Chapters What can I call home, I don't have a family, I have (correction) I had a hive. That was the closest thing I've ever had to somebody caring for me... My hive brothers and sisters... We, we were raised from crystal eggs to where we are now. And now I wish i had died in the explosion. I have nothing, my connection with my hive has been lost and I am alone and broken. I am sad and alone. It's strange, I've tasted my feelings before, Love being sweet with hate being bitter. But sadness. Sadness taste like sadness. There is no way to describe it. I'm stuck in a cycle, I get hunger pains and am forced to eat the sadness of the other Changlings who didn't die. We are all disconnected and alone. But being alone together is better than death. My body is broken and my soul is crushed too. I tried to fly, to fly away from my dying brethren. I only made it about half way to Ponyville before the royal guards shot me down with their rays of magic. I landed about in the EverFree Forset and I'm awaiting my slow death. I haven't fed in a few day and my magic shield is failing. Soon I will become completely visible to any passerby's. Then she came. I remembered her. Her sunflower coat. I had mimicked it during the battle. I assumed she was one of us when she pointed us into battle while trying to hide, after looking back I could see her prismatic friend kick away the clones. She had tricked me. But that was ok now, she was my savoir, she was gonna walk over and crush my skull hopefully. I didn't want to live. I had lost my hive, my purpose. My life was supposed to be devoted to my Queen but she was now imprison and our connection was lost. So many of my brothers and sisters died before my eyes, and now it was my turn. She stood over me, the sun blocked out around her so I could only see her shadow. She was rather... * beautiful*?[ Yes beautiful, and now she was gonna kill me, I closed my eyes and felt a single tear escape my eye, it fell upon a large cut on my hoof, It stung like crazy! But that was ok, because I was gonna die, or was I... why is she just looking at me? Is she gonna say something, tell me I'm a monster? Why, why must she prolong my suffering when I want to do now is die. I want to go to my queen and be with my 'family' why won't this stupid pony just kill me!/i]
"please" I begged
"what?" She seemed to be confused now, she tilted her head and the sun shone in my eyes
"kill me" I look at my body, and I tasted something... Empathy? Pity maybe... but it was coming from her? Did she pity me? Did she forgive me and now felt sorry for me? Why?
"why would I do that?" I saw a tear drip onto the soil in front of where I had crashed and was now going to die.
"because, I don't want to live, I'm a monster and I tried to kill you and your friends" I looked at her wondering why she was sad? The flavor came back to me, I hated it, it radiated out of both of us. Then she did something no pony or changeling had ever done before...
She sat down next to me hugged me tightly with both hooves!
It was bouncing everywhere, I could feel my mind go blank as I tried to suck in as much emotion as I could I felt my bones healing and my wings gaining power. My horn began to glow and I moved a tree branch off me as I stood up. She cowered down in fear.
"please don't" she cried out almost sobbing now
"what? I'm sorry? What did I do" *why was I apologizing to her? I should be feasting on her! I should stick my fangs right into her bucking neck and suck all the love I can out! but I couldn't, no... I felt something. It was a familiar feeling... I thought, tiring to remember where I had tasted this particulate emotion before... and then I realized... This feeling was coming from inside me. I had felt it given to me when I had posed as a father. 'my ' wife, when she kissed me... This feeling was love . I felt it for this mare*
"you're... you're not gonna suck my love?" she spoke and looked up, I could see her cutie mark. Three small pinkish butterflies
"no, I wish I could, I want too, but I can't bring myself to do that anymore" I looked down almost ashamed... I was a loved eating carnivore and I couldn't even do that!
"What do you mean? Your supposed to eat my love?" She put her head in the same cockeyed way she did earlier.
