. It was more like, a laugh from a good memory. So her laughing didn't harm my feelings in any way. "Are you alright?"

"Ya just reminded me of the first time I truly met Zecora. The whole town was afraid of her, and my little sis was the one to show us who she truly was." I gave her a light smile.

"Honestly, I'm not good with ponies. I don't know what to say right now." I said feeling stupid, but I had to be honest. How could I not, honestly I had nothing to hide, never had anything to hide.

"It's alright sugar cube." She said with a friendly smile. "My name is Applejack, it nice to meet you Black Rose."

"Rose...you can call me Rose if you want too." I said, that was the day I made my first mare friend. From that day on, I started to go into town and meet other ponies. It felt good it really did. But life is short, it truly is.

"It's very nice to meet ya Rose." I was invited into their house that night. Mac was happy to see me, I think at least. He doesn't really show much emotion, so it wasn't easy to guess his reactions and moods right. But there was something in his eyes that just told me something good. I learned that the apple family were the ones who founded Ponyville, and that they were very generous and giving. Honestly, it was a bit much, by the end of the day I wanted to get out of their house. It just felt cramped, yet cozy all at the same time.

"Thank you for everything." I said to them before I left.

"Rose. Will I see you again?" Mac asked before I left. I smiled at him and nodded my head. The first bit of emotion he showed, a big smile had spread across his face. Some how I made an impact on them. I felt a bit of dread as I left their home. Once I was at my hut I felt my nerves to calm a little. Something was making me tense. I didn't figure it out until I had a small fire going for warmth.

"Hello my daughter, we are glade to see you."

Big Macintosh:

Rose had dinner with me and my family. Turns out AJ had found her wondering the farm. I had suspected she was about, but she is good at keeping out of sight. I got preoccupied on looking for her I fell behind on my section. Rose and everyone seemed to have gotten along, which made me feel good. Something about her, I just can't explain it. It feels right to have her nearby. Never have I felt like this with another mare. Mostly just....

<Flashback: "That's the spot! Oh right there!"

I knew if I was patient the right one would come into my life. I think she is the one for me. I heard Granny Smith in the hall, she was talking to herself, probably reciting a recipe. I went to my door and looked into the hall. "Granny, may I speak with you?"

"Two table...well sure as the dickens." She said coming into my room. The place was a little messy, but not a disaster, so I wasn't scolded this time for my room being a mess. Being a grown stallion, you'd think I wouldn't be scolded anymore. But it doesn't matter how old you get, your granny with always be your granny. "What's ya wantin to talk about Big Mac?"

"That mare Rose." She looked around my room and made a hmm uhmm sound. Wasn't sure if she heard me. At times granny seemed like she had a screw loose, but she was wise and knew more then anypony I knew.

"Odd one that one is. Living all alone in those woods. The timberwolves could get her, but she has lasted this long alone. No pony should be alone." She said rambling. Granny started to pick up things on my floor.

"I feel odd when I'm around her granny." She gave me a surprised look.

"Now dearie, your a little too old for that talk." She said continuing to clean up. Not like I could stop her, once she started something she had to continue with it. It was always best to leave her be.

"Not that kind if feeling granny." She said nodding her head.

"My stallion, I had that same feeling the first time I met him. He did too, I'd like to think. You never know who you'll end up with dearie. The world is full of mysteries, even Celestia herself doesn't know them all." She said finishing up her cleaning.

"Thanks Granny." I said as she left.

"For what?" She said back to me. She didn't stop, she just kept going on her way to her room. I looked out the window and saw Rose in the yard. She was standing behind the fence looking into my room. I went over and got a good look. I wasn't mistaken, it was her. I quickly went out of my room and went outside. She was still there, looking at the door, she was waiting. I was glade she waited and didn't leave. "Hi."

"Hey..." She said shyly. She wasn't looking at me. I was trying to make eye contract, but she refused too. Something wasn't right, she was fine when she left. Did something happen?

"You alright?" I asked.

"Not...not really." She said sitting down. She still refused to look at me.

"Whats wrong?" I asked walking closer to her. I wanted to comfort her, but I wasn't sure how.

"I'm going to die."

Hung over my head

Black Rose:

I looked at Mac. He looked confused, I figured he would be worried or something. Honestly wasn't quite sure what to expect. He looked me up and down, and a chuckle escaped him. Wasn't sure what was so funny, that pony who said she was my mother said I was going to die very soon. The voice was even encouraging me to kill myself before my actual time would come. It was hard to ignore, especially when it made a song for it.

"Kill yourself and get it done, off yourself and we'll have fun. It'll be fun, you will die, and I will have pie. You’re going to die, and I will have pie. By the way the cake is a lie." It started to sing. It continued and it wasn't helping my situation. Mac couldn't understand what was going on. How could he, he doesn't know who my mother is, or the voice, or even how I'm going to die. Actually to be truthful, I didn't know how I was going to die. All I really knew that it was going to be painful.

"Rose, everypony will die at some point." He said with amusement in his voice. It felt good to see him laughing like that. Felt good and just as well bad in the same. I smiled at him, I hardly even knew Mac. He hardly even knew me. But he was the first pony I had ever talked too. I felt a connection with him, I felt it when I first laid eyes on him.

"I guess you're right." I said looking away from him. I was holding back the tears that wanted to show how I was really feeling. I couldn't hold them back, was bad timing too. I just looked back at Mac. His smile instantly left his face.

"You okay?" He asked, taking a step toward me. I nodded my head. I couldn't speak, my emotions were stuck in my throat. I tried clearing my throat but it wasn't helping. All I could do was sit there and cry, I felt pathetic.

"You are pathetic, see this is why you should kill yourself. It'll save you all this pain and trouble. Oh shit! I'm actually being nice! Bah, it don't matter either way I win. You die and you’re miserable, I'm happy for you Rosie poise." The voice said, I went from sad to pissed in zero to no seconds.

"Shut up! I hate you! I wish you would just go away!" I screamed as loud as I could. I was on the ground trying to bash my head in with my hooves. I rolled around on the ground punching my head as hard as I could.

