Dark Turn

"Twilight Sparkles Suicide Note"

the words left her lips like a wave crashes into a rocky shore. all she could do was stare at the four words in front of her. hating her eyes and mouth for ever reading such an awful title and wishing her mind would never even think that her lover could be gone. but like a sonic rainboom it hit her and she screamed calling for her lover,  hoping she wasn't to late.she threw the note back on the desk and began her search.

she began to run through each room in the house at speeds that could put even Twilights teleport magic to shame. each room proving to be to dark for any sign of life. (or past life in her case) after ten minutes of looking and re-looking it proved that she was alone. even Owlicious and Spike seemed to be missing as well. and with every nightmarish thought Fluttershy had through her searching, led her to create pools of tears wherever she went.

she wasnt thinking clearly the only objective she had was find her love before its to late. Fluttershy's need to help overpowerd her thoughts to get help which wasn't common for Fluttershy.

with no luck on finding her love she knew what she had to do, even though she didn't want to even believe it existed. the note was the only thing that could help her find her beloved friend. she grabbed the note while trying hard not to get to many tears on it, she began reading the note.

Twilight Sparkles Suicide Note

oh Celestia why is this happening to me did i allow this to happen maybe i should have seen this coming no how could i have foreseen this kind of ending.

ok ok ok let me begin by saying that I am not insane, however my other half is. well i'm not completely sane but i'm still writing this and can still sort of think clearly but i... dammit!

how do you explain madness to somepony when you yourself do not quiet understand it. alright how about i start over. buck! i'm out of letters. maybe sending spike and owlicious to my fathers house for the week wasn't such a good idea. alright i will just continue using this one. and try to began again. sorry for the inconvenience.

Fluttershy noticed a small attempt to cross out the paragraph and couldnt help but give a slight grin to her lovers obvious stressing out even on paper.

but the grin was shortlived after realizing her Twilight was still missing. and she continued reading the note.

hello if you are reading this i should be dead and safe from anymore torcher. now i'm not sure what caused this madness or even what form of madness this is but i assure you i cannot control it. but this demon does control me and i can't fight it anymore at first it only came at night while i laid in bed, and i assumed it was just due to my pure exhaustion or my inability to think clearly when i'm tired. but over time it started showing up in the morning then the afternoon. now i only get control for minuets every few hours. Which i have managed to hide it from other ponies physically but my mental state is quickly weakening.

when it takes control i can only sit and watch whatever terrible thought it forces me to endure. and all this demon wants is to watch my life crumble right in front of me and to destroy my mind while crushing my spirit. which means it only targeted the ones i love especially my friends.

oh my friends the greatest lesson, feeling, or power i have ever experienced. but to the demon they are just pawns for my destruction. each one has been a target in its eyes on separate occasions. I only fear what may happen if i let it gain complete control in front of one of them or all of them.

and with it changing its target daily with no time to plan or attack and with my mental powers stopping it. i felt certain that nopony would get hurt. until it happened. I couldn't stop it, I couldn't have predicted it, and now I can not hide my feelings from it anymore. she loves me and i love her. my closest friend Fluttershy told me she loved me and i couldn't hold the demon back. it was almost more excited then i was.

it had found the perfect target. my one and only love.

for days or what seemed like years, my mind was gone and in some cases i could not sleep without imagining slowly murdering my sweet Fluttershy.

it toke what was left of my sanity and reformed it to enjoy not physical but only mental pain. then it started giving me these little... lets call them tickles, that would send jolts of pure ecstasy through my body. but only when i thought of killing my friends especially Fluttershy.

it also tought me just how weak the mind truly is, i mean just one opposing thought or image can occupy your whole day.but if you simply lie to your mind that right is wrong and wrong is right or what is horrifying is now pleasurable even hunger and thirst were nothing but distractions. after that i almost welcomed the demon.

but i also knew if it got what it wanted i would most likely be executed or locked up for the remainder of my demented life. and it didn't like that, it needed more than a long game of cat and mouse between me and the law. it needed the perfect timing and it is only growing impatient.

I would like my very last words to be truthful even though i hate to admit it. but in my weak mental state i started to enjoy the fantasies and ideas it had. and now my only thoughts are of killing ponies in the most gruesome ways. i feel as though i am caught in the middle of a battle between the rest of my minds sanity and this demon. and i cant let this demon win but i can't fight anymore.

and suicide is my only option left. however i have sadly become slave to these indescribable feelings of bliss i get every time i think of killing one of them. i just hope the demon doesn't gain control while i write this. and if it does I pray for Fluttershy's safety and the safety of anypony who has so foolishly grown to love me.

and if you are reading this please make sure im dead and if I am not... then run as far away as possible before it or I find you!