"That's not the only emotion we feed on. It's just the most tasty... I can taste it now. Can I ask you name?" *EREMEGERSH WHAT WAS I DOING! I"M A MONSTER no... I was a monster, I'm something else now. I can't feel it but if I was a monster she wouldn't still be alive*
"um, I'm Fluttershy... whats your name?" Fluttershy spoke in a soft tone like she had but it seamed to have more depth now, now that she wasn't just a faceless nopony... she was going to be nice to me even though I was a monster, or something else... I don't really know yet... Then I realized i couldn't answer her question.
"I... I-I don't have... a name... or at least I don't think I do. I was part of a hive and when I was in the hive we had a telepathic connection to our queen and that was us, we were one and our name was the changelings..." I thought about smiling at the memory of the good days in the hive... I felt something else now too, It tasted almost as good as love. Happiness, Yes, I felt this several times when I pleased the queen! And now I felt it because this *Fluttershy wanted to be my friend*
"may I give you one. A name" Fluttershy asked
"NO!" I shouted "I'm sorry, its just... I don't want a name because then it means that I'm lost forever now... and I will never see my brothers or sisters again... so no thank you"
"Oh, its ok I understand" Fluttershy hugged my again, I felt her tears hit my shell. A new sensation rushed up my spine. Love again! Did she love my too? But why? My heart sunk, she had no reason to love a monste- My thoughts we interrupted with her words again
"would you like to come to my cottage? I bet you need a place to stay for a while!" Fluttershy began to walk to her cottage without my answer... whatever that didn't matter I had my first friend and I wasn't going to let her down! A smile appeared on my face, it was the first time I smiled since we broke the force field... and the first smile ever with my new friend...
As we walked back to the cottage I got strange looks from the local animals, If it wasn't for my hard shell a few of the bee stings would have actually hurt. She did stand up for me, Fluttershy, she told the animals that if she was my friend then they can be my friend. I tasted it again, happiness. Gosh, I liked it so much, I think I prefer happiness over love. The only way I will get to taste love again is to deceive. And if I do that I might lose my only friend. That was something I was not going to do!
"Hey Fluttershy..." I was watching her flank. Its a good thing my face is made of a hard shell otherwise she would have seen it turn a different shade of red.
"yes, what can I do for you?" Fluttershy slowed her pace so that she was walking besides me.
"um nothing, I just wanted to know, when you told the animals you were my friend if that was true...?" I look in her eyes, almost pleading for an answer
"Of course. everybody is my friend if they don't try to eat me!" Fluttershy answered rather quickly but I knew it was the truth. I could feel myself getting stronger. I was feeding on all this extra emotion. It made me feel full, something that I hadn't felt in a while.
"thank you so much" I through my hoof around her neck and we continued to walk.
"we're here" She ducked down and my hoof dropped to the deck with a loud *clack. If my ears weren't attached to my head they would have hit the ground too. I liked walking like that. She reached in her saddle bag for a key, she pulled it out and twisted the lock and pushed the door aside. "come on in, get used to you new home"
"oh wow, you have so many animals!" I looked at the ceiling it was covered with bird houses and the bottom had fluffy beds everywhere. The walls had lots of pictures of animals too!
"I know, I love animals, I got my cutie mark because of animals!" She smiled tilting her beautiful flank so that I could admire her cutie mark. I was looking at something else but whatever...
"Not to try to be rude or anything, but where can I sleep?" I looked around, I really hoped she didn't make me sleep on the couch
"um, well if its ok with you I have a bay window in my bedroom you could sleep in, I do have to warn you, birds wake up very earlier to and usually go through that window." She gave an 'I hope that's ok' grin
"Perfect, I like waking up to fresh smells!" I hate waking up early but I would get to be near Fluttershy so it would all be worth it
"Yay" Fluttershy pumped her hoof in the air. She then waved me up and I followed her. Once we were upstairs she opened up a closet to pull out some covers. I could have sworn I saw a Playcolt.