"Rose, Rose! Stop it!" Mac yelled trying to stop me. But at this point I couldn't hear him. I was screaming and the voice was still talking. It was encouraging me to keep hitting myself so I would get brain damage. I was so angry. I was pounding on the ground like a little child. "Rose!"

"…" Mac had slapped me across the face. The right side of my face was hot and burning. I had stopped crying from the shock of what happened. I could hardly see Mac through my mane. I felt fresh tears welling in my eyes.

"Are you okay?" He asked me, he brushed my mane from my left. He made an attempt to bush the right side free from my eye. But I had hugged him with, I felt my tears falling off of my face. I was sure they were soaking into his coat. I looked down at the ground and saw them fall to the ground. One clear and water like, the other black and oily.

"I think so...sorry about that." I said wiping my eyes. I made sure my face was clear of any tears. He looked at me frowning. I think he was worried, but I couldn't be sure.

"You weren't kidding where you. You're going to die soon aren't you?" He asked looking me in the eye. I looked away from him. I felt stupid, I freaked out. I bet I looked like a crazy girl to him. I persisted with looking me in the eye. Once I actually looked, I felt warm. I leaned in and we kissed for a short time. It was a big shock to me, I pulled back abruptly.

"Someone came to me and told me I have something that is going to kill me. Something I have inside of me." I said, I looked at Mac. He looked a little worried, but also reassuring.

"I think they are wrong. You look healthy to me, nothing wrong whatsoever. Maybe a little bit of a spaz, but other than that, nothing else." I smiled at Mac. He was sweet, he really was. The one who came to me was my mother. I know she was, she told me things only I could and would know. She told me about the voice, that is why I believe her.

“We could always get you looked at by a doctor, just to make sure.” He said offering me an encouraging smile. But as soon as I heard doctor, I felt my heart climb into my throat.

“Doctor! No-no-no I’m sure it’s nothing. It’s nothing, I have to go-bye Mac.” I said turning around and hightailing it as fast as I could.

“Wait—Rose?” He yelled after me. He was chasing after me, but I lost him in the orchard. Once I was inside of my hut I took in a deep breath and calmed myself. No way was I seeing a damn doctor.

“What a bitch you were to Mac. I bet he hates you now.” The voice said laughing at me. I did feel bad for running away like that. But, I don’t know; something about a doctor just frightens me. If a doctor saw my eye-no there would be none of that. No one will see my eye. “That eye of yours, it’s mine.”

“No it’s not you...” I felt stupid for talking to myself. There were nights when the voice and I would argue. The damn thing never shuts up. I looked at the small fire, I only did what I could to get by. Harvested things in the forest, kept to myself. Never got involved with anyone; who would want to even know me in the first place. It was a mistake to even see Mac.

“Rose?” I heard Mac’s voice boom in the night. I looked outside and saw him not far from my hut. I stomped out my fire and crawled into the leaves and hay I used as a bed. “Please Rose, I just want to help!”

“Your such a bitch.” I tried to ignore him, it was difficult too. I had tears in my eyes. I felt horrible for what I was doing. “Making him run around lost like that. What if he gets lost? What if he never comes back? It’ll be all your damn fault.”

“That...won’t happen...” I told myself. But I didn’t believe it fully. I cried into the hay I used as a pillow; listening to Mac yelling for me fade in the distance. “He’ll be fine.”

“Now he will die, and it’s going to be all your fault. You just killed the only pony you felt anything for.” The voice said harshly. The damn thing was trying to make me feel bad and it was working. “Remember the first day you saw him; you should have never saw him. He would still be alive if it wasn’t for you.”

“Fuck you.” I said burying my face into the hay. The tears were thick as they made their way down my face. I felt so pathetic. It was difficult for me to fall asleep, but I was able to get an hour or two. I gave up when the sun rose and its bright light was shining over the land. I poked my head outside and felt the warm rays on my face. It was very bright, but my eyes soon adjusted. Once I was able to see I saw Mac standing not far from my hut looking at me.

“No wonder why I couldn’t find you.” Mac said smiling at me. He hadn’t had slept. I could tell just by looking at his eyes. It made me feel better to know he was alright, but felt bad about making him worry and stay up all night looking for me.

"Why didn't you stop looking for me?" I asked him not able to look him in the eye. It hurt to see him like this.

"I wanted to make sure you were alright." He said giving me a warm smile.

"Are you stupid? You could have been killed; what if you never came back!" I felt tears in my eyes. Why did I always have to cry? Mac quickly came over to me and held me. "Why?"

"I don't know." He said hugging me tightly.

"You’re so stupid..." I cried into his coat. I just couldn't help it, I thought he was going to die.

"I know." He said comforting me. We were like that until I stopped crying. I looked at him; eyes stinging and with a frog in my throat. I punched him as hard as I could.

"Don't scare me, please don't scare me." I gave him a hard hug. He hugged me back, It felt really good; it felt right. He felt so warm-so safe-so secure. "I'm so sorry."

"I'm sorry Rose." I sighed and felt relaxed. "Do you really live here?"

"Ah...yeah." I said feeling a little embarrassed.

"You certainly are a survivor." He said with a light chuckle.

"Says the guy who walked all night in the Everfree forest." I said feeling myself chuckle a bit. I looked at Mac, his eyes seemed to glow to me. He didn't look tired anymore; maybe he looked complete. I felt something warm in my chest, it felt good to have him here, with me.

“I was worried about you.” Mac said looking at me. His eyes were haunting; he had a life, a real life. Me- I was the girl from the forest who didn't even have a life. I had nothing to live for, nothing in this world was for me. I was a stranger, I really was- wasn't I? It wasn't fare, it just wasn't fare. The lives we are all dealt with, all the lives that exist in this world. Why is this my life? “You okay?”

“Huh?” I felt myself drift back into reality. I looked at Mac, who was looking at me with confusion. I wasn't sure why he was looking at me like that.

“You alright, you have an odd look on your face.” I shook my head and gave him a smile. I pushed myself into him; feeling his coat against mine. He was so warm, so welcoming- I never wanted to let go. “I just don't get you.”

“What?” I asked, my turn to look confused. He sighed and looked at me with a warm smile.

“You’re not like anypony I've met. Why are you so different?” He asked rubbing his eyes. Mac had been up all night, his eyes must have been bugging him terribly.

