Lost but always loved

Chapter #3 Memories

When the world went black I felt a slight buzz in my head and soon following were memories that I remembered.  Have you ever had your life flash before your eyes?  It’s kind of like that but it’s being played in an old VHS tape and the quality is poor and some of the images are damaged.

As we played through my memories it started to hurt as we got to some of the most recent ones.  “There’s my parents the night before I came here.” I was sad that that’s all I have left of them but I was on edge since we were so close to finding out what happened.

I was driving and all seemed fine but then all stopped.  “What happened?” I looked to Luna for an answer but by looking at the expression on her face she was as baffled as I was.  “The memory just stops.” “What do you meant it just stops?”  “I cannot access the rest of the memory it’s buried down in you and I cannot retrieve it without further damage to your memories.”  “I’m happy that we figured out this much I really don’t want to lose more memories.  But there is something that I would like to see.”  Luna just turned her head to me and waited for my request.  “Can I see myself, as a human again, as I really was?”  She nodded, her horn lit again and soon there was me standing not too far away, but something was wrong.  “Luna.”  “Yes?”  “I don’t recall having wings.”

As I looked over the human form I saw a pair of massive midnight blue wings that started between the spine and the shoulder blades.  “You didn’t but you asked to see yourself for what you really were, and that is what I have provided.”  “But I don’t understand, why do I have wings?”  Luna smiled warmly and seemed amused at my ignorance.  “Having wings can mean many things, it could mean that you’re to watch over someone, that you have been through a horrible ordeal, it could mean that someone considers you their angel.”  As she spoke I ran all sorts of scenarios through my head to see if any of them match but none did.  I don’t think that I have to watch over someone, if I was then why am I here, I had a pretty good life so no hardships there, so I pondered who could be considering me their angel but after fifteen minutes I stopped wondering because I had other things to think of.

“Luna, thank you for trying to help me but I think that if I am to have my memories then I have to find them myself.”  “That is fair and noble.  I will leave you to sleep and dream in peace till you wake up.” As she walked off I felt a sense of loneliness and really didn’t want her to leave.  “Ummm Luna?”  She stopped and turned to face me.  “Yes Helix?”  “Could you stay here till I wake up?  I don’t like being alone.”  Luna smiled and walked back.  “I can do that.” And so for the rest of our time we sat and talked and even just cuddled and enjoyed each other’s presence, but it still felt like there was something missing and that doing this felt wrong; however like I said, I just needed to company.

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Once I woke up, feeling surprisingly well rested, I sat up and rolled over onto my back, being careful of my wings, and saw a white pony with a pink mane that was checking one of the monitors that was connected to me.  “My I help you?” since her back was to me I shouldn’t have been surprised that she was startled.  “WHA? Oh, no.  I was just checking this monitor because it appears not to be functioning correctly.”  Noticing that she was checking the machine, not the connection and since I got up earlier, I traced the other end of the wire to the floor and decided to attract attention to it.  “That might be because the floor doesn’t have a blood pressure”  Once she noticed the sensor on the floor she face palmed,  errr hoofed, and went to put it back on.  “I wonder how this came off.”  I just shrugged “Beats me.” I decided not to tell her that I got out of bed since hospitals didn’t normally like it when patients get out of bed.

“May I ask when I can leave?” the white mare looked at a clipboard before answering my question.  “Since you’re now conscious, you should be released in about a week.  Until then it’s probably best for your wing to heal.  But I am curious, why are they so big?”  In brief time here I haven’t seen any other ponies with wings, besides Luna’s, so I haven’t been able to figure out what’s normal since seeing only one doesn’t count.  “To tell you the truth I don’t know.  May I ask you your name?”  “My name is nurse Red Heart.”  After checking a few things, nurse RH left to attend to other patients leaving me by myself again.  “I hate being alone.” Going back to the nurse’s comment I stretched out my wing and tried to judge its size compared to Luna's.  Since I have only seen them stretched out once, trying to figure that out was a pain in the tail.

After a small internal debate, the conclusion was made that my span was just under Luna’s and that their build was quite strong, stable and MAN were they sensitive.  In my experimentation I touched the leading edge and felt a strong shock to my spine.  It didn’t hurt but it felt exhilarating, I can’t wait to start flying to see how that feels, however that means that I need to learn how so ill tackle that when I get there.