"Thanks" I grabbed the covers and placed them neatly folding them in a way so that it was extra plush so that I could just sleep on top. "Hey Futtershy"
"yes Mister Changling, you are a mister right?" Fluttershy cocked her head
"yes I am the male of my species, um but I was wondering if you had anything to eat" I blushed at the question, did I look like a mare?
"oh um I don't think we have any meat-"
"I'm not just a carnivore I can eat anything" I interrupted making sure she knew I wasn't gonna eat her prized animals
"well in that case would you like a cherry and dandelion sandwich. That's my favorite" Fluttershy smiled now
"Id love one! May I help you make it?" I just wanted to spend more time with her
"oh yes please, could you check in the cabinets above the sink and find the bread?" She smiled still
"yup, on my way now... and Fluttershy... Thanks for letting me stay with you, I appreciate your kindness!" I looked back at her before I walked downstairs the smile she wore softened and I thought I saw tears of joy, Made me smile too. I then headed downstairs to start the sandwich.
After lunch Fluttershy decided it would be a good idea to try to introduce me to her friends, I hope this goes well...
It was a rather peaceful day in Ponyville. It was a Sunday so most ponies were spending time with their family, it hurt to think about that topic. My hive was always a sensitive topic, but I was ok now, Fluttershy and me were going to go meet her friends and maybe I was going to make some new one's. As we got near our first location she said something about this pony being the more friendliness focused of the group, she said she would start me off slow before introducing me to her other friends. It was an oddly shaped building with a little wooden sign outside reading 'Sugar Cube Corner' It wasn't even on a corner I thought. Whatever, it didn't matter what mattered was the pony inside. The sign on the door said closed but Fluttershy opened the door anyways...
"Pinkieeeeee, Are you in here, I want to introduce you to my new friend" Fluttershy said I was her friend and that made me happy!
"Oooooh new friend I can't wait-" The pink pony was bounding around the corner but once she saw me she stoped hr talking and jumping and just stood mouth agape. I was about to look down, to be sad and just trot away, but then she smile from ear to ear. Confusion was the first emotion I felt, then happiness, If she was smiling, it meant she was happy!
"Hello, I'm... uh well I don't have a name but Fluttershy calls me Change so you can call me that" I smiled so wide my eyes almost closed.
"So Fluttershy, how'd you tame yourself such a cute monster"
"oh gosh..." She blushed alot and I did too
"Thanks I think" I smiled still
"Want a cupcake?" The pink pony asked me. I had to think. Trying to recall as much memory as I had in my brain to find out what had just been offered to me... I couldn't
"I don't think I know what a cupcake is, Can you explain?" My smile faded but I wasn't unhappy, Pinkie Pie seemed to be almost as surprised as when she first saw me.
"YOU'VE NEVER HAD A CUPCAKE!!!" She had shouted so loud and with so much force Fluttershy's mane got tangled, I was glad for once mine wasn't soft. My ears however we more sensitive than a normal pony and I probably would hear ringing for the next few months.
"I DON'T BEL-" Fluttershy put her hoof over my mouth, I didn't realize I was screaming "sorry, um and no I've never had a cupcake... I'd love to try one if you don't mind" I started to smile again. The way they were treating me, I almost forgot I was different from then, but I didn't care, If they didn't care.
"I'll go get one right now" With that Pinkie kicked up some dust as she rushed into the kitchen. Me and Fluttershy took a seat at a booth.
"So Change, How are you enjoying Pinkie Pie?" Fluttershy smiled, she knew my answer before I did
"She's nice, and random, and slightly enthusiastic... slightly " I said the second time with sarcasm, earned me a small laugh from 'Shy. Then she bounded in carrying a tray like the do in fancy restaurants with the big bowl like lid on top and all shinny. So shiny I could see my reflection. I frowned a bit, I wasn't like them, I would never be like them. I would never live a normal life. I was different and I had nopony who could relate to me. I was the last of my kind that I know who survived. I wiped a tear from my eye 'NO ' I was not going to let this bring me down! Fluttershy liked me and now this Pinkie Pie pony liked me! I had made progress and I am determined to be happy! then she lifted the lid I could taste her emotions she seemed extremely exited. It was like she was happy to be giving me a taste of "MGPHFF" she cut my thoughts off as she shoved a cupcake into my mouth.