“Maybe, it's because I'm complicated.” I said not sure how to answer his question. Odd- I never viewed myself as complicated. My life was simple, wake up, and find something to eat, make a fire, argue with the voice, and then fall asleep. It didn't seem that complicated; or maybe I'm meaning it as I'm different, which makes me complicated.

“I wish there was a book I could read about all of this.” Mac said chuckling. “Not that I read much.”

“Book! You have books?” I asked almost knocking him to the ground. He stumbled on his hooves; giving me a confused look. I felt my ears flop against my head; feeling the embarrassment set in. My face felt really hot.

“What about them?” Mac asked looking befuddled. I loved book to tell the truth. I've only read a few that I found in the forest. Some of them had missing pages and were hard to read, but I still read what little I had over and over. The stories portrayed with words, and the knowledge of learning. It was so exciting.

“It's nothing.” I said still feeling embarrassed. Mac started to laugh; sometimes he just surprised me. I still wasn't good with others, so I didn't know what to do; or how to react.

“You like books don't you. Well- I know the pony for you to meet.” Mac said starting to walk away. I wasn't sure what he wanted, so I followed him. After about a half an hour we were walking in Ponyville. There were a lot of ponies as we walked. I was keeping close to Mac; I was feeling sick seeing all the ponies around me.

"Mac, where are we going?" I felt myself getting paranoid. He looked at me and smiled. He continued to walk his path. His silence was not helping me, so I walked closer to him; I just couldn't help it. I lived in a forest for my whole life, only having to deal with a voice inside of my head. I'm wasn't use to other; being with Mac's family was tough enough to deal with. Especially her sister Applebloom, who asked question after question; mostly about my cutie mark and how I got it. She was quite disappointed when I told her I didn't know how I got it.

"Here we are, welcome to the Golden Oaks Library." The word library caught me off guard. I actually knew what that word was. It was something I had always wished to see. But I never thought I would see one.

"This is actually a library; one full of books?" I asked feeling amazed at the giant tree. It looked like house more than a library. Mac went up to the door and knocked. After a few minutes a purple alicorn opened the door.

"Oh, well hello Big Mac. How can I help you?" She asked stepping aside to let Mac inside. The alicorn looked at me with confusion. I was hesitant, but I did follow after Mac. I stayed close to him; wasn't sure if anything was safe, but I did feel paranoid.

"This is my friend Black Rose. She loves books, so I figured I'd take her here." I looked around and the room I was in was full of books; huge selves of books. The whole world melted away from me as I looked at them. I helped myself to the books, looking at each cover. I soon had a nice pile near me.

"Reminds me of myself." The alicorn said with a chuckle.

"Wasn't sure how'd she react Twilight. Glade she is enjoying herself; you don't mind do you?" Mac asked. The purple alicorn named Twilight shook her head with a smile.

"Nope, not at all. She is welcome to any book in the library." Twilight said with a smile as she walked into the other room.

"Who was that?" I heard a male’s voice ask from the other room.

"It's Big Mac and a friend of his." She said disappearing into the other room.

"What’s the friend’s name?"

"Black Rose."

"Oh, I rather like that name." The male’s voices said in a British type of accent.

"Ash, enough with that voice. Just go back to writing." Twilight said with a chuckle.

"Fine- fine." Ash said with a laugh. They sounded like they got along very well.

"Find something you like?" Mac asked coming over to me. He sat near me, I was half dead to the world. Looking at every cover, reading every title and author. I was getting goose bumps. I then pulled out a special book, one with a rose red cover with gold lettering. 'World Flowers.'

"Yes." I said opening the cover. The first picture was a rose, and on the left of the book it had a description for the flower. I started to page through the book slowly, just looking at the pictures, and skimming the lettering.

"Enjoying yourself Rosie Poise." I heard the voice said. But this time, it sounded distant from me. Like it wasn't inside of my head. I looked around and all I saw was darkness. "Welcome home."

"What? Where am I?" I asked feeling scared. A ray of light blinded me for a minute. Once I was able to see I found myself looking at myself. But this me, had a green coat with a white mane. The eyes were the worst feature about her, and that forsaken smile. Her irisis were black and her pupil was white, it was haunting. Her smile was like a evil clowns smile. Her lips pulled tightly to each side, showing off menacing razor sharp teeth.

“Where I usually am.” She said walking in a circle around me. I watched her, afraid of what she might do. I couldn't risk anything, I had to keep my eyes on her. That smile stayed, and that one eye that showed dug itself into me. “You see, this is a realm of torture. I brought you here to torture you; but I've been doing that since your whole life haven’t I? It's all because of your mother really.”

“Leave her out of this.” I said feeling myself getting angry. I was afraid, I really was; but I had to stand up for myself. I had to try at least. I couldn't let this voice win. “You're not even real, you’re just something in my head. None of this is real.”

“Oh, but that is where you are wrong Rosie.” She said stopping; her smile seemed to grow larger. The next thing I knew, I was on a table. It was a hard wooden table, like a workbench. I was tied down, limbs spread out in different directions. I looked around; trying to figure out what just happened.

“What’s going on here?” I asked trying to break free of my bindings. I pulled and pulled, but it was to no avail. The next thing I felt was pain, sheer pain going through my entire being. I screamed, screaming bloody murder, from the confusion and the pain.

“What a pleasant sound your making.” The voice said with a laugh. I looked in her direction and saw what was causing the pain. There was a knife in my side. The voice smiled at me as she slowly took the blade out of my skin. I shivered in pain as the knife left my flesh.

“You bitch!” I yelled feeling myself go numb. I felt my eyes get heavy and it felt like I was leaving my body. My eyes rolled back into my head as I felt nothing.

“Rose! Rose, please wake up!” I heard Mac’s voice yell I felt myself fall into darkness.

Simple Need, Ecstasy, X Marks the Spot

Black Rose:

All the torture stopped. I was confused at first, still was. Mostly because I was sitting in a bright and colorful room. It was my old room, the place I left a very long time ago. A place I wish I could forget.

"You forgot all of this." I turned around and saw the voice. She had cracks on her face, like cracks in clay before it falls apart.

"Forgot?" I asked her backing away a little. She put me through torture, she dug into me.