For the next hour, nothing much happened besides the time straightening out the bed, being OCD has its ups and downs.  So it was quite uneventful till I heard a faint knocking.  “Come in.” the door slowly swung open revealing the pony that woke me up when I first got here.  “Oh hello.” When I spoke it caused her to hide behind her mane, how does she keep it so clean?  “I’m sorry, was I to loud?” that seemed to help since she was now looking at me.  “N-n-no I’m just shy, but thanks for talking quietly.  I just came to see how you were doing.”

“I’m ok I guess but why are you checking on me?  I don’t even know your name.”  “I’m Fluttershy…wow I said it without stuttering.” I was confused at this ponies antics.

“Do you normally stutter?”  “When I meet somepony I always stutter since I’m so shy.”  Well duh your name implies it.  Fluttershy set down a basket at she had balanced on her back and sat down in a chair that was just on the right side of the bed.

“So what’s your name?” “I’m Helix.”  She held out her hoof and I returned the gesture for a shake, I guess.  “So Fluttershy?” “Yes?” “How did you find me?”  “I found you while I was on my way back from Zecora’s place since I had to grab some medication for one of my sick animal friends.”  Would it be bad to say that I pony is an animal to?  Deciding not to ask the question I continued on with my other inquiries.

“When you found me were these bands on my wrist?” I held out my hoof to show Fluttershy the two purple bands that were on my wrist.  “Ummm…I believe you had those when I found you.”  Well that limits the possibilities of where I got them to almost anywhere.

“Ok and now for my next question, why am I in a hospital?”  She started to rub her front leg as she spoke.  “Ummm I brought you here after you passed out.”  Well that much I knew.  “And how did I pass out?”  If I knew a look for ‘Are you stupid?!?!’ I received it right then.

“The wing of a Pegasus is packed full of sensory nerves.  When your wing was knocked out of place the amount of instant pain was too much for your mind to handle, so to protect its self, it ceased to function.”  I really shouldn’t question the capacity of one’s intelligence before I get to know them better.

“Uuuu o...k?  And my last question…” I extended my right wing to its full extent.  “How do my wings pair up in comparison to others?”  If I knew the definition of shock it would have been redefined right there.  “Ummm…wow I’ve never seen wings that big, other than the princesses that is.”

So she has seen her to, good so I’m not crazy.  “Speaking of the princesses.  Luna wanted me to give this to you.”  Fluttershy held out a scroll with a silver crescent moon that held the scroll shut.  “I wonder what this is?” I opened the note and tried to read it but I couldn’t, for the life of me, focus on the words.  “Uuuu Fluttershy? Could you read this please, I can’t seem to focus on the words”  “Sure.” As she read I started to wonder why she didn’t just tell me on the dream plane.

“Dear Helix

I hope that you are having a speedy recovery and are doing well.

I have contacted the hospital and you shall be able to leave tomorrow.  After signing out there will be a carriage waiting for you to bring you too Canterlot, my home, so that I may ask you an important question that may only asked in person.

Sincerely: Princess Luna”

“Wow a royal summons.” This might have impressed Fluttershy but I was starting to wonder what Luna was doing, and why she needed me to come to her since she has proven that that seems unnecessary.  “So is this a big deal or something?”  “Normally the only ponies that receive these summons are important representatives and my group of friends.” “No offence Fluttershy but why would you get these as well?  As far as I know all you do is take care of animals”

For the next few hours I was informed of the elements of harmony, her group of friends, all of the enemies that they have defeated and that one of her friends, twilight sparkle, was the solar princesses’ personal protégé and the only alicorn in Ponyville.

“That’s quite incredible but that still doesn’t answer why Luna wants to see me.”

“Well that I don’t know but I have to get back to tending to all of the creatures at my home so I should go”

“That’s ok, thank you for bringing me here.  As far as I can remember no one has been that kind to me.”

“You’re welcome.  Besides kindness is me so I guess that makes sense”

And with that she left me to myself, the stupid heart monitor, and my thoughts.  “Man she’s adorable.” Once I said that I felt like I just betrayed someone and the bands on my wrist seemed to tighten, but when I looked down at them they appeared to be undisturbed.  “I guess I need to find out what’s going on with these soon.”

Since I wasn't going anywhere till tomorrow I decided to spend my remaining time sleeping and waiting for the time that I can walk…er trot out of here.