"How is it!" She smiled super wide! Almost bending physics!
I manage to muster "its good" with only a few crumbs falling out of my mouth. The cupcake was sweet, so sweet. It tasted almost as sweet as love. I looked into the ponies eyes "It's better than good" I spoke clearly now with the cupcake down my throat "It's amazing! Almost the sweetest thing I've ever tasted!"
"yay" Fluttershy gave a small cheer as she ate her cupcake also, she ate slower more elegantly. She was cute, she was always cute she wa- I stopped myself. I know why I was thinking these kinds of thoughts, I just wasn't ready to accept it in my soul...
The next few visits went off without a hitch Rarity was nice, AppleJack was a little jumpy at first and Twilight was more than thrilled to be able to befriend a Changling. She almost wrote a letter to the Princess but Fluttershy told her that might be a bad idea to do write now. And as we headed towards her finally friends house I couldn't shake the feeling I was being watched. It was nearly night and Celestia had just set the sun so I was nearly invisible except for my red eyes and wings. Anypony who stopped us along the way was kind. They all forgave me. I felt so good. Yet I was still alone. Still broken away from my hive. It's weird. Being broken in such a way that you feel worthless. I had to stop along the walk with Fluttershy to gather myself. so many thoughts, ideas jumping in my mind. I thought about my queen, about Fluttershy about her friend and now my friends too. I was happily broken. But I'm still broken. There's no way to fix me. Eventually I will accept it but for now, I'm just alive, not living.
"Hey 'Shy" I stopped so she would also
"Yes Change?" She smiled at me, only boosting my confidence
"thanks, for like, everything, I really do appreciate all your help and kindness, I don't even think i'd still be alive if it weren't for you." I walked forward and gave her a big bear hug. I really needed a hug, I cried a bit but she calmed me down. She cared for me, she was forgiving enough to accept me for the pony I am instead of the monster I was. I loved her. It was the first time I had thought it since... well yah. I thought I loved Fluttershy. She was perfect. I made a promise to myself that day. I would protect Fluttershy now matter what happened. She was my queen. I would and will server her and try to please her for the rest of my natural and hopefully un-natural life. (We changelings live much slightly longer than ponies. Maybe by a 2000 moons) But It was my goal. I wanted to make this mare the happiest mare in the world. We finally broke the hug she smiled and kissed me on the nose. I tasted it. Love, happiness, Friendship, and trust. Trust was new for me. I tasted it slightly in the air around the my new friends but this from Fluttershy. This was true trust. Maybe even true love. But that was not for today's discussion. Now was when we were going to talk to her oldest friend. Rainbow Dash. I mentally smacked myself for having such a big mood swing, from not accepting my love for this mare to now being ready to devote my life to her. Whatever. I had a purpose now, and I was happy...
It was time, We were going to meet Fluttershy's oldest friend! I was sure exited. All her other friends had accepted me enough to call me anything but a monster! I was happy, my day was going great and Fluttershy seemed exited to show me her friend.
"Let's get going, It's almost ten o' clock and I need to be back by eleven to but my animals to sleep." She looked in the direction of her house.
"Alright-y! How far away is her house?" We were walking side by side, at night. I loved this.
"Actually she said she was going to meet us in this park? I don't know where she is... I hope she remembered" Fluttershy walked up to the gazebo in the middle of the field. She looked back at me, I smiled and then her eyes grew wide with panic! "CHANGE LOOK OUT"
I turned just in time to see a streak of rainbow coming towards me. It's a good thing I had military training, I dropped to the ground and dodged the incoming streak. It stopped on the gazebo and looked me. Anger filled her eyes. She launched herself at me again. I dropped my head but my flank got the force of the blow. I felt my shell cracking. Anger filled me! I was a blood thirsty monster again!