"You forgot me and fell apart, you left me." She was crying. This was new, for as long as I could remember the entity standing before me has always been cruel and mean.

"I don't understand." I said backing away a little again. Her eyes were glued to the floor. I soon hit the wall and I had a good distance between me and her. But it still wasn't enough, the torture she ha put me through, all that pain. It nearly broke me, and I just knew this was the last part of it.

"How could you, you left me alone!" She yelled, her voice echoing as if we were in a auditorium. She was looking at me with tears flooding her face. The cracks started to grow larger. "Wake up!"

"Please..." The distance between us was closed in a matter of seconds. She was in front if me, her eyes digging into mine. She grabbed me and started to shake me in a fierce rage.

"Wake up, please just wake up!" She screamed shaking me. I was confused, scared, and couldn't help myself from my crying. I had closed my eyes and was trying to imagine something else. I saw red, and then a face. One I knew I wanted to see again, Mac.

"Big Macintosh." I said and everything was still and sound. I sat there for a little. In a little time I realized I was laying down. I opened my eyes in confusion. I saw a white ceiling, I could hear a sound. I turned my head toward the sound and it was Mac. He was sound asleep. In a blind joy I rushed to hug him. Only to fall off the bed, I tried to catch myself but all I did was knock the contents of a bedside table onto the floor.

"What the?" Mac asked waking up. I was holding myself between on the bed and on the floor. Mac hurried to aid me. Once I was upright and back on the bed I was then able to hug him. I squeezed as hard as I could. "I thought you'd never wake up."

"Me too." I said feeling myself cry. After the moment we had Mac went to get a doctor. I tried to talk him out of it, but I didn't have a choice. Soon I had a doctor looking me up and down, taking my body temp, my blood pressure, my heart beat, you name it he checked it. The worst part is when he took blood, I felt sick as I watched the needle go into my skin.

"You'll only feel a pinch." He said, couldn't help but watch that dreaded thing go into me. Once it was all in good the doctor said he would be back with the tests. He had a very disgruntled look on his face.

"I hate this place." I said feeling trapped, I wanted to get outside. I hated being indoors for too long, it's just not natural to me.

"I asked the doctor to hurry, their not too busy so it should be relatively quick." Mac said looking at me with a smile.

"You okay?" I asked feeling embarrassed. He has been staring at me with a smile for a very long time.

"I'm perfectly fine." He said still with the smile. The door opened, I was expecting to see the doctor. Nope it was someone I didn't want to see. Princess Luna walked into the room looking at Mac and me.

"She is awake we err... I see. I am glade to see you are alright Rose." What a complete lie that was. All my so called mother ever cared about was keeping me locked in a house with others waiting on me like servants. I was an outcast, I couldn't stay there.

"What are you doing here?" I said slumping down in the itchy bed. I did not want to be here, I wanted to get outside. Just can't feel comfortable inside.

"We...I understand that you are not happy see me." Luna said, I avoided looking at her. Probably put Mac in a awkward place.

"Some mom you are. Your a princess and you can't even help me, no all you wanted to do was lock me up. You have some nerve, you could have told me I was going to die sooner." I was angry, this was all to much.

"Rosie I was only try to protect you."

"Do not call me Rosie, that 'gift' of yours. Just leave!" I was near yelling. I wanted to yell.

"If that is what you want, then I shall. Big Mac, please watch out for her." My mom said before she left. My eyes were glued to the opposite side of the room. I had a great view of the outdoors, really wanted to get outside. I dropped my head feeling a great pressure in my forehead. I saw something, something I hadn't seen in a very long time. Bending over I grabbed the soft plush teddy bear.

"Lilly?" My stuffed bear mom got for me, it was the first actual memory I had. I was so happy that day... I left Lilly behind. Mom kept her.

"She thought it would help you." Mac said quietly, I looked at him. He had his eyes at the ground. He felt like he did something wrong. He looked at me with an apologetic look. I smiled at him, which in return made him smile.

"I'm glade you got some sleep." I didn't know how long I had been unconscious. Mac's smile grew a little.

"Not the best night sleep, but still." He said with a chuckle. I couldn't help but laugh, when I did the door opened again. Wasn't happy to see who stepped through, I just didn't trust doctors.

"Well the test results are staggering." He said looking at Mac and me and then back at the clipboard. He looked worried and that made my heart drop. "Before when we ran tests we couldn't find anything at all wrong. But now we have something rather odd, mostly because it was the first thing we checked."

"What is it Doc?" Mac asked looking at me with worry.

"She has a serious malignant tumor, in your frontal lobe. It just baffles me that we didn’t catch this right away.” The Doctor said looking worried and panicked. Mac looked at me with worry.

“English Doctor.” I said feeling stupid. Even Mac knew what the Doctor was talking about. So that moment got even worse when he explained what it was.

“It’s cancer dear. Your…eye is an unusual effect and cause of the cancer. I just don’t understand why we didn’t find this right away. But it does explain the passing out and the coma you were in.” Man this was actually a surprise to me. I was always weird to the world. I was totally abnormal to everyone and everything, my eye was the first of it. Other ponies when I was young avoided me like I was a monster, even when I wore the eye patch. I became so depressed, and mom’s jail did not help. All those servants were afraid of me too, always cautious of everything.

“It’s actually a relief to hear I’m going to die from something a normal pony can get.” I didn’t mean to say that out loud. It just slipped out. Once we were out of the hospital, Mac was pushing me toward the actual town. He seemed worried, wasn’t sure about what at first. But after he got talking I put two and two together. He wanted me to live as much as my life as I could before I died. I already knew this day would come, I've made peace with it.

But Mac had no idea that this would happen. This was knew to him so I went along with what he wanted me to do, even if it did make me feel comfortable. “Mac what are we doing in Town Square.” I asked feeling closed in. It felt like there was wall to wall ponies. Mac looked worried as he smiled at me.

“I don’t know honestly.” He said with a meek smile. I let out a little sigh. I looked around trying to keep calm. I hated being around others, it just never felt right.

“Can we go somewhere else, maybe a forest or some place with less ponies?” I asked feeling like there was no air. Anxiety was starting to sit into my body; my breathing starting to get faster and shallower.

“Are you alright Rose?” Mac asked me, I took in a deep breath and nodded my head at him unable to speak. “Maybe we should go, this was a bad idea.”

“Big Mac-in-tosh.” I heard a female pony say in an odd accent that I couldn’t place in a million years. Made me want to punch her in the damn face too.

“Silver Crest?” Mac asked looking in her direction, I looked and a silver colored pony was walking up to us. She was wearing a chocker necklace that had a lot of different gems on it. It was very beautiful and I was sad to say she was too.

“How ya doing bud? She asked in a high pitched voice that could break glass. The two embraced in a short hug.

“I’m fine I suppose.” He said, his attitude changed, like he wished he hadn’t have seen her.

“Bit her, punch her!” The voice bellowed, for once I was sort of on its side.

“No one will do that, shut it.” I whispered to myself, but I wasn’t quite enough for her not to hear me. She looked at me with a confused look.

“Oh, who is this?” Silver Crest asked sounding like she was interested in knowing but in truth she didn’t care.

“This is my friend Black Rose.” I looked her in the eye with my visible one. She looked at me and with a look that clearly meant, ‘He is mine bitch.’

“Hello.” She said sweetly, man I wish I could pull her eyes out.

“Hi.” I said shyly; I didn’t like her, but I didn’t have any courage to do anything.

“So what kind of friend?” She asked Mac with a wink. I think I knew what that meant, and to be honest, I haven’t thought of that ever. Especially with Mac.

“We aren’t that kind of friends.” I said, it kind of hurt to say that; but it was the truth sadly.

“Oh, well now changing your ways Mac?” As soon as she said that my heart sank.

“Maybe, Rose isn’t like most girls.” Mac said and that made me feel good really damn good.

“Shy then? Never had any fun than?” Silver Crest said looking at me with a smile that made me want to cry. She looked like she won a battle. I couldn’t help myself, the tears started all on their own. I turned tail and ran away crying like a baby.

“Black Rose!”

“Leaver her, I’m so much better.” That is all I heard before I was out of ear shot. I could feel all the other pones eyes on me as I ran through Town Square.

“Hey, you alright!” I heard someone yell. I looked in their direction but couldn’t see anything through the tears. All I saw was a blurry image of black and red colors. I continued to run away leaving whoever it was behind.

Big Macintosh:

I left Silver Crest behind, she had yelled something to me but I was too worried about Rose to even care what she said. I followed her as best I could but she had a good head start, plus it helped that she was fast. I made it to the library before I lost her. Twilight’s boyfriend was standing there looking confused.

“Big Mac?” He asked looking confused. “Was that your friend that we carried to the hospital?”

“Yes, did you see where she went, please tell me you did?” I asked worried as all hell. He shook his head up and down looking at me with confusion and worry.

“It looked like she was headed to your farm. So if you think she’d go somewhere else I would check there.” I thanked him and soon I was running toward my family’s farm. But then I figured; wouldn’t she go home instead, to a familiar place? So that’s what I did, and the funny thing was that I was right. I couldn’t hear the sobs as I walked up to her little hut.

“You’re so pathetic!” See this is why you will die, because you can’t remember.” I heard the voice say with cruelty.

“Shut up White Lily!” I heard Rose yell crying. She sniffled a little as a sob escaped her.

“What did you call me?” The voice asked shocked.

“That is your stupid name! That was the name I gave you a very long time ago, we both forgot something. And I don’t want to remember!” I shuffled on my hooves, I wasn’t quite sure what to do. The voice was silent and the only thing that was left was the sounds of Rose’s sobs and sniffs.

“Rose?” I asked cautiously. I didn’t get a response so I crept closer to her hut. All I heard was Rose heavy crying. She must have been really hurt. “Rose are you okay?”

“No I’m not.” She said quietly, I entered the little hut and she was laying in her make shift bed sobbing.

“I’m sorry.” I said nd I did mean it, I didn’t mean for any of that to happen. I didn’t even think that would happen.

“It’s not your fault.” I want over and sat near her. But not too close, I didn’t want to make her feel uncomfortable anymore. I already did enough of that with the hospital and the Town Square business.

It kind of is.” I said, she was avoiding my stare. She almost looked like she was asleep, but her sudden sobs where a clear indication she was awake.

“No it’s my mother’s fault.” Now that took me for a spin. She seemed to really hate her mother.

“How is that? I asked feeling confused. I knew the two didn’t get along but I didn’t know why.

“Because it just is.” She was sounding a little childish.

“Isn’t that a little unfair Rose?” She perked up and looked at me with anger. I was taken aback by her reaction, I wasn’t expecting any of this. The tears that had once stopped for a short time had started again easily flowing down her face.

“What is unfair is that I had no freedom! What is unfair is that I’m a child of a damn princess and I have no idea who I truly am! What is unfair is that I will die before I have children of my own! What is unfair is that I have to deal with things I don’t understand! I will die because that is what my fate is, that is what is unfair Big Mac!” Rose pounded into the ground in frustration.

“I’m sorry Rose, I just…”

“No! It’s not fair, why can’t I have an actual life! Why did I have to be who I am! Why is my life like this! Why, why, why!” She kept slamming her hooves on the ground, soon there was an indent in the ground where she had been hitting.

“Rose.” I tried to interject but she wasn’t done just yet.

“I just wanted to have a normal life, I really tried. As soon as mom let me go to school; I tried to make friends. But I was treated as a freak. Then my mom cut me off for two years. Two years, I lived in a damn room; a damn room that gives me nightmares. Then that voice came; a guy with green eyes. I had someone, it was great. White Lily and I had some really good times for a little while; just for that little while I was actually happy. Or at least thought I was. But then something happened, I forgot… and then I ran away as fast and as far as I could.” She stopped for a second and sobbed a little. She took in a large breath and continued. “I lived alone for a year now. I was free, but I was afraid of meeting anyone. I was afraid of being ridiculed and treated as a freak. So I stayed in the forest that was until I saw you.”

“What?” I asked having a bad feeling. She wiped away some tears and rubbed her red puffy eyes.

“I was exploring the forest, and I saw you near it. What that other pony, that stupid Silver Crest. I saw what the two of you did… I stayed and followed you. I found out where you lived… I just couldn’t help myself, there was just something about you.” She said looking away feeling ashamed.

“You saw what we did? You knew and you…” I wasn’t sure what to say. Most girls would fight if I was ever caught in sight with another. Never really understood it, I hadn’t really cared, but now. I felt like a horrible pony.

“I felt jealous of her, I don’t know much about that subject at all. But something in me, I just feel stupid really stupid. This feeling…” She said starting to cry again.

“I’m sorry Rose I really am.” I said feeling literally like shit. “Please don’t cry.”

“It’s not your fault, we have to deal with what we are given. I just have to deal with this part of my life right now.” She said sniffling.

“If it helps, there is something about you that I don’t understand that affects me. My family has been the only thing I ever truly cared about. But there is just something about you that makes me feel so close to you. I feel I need to protect you, from anything and from anyone.” She smiled at that. Finally Rose looked at me, her silver eye that actually showed was puffy and red. She still looked so beautiful. At that moment I saw her lean in and she kissed me. Shocked me to the core at first, but when she pulled away I felt empty without her lips on mine.

“I’m sorry.” She said blushing looking way from me. I blushed myself,it was the first time a kiss actually made me feeling something like that.

“It’s okay.” I said with a really big smile.

“I just thought, what the hell.” She said with a weak laugh still looking away. I loved a little closer to her and she looked at me confused. I pulled her close and we kissed again, and it was even better than before. It wasn’t anything big, just a simple kiss but it felt amazing.

Black Rose:

I felt my mind melt as our lips touched a second time. So many things where flowing through my mind at once. I felt something hit my lips, it felt weird at first. I slowly opened my mouth just letting everything happen. I felt his tongue between my lips, I pulled back little feeling surprised. I never did any of this before, but I wasn’t about to stop. No damn way was I going to stop, it felt way to damn good.

His tongue disappeared, so in return I wondered into his mouth with mine. The kiss was pushed harder, the feeling of it all was intense. I felt an odd feeling between my legs that I only felt once in a while. Never really understood why until now.

“Please don’t stop.” White Lily moaned in pleasure. I didn’t intend to stop, I broke the kiss and pulled Mac in my direction. He was at first surprised, but he was now on top of me. I could feel his throbbing erection against my body. It felt so good to have him this close to me; I kissed him and he rubbed against me. A large amount of pleasure shot through my whole body. I never felt anything like this before.

I placed my hoof down touching his erection, in return it twitched. I rubbed it a little and he pushed into my hoof giving out a little moan. I smiled and did it again; same thing happened again, but this time he moaned even louder. He smiled at me and placed his hoof down between my legs. The feeling that shot through my body could have been a drug. I moaned in utter pleasure, whatever he was doing felt damn well amazing.

This little play continued for a little longer until he went down lower. He placed his mouth between my legs. I was confused at first, but as soon as he started to do what he did. Man let’s just say if someone had been standing behind Mac, they would have been kicked off their hooves. The pleasure I felt was so amazing. I pushed him a little and he stopped looking at me.

“I want to try… What you’re doing to you…” I said shyly. Wasn’t sure if I could or not, but I had to try. It would be selfish of me if I didn’t try to please him too. Mac chuckled a little and he moved me so we both could do it at the same time. It felt a little awkward at first, but it soon passed once he continued to pleasure me. At first I wasn’t sure what to do, I rubbed him a little. But soon enough I used my mouth how I figured it would work best. It felt really odd in my mouth, but once I pushed down he arched his back up and I knew he enjoyed that. I continued to do the same thing for a while.

“If you keep that up…I’m going to…” It sounded like a warning but also like he didn’t want me to stop. So I didn’t stop, I utilized my tongue and mouth how I thought it would please him the most. I didn’t stop, but he did. Wasn’t sure what was going on, but I didn’t let up. Soon he grunted and something hit the back of my mouth. “Sorry…”

“It’s fine.” I said blushing, I swallowed it on accident. I was mostly blushing because I swallowed it, not sure why but it felt good going down my throat. I turned around and looked at him with a smile. He smiled back at me, I didn’t want to stop but I didn’t know what else I could do.

“You ready?” He asked and I wasn’t sure what that meant. I didn’t want to look like an idiot, and if it meant we were going to continue than I was all for it. I nodded my head and kissed him. “I’ll take that as a yes.”

I felt him moved himself and his erection pushed between my legs. Then I felt a little pressure as he pushed into me. I took his erection without actually realizing what happened. It hurt for a little, and my mind kind of shut off for a short time. Mac didn’t move until I opened my eyes and looked at him. I hadn’t of noticed but I let out a gasp of pain, which was the reason he didn’t move. He was too worried about me. Once I was able to see straight I looked at him and moved my lower half up. A great deal of pleasure went into my legs. Slowly moving down I didn’t feel any pain, only mind melting sexual pleasure.

This made Mac smile, he pulled back a little and as he withdrew himself more of that amazing sensation shot through my whole body. It turned my mind to water as we continued the motion. Soon we fell into a nice slow rhythm. I want panting soon enough, the feeling I was getting was better than anything I had ever felt before. I felt something hit near my stomach, but we didn’t stop. We kept our pace, both panting. So I felt something that would have knocked me off my hooves if I was standing on the ground. I threw my head back and couldn’t keep my mouth closed as an intense sensation covered my entire body. Everything went black, my eyes rolled to the back of my head. I knew as soon as my mind came back that we would be doing this more times tonight. That one thought brought a big smile to my face. In return Mac smiled at me. “Ready for round Two Big Mac?”

Dark Endeavors

Big Mac:

The only thing that registered in my head was that she had fallen to the ground. I was worried, and when I started shouting the other two had come rushing in. It really did show that Ashura was in the royal guard, the guy had me calmed and was giving me orders. We were able to get her up and carried her to the hospital. No one was quite sure what happened to her, the doctors ran every test they could.

“How do we keep ending up back here?” Ashura said before he walked out the door. The guy seemed busy, like there was something on his mind. I didn't think much of it, wasn't any of my business; so I was staying out of it.

“Sorry about him, he’s a little stressed right now. Hope Rose is alright Big Mac, bye.” Princess Twilight said before she walked out after Ashura. I sighed and sat down on one of the waiting room chairs. Well she went to the doctor, not like she had a choice right now. Still couldn't figure out why she hated doctors. She was different, she certainly was; but I think that’s why I like her. She isn't like any other girl I met.

“She’s different because of me you idiot.” I heard someone say, but when I looked around I saw no one else. Not a single solitary soul. “Over here.”

“What? Who’s there?” I asked still looking around, trying to find anyone. But there was no one. “Show yourself.”

“I can’t you dip. I can’t believe you actually hear me, this is quite exciting.” I heard, I was on all fours turning around and around trying to find someone. This didn’t make sense. I was starting to get dizzy so I stopped my foolish action and sat down. I tried to focus on the plant in front of me. Feeling my stomach calm down, the room stopped spinning as well.

“I can hear you?” I asked feeling confused. It went quiet for a few minutes.

“Yes you can, and I’m not sure how or why. But this just means it’s one more head I can fuck with.” The voice said laughing. This was confusing, I never heard this voice before, so why was I hearing it now. “Rosie poise is down and out, and you sir are next.”

“Rose! Where you the one that hurt Rose?” I asked yelling at the voice. I noticed a mare in the room with me. She was looking at me like I was crazy.

“Sir, please keep it down.” She said taking a few steps away. I watched her leave hurriedly out the door; with a sigh I leaned back into the chair. Is this what Rose was so worried about? A voice inside of her head.

“She wanted to tell you, but was afraid too. What a big idiot she is, ha!” The voice said laughing. It made me so damn angry, it really did. “And this will only make things worse. She’s going to die soon, she told you and you didn’t even listen. Time is so short, and you were the idiot to try and make her feel better, and all it did was make her even more depressed. I love it, you help me more than you help her.”

“Shut up!” I yelled at the damn thing. It was driving me crazy, there was no way I was going to believe a word the stupid thing said. But the sad thing was, that I actually was believing every word. I couldn’t help it, how could I help it, It’s not like I knew any better than what I did. I didn’t know Rose well enough to guess on her moods. If she had something to tell me, how would I know? The voice and I had been arguing, and it got heated to the point where I was screaming. I got kicked out of the hospital for doing so.

“How can she be the way she is with you yapping away in her head?” I yelled once I was outside. It was a good thing it was a slow day at the hospital. It made me look less crazy with no pony outside to see me yelling at myself. I would kill this damn thing if it even existed.

“You think you’re better than me? How many mares have you fucked? How many stallions have you beaten? Open your eyes you pathetic asshole, because all of you will die soon!” I thought of that kid I beaten to a bloody pulp. All because he took a hit at me for stealing his girl.

“Sir?” A girl asked me from the front doors to the hospital. “You can see Black Rose.”

“Thanks.” I said, after that she ducked inside quickly. Probably had freaked her out from the yelling. I walked inside, ignoring the voice as I did so. Once I was inside the same girl lead me to Rose’s room. Once we got there, she quickly hurried her way away from me. Don’t blame her, I would do the same if I saw someone yelling at no one. I opened the door and saw that Rose was still asleep.

“Oh lookie, she’s dead.” The voice said laughing. Damn I was angry, but what could I do? How could I attack something that wasn’t even there? I walked up to her bedside. She looked peaceful asleep. To even think she had this thing inside of her head torturing her. How could she even live with it for this long? She was strong. “And you’re weak. I find you more fun.”

“Shut up you…” I couldn’t think of anything to say. So I tried to ignore it. But like last time, it really didn’t work all that well. It still talked and talked. Didn’t even need me to respond to have it version of fun. I just tried to ignore the voice, and focus on Rose. It was much harder than you could possibly imagine.

“Oh, we didn’t know someone was in here.” I turned to the door. The thing, or who I saw made my mind drop. Princess Luna was standing in the door way. She came into the room, closing the door behind her.

“What are you doing here princess?” I asked bowing.

“You’re such a gentlemen.” The voice said laughing. This thing had no moral respect. The princess put her hoof on me. I looked up at her, I knew I could stand. She looked upset, very upset.

“When we had heard of our daughter being brought here. We couldn’t help but visit her again.” The princess’s words took me off guard. Daughter, what was she talking about.

“Daughter?” I asked, she looked away from me and then at Rose.

“Black Rose, it my daughter.” She said standing next to Rose. She brushed her mane away from her face. This was the first time I actually seen her whole face. The eye that was usually covered opened suddenly. It was pitch black.

“What the hell?” I asked feeling creeped out.

“A curse she was born with.” I never really thought the princesses having kids. The concept really didn’t make sense to me. Twilight earned her wings, quite literally. I guess if alicorns did have offspring, they would be one of the three pony kinds.

“How was she born with a curse?” I asked trying to keep my distance. She was a princess, it made me feel a little uncomfortable to even be in the same room as her.

“We are the princess of the night. Things are very complicated.” She said, Rose’s eye closed. That’s why she hid her eye. She held a lot of secrets. The next thing I knew, I saw Rose’s eyes shoot open. She started screaming and was flailing about.

“We need help! Someone help!” I tried to restrain her. But for some reason she was impossible to hold down. “Rose! Rose, please wake up!”

“Make it stop!” She screamed at the top of her lungs. That was when I realized the voice had stopped talking to me. Rose laid back passed out. After she was calm nurses and doctors started to run in. I tried to tell them that it was just a panic attack. But they kicked both the princess and myself out of the room.

“Curious.” The princess said unhappy.

“That was a hoot!” The voice laughed in joy.

“Shut up.” I said muttering under my breath. But Princess Luna heard me.

“Excuse me?” She asked looking at me with caution.

“I didn’t mean you princess.” I said feeling stupid.

“You were talking to the voice than?” She asked with utter seriousness that made my mind turn and spin.

“You know?” I asked looking at her with disbelief.

“Why yes, we gave it to her. The voice is the good inside of the curse. Odd that you can hear it.” She said looking me up and down. The whole situation was uncomfortable. Mostly because she said it was a gift.

“What in Celestia’s name did you say? I’m sorry princess, but that voice is no gift.” I said feeling angery.

“Mommy dearest doesn’t know herself. Oh that’s a damn good laugh.” The voice said laughing. “There is no gift, it’s all one big huge curse. All because she couldn’t hold herself togeather.”

“It was her friend for year’s boy. A child of the night doesn’t give you many friends. Black Rose was given someone to even consider a friend. She lived alone for a very long time, without that voice she would have been alone.” The princess sounded like she was hurt. But she had no idea what this voice was actually doing.

“Have you heard this voice yourself?” I asked giving a cross look. She looked at me confused, she really had no idea.

“No we have not.” She said looking confused, she really had no idea.

“I’ve heard this voice for almost four hours and it’s made me want to kill myself. Again I’m sorry princess, but you have to forgive me if I don’t believe for one second that this voice is a good thing.” The voice was laughing. It was enjoying this, obviously it had more control over the situation than anyone did.

“What is the voice saying?” Princess Luna asked.

“It’s laughing, enjoying all the confusion and Rose’s state.” I said feeling a headache approaching fast in my frontal lobe.

“It’s been tainted, we knew we couldn’t trust him.” She said bowing her head in shame.

“Him, who’s him?” I asked her, she looked at me. She looked guilty, very guilty.

“We do not know his name. Just his old green eyes, he wanted to help us. But as it seems now, he did nothing to help anyone.” Princess Luna said bowing her head again. I wish I could do something to make her feel better, but I was at a lost. The voice wasn’t making anything better either. It was hard to think with so much going on in my head.

“What is not clear to us, is how you can hear the voice.” She said looking at me with confusion.

“Princess gets stuck on the moon and has a daughter. Talk about parent abandonment.” The voice said with a chuckle.

“Princess, forgive me. But you were banished to the moon, and you have come back not too long ago. How can you have a daughter in such a short time?” She looked at me with a smile, like she knew that question was going to arise.

“My daughter Black Rose is only three years old. She was born but a few days after my return. The stallion with the green eyes told us she was what was left of us from becoming nightmare moon. Something I had lost. She was the thing I forgot, the thing that made me nightmare moon. She is the rose of my life, she is the love I had lost for every pony in Equestria.” Princess Luna said not able to look me in the eye.

“And her eye?” I asked trying to focus. The voice was singing an annoying song about someone dying and pie. Was trying to push what the stupid thing was saying, so I wasn’t really paying attention.

“It’s the entity that lives inside of her that remains of nightmare moon. That is her curse, she is isolated because others don’t look at her like normal ponies. They feared her, yet she was such a nice pony. She grew up so fast, very fast. In a matter of three years, Black Rose had become a full grown mare.” Again the princess looked away from me in shame. “She had no memories of living in Canterlot. Who could blame her, she was bullied, and she was an outcast. She ran away, and we didn’t stop her. The only thing I could do for her was to give her a friend. One that would be there for her, obviously that was mistake.”

“You did what you could princess. You were only trying to help your daughter.” Princess Luna was crying. Never saw a pony that powerful cry.

“Please, if you would. Call me Luna.” She said trying to get her composure. It wasn’t really working at all. I did something a little unpractical, but once I did it she stopped crying. All I did was hug her, that’s all it took to make everything seem a little less stressful.

“Luna everything will be fine, I swear to you. I’ll be there for Rose, I have to be.” She looked at me with puffy red eyes.

“Why you?” She asked.

“Well…she different than anyone I have ever met.” I said feeling myself blush.

“You love her?” She was quite blunt, it was clear Luna didn’t have much experience with other ponies. Honestly I had no idea how I felt. But for some odd reason, I felt close to Rose. I wanted to protect her, care for her, and I just couldn’t explain why.

“I do not know Luna, I really do not know.” I said honestly. What else could I say?

Black Rose:

“Please just stop!” I screamed as I felt something dig into my flank. I heard laughter as I screamed out in pain.

“Now why would I do that? I want to make you suffer for as long as I can.” She said laughing as she moved the blade up, slowly cutting me open. I screamed as loud as I could as the pain erupted throughout my body. “Fix yourself and it will all stop.”

“Fix myself.” I said in a huff. It was unbearably hard to breath. “What do you mean, fix myself?”

“Figure it out you stupid little bitch.” She said hitting me across the face with her front hoof.

“Please stop.” I cried out.

“No.”

Big Mac:

Once we were let back inside, Luna and I sat by Rose’s side. It really didn’t make much sense to me. Why would she just pass out; just one second she was alive and well the next she is unconscious, and in questionable condition.

“Her condition is getting worse by the second.” The voice said with a chuckle. Luna had asked me to tell her what the voice was saying. So I told her what it said. She looked at me with confusion.

“We are unsure of what the voice is saying.” Luna said to me, she looked at Rose who was deathly still.

“Is something happening to her that no one can see?” I asked feeling stupid for asking that. How can something be happening to someone without anybody knowing. The doctors have run every test in the book, and they came up with nothing. “It must be the curse. I wish there was more we could do for her.”

“She’s dreaming, we know that; but something is stopping us from entering her dream. Whatever is inside of her head, is very powerful.” Luna was a princess, so she had god like powers. It was very worrisome when something was more powerful than her.

“I heard someone talk about dreams. They said that even outside of them, the things that happen around them can affect the dream. Maybe we can bring her nightmare, into a good dream.” I said feeling defeated. We really didn’t have much to go on. The voice wasn’t really helping, if I’d ask what it meant, it would laugh at me.

“We may know what might help. Stay with her Big Macintosh, we will return soon.” She said before leaving. Not quite sure where she was going. But she would know what might shock her out of this than anyone. I looked at Rose, she looked dead. Like someone who just died, lying in their coffin at their wake. I could feel tears trying to force their way out. I never really cried all that much, never felt right to cry.

“Rose, please just wake up.” I said letting the tears flow. They stained the sheets of the bed. It was stupid, but I couldn't help it. I looked at her, I knew her only for such a small time. I was already losing someone who made an impact in my life. It really wasn't fare, life was not fare. Luna returned with a assortment of things. She told me they were things from her childhood. But not one thing made any difference. She didn't stir or react, she was as if she was in a coma. I stayed with her through the night. Didn't want to leave her side, it just felt wrong. So I didn't leave her side all night.