I charged her she ducked and I dropped to the left to dodge the kick. She batted at the air and I pushed her hoof down causing a jarring crack to be heard. The force of me pushing her leg down cracked the concrete. It looked as if she made a crater. I backed up putting myself between this attacker and my Fluttershy! She charged me. I wouldn't dodge I didn't want her to hit Fluttershy! I took the full force and was thrown against the fences of the gazebo,shattering every board! My head was spinning but I couldn't let this reckless beast. I jumped up again my body throbbing my head dazed from the hit. I looked down, I was bleeding. I could feel a piece of the fence post in my chest. I looked to Fluttershy who was shocked at what happened! I jumped in front of her ready to defend. The rainbow streak barreled towards me! I took the force of it but bounced back to where I was standing. This was my queen, no matter who this pony was she was not going to hurt 'Shy
She charged me again, gaining enough speed to create another streak of rainbows behind her, I grabbed 'Shy and rolled right through the hole I created I carried her for a while, my ears were ringing but I thought she was screaming for me to stop. I did, I then collapsed my hoof reaching for the puncture in the softer part of my shell. I winced in pain tears blocking my view. I saw the rainbow girl standing at the hole. I pulled Fluttershy behind me and stood in front of her. Or at least I tried to, I lost a lot of blood and was wobbling way to much to stay standing so I stayed crouched with my back legs ready to kick off.
Then I felt Fluttershy's hoof brush up my back, up my neck and onto my head... I looked to her and through my tears I could see her crying too. She looked at the mare who had attacked us and said some things I couldn't hear my ears were still ringing. The rainbow mare rushed towards us I kicked off and tackled her. I shouted at Fluttershy to run but she just approached me calmly. She was definitely crying I felt her tears hitting my shell. I tried to keep a hold of the attacker but I couldn't.
"I'm sorry" I whispered with my last breath as my eyes shut... The last thing I saw was the rainbow-ed mare pulling up a hoof to... hug 'Shy? No was probably kill her too, and it was my fault... "I'm sorry..."
Pain... That's the first thing I felt. The comfort, a soft object brushing my face over and over.
I was lying down. In a bed somewhere and I had something draped over my eyes. I reached my hoof up and removed a wet towel from my forehead. I could see it was Fluttershy stroking my face with her hoof.
"Fluttershy!" When I saw her face, relief flooded my body. She was OK, my purpose stilled existed.
"Change! Oh I'm so glad! Your alive!" She smiled, I could see steams of tears that filled her eyes and fell of her face. She hugged me. I felt myself devouring the emotions as they poured from her body! It took all my willpower not to sink my fangs into her neck as we hugged. I felt my shell beginning to harden again. My wings became hole and my blood dried up.
"What happened?" I sat up and looked around the room. I was in some sort of strange... hospital? Yes I think I was in a hospital. But I was with 'Shy so I didn't care.
"You got in a bit of a fight." Her eyes began to water again. "I'm so sorry! This was my fault!" Tears steamed from her eyes and she buried her head into the softer part of my chest. "You could h-have d-died and i-it would h-h-have been all m-my fault! I'm so sorry Change. I never would have forgave myself if I let you die!" This time I hugged her back. I did what changelings are supposed to feed off of. I gave her what little loved I had in my soulless heart.
I pulled her up to level with me and nuzzled her. I took in every last scent. She smelt of flowers and grass and, not to sound cliche but an autumn breeze kinda smell. I stuck my head in her mane and hugged the ponyfeathers kinda
A small snap noise was herd. I looked to my left hoof where the I.V. had been inserted, the needled had broke off when my shell closed shut! I was healed and stronger than ever! I had the 'love' of the Pegasus beside me to feed off of and it made me heal! I pulled her in and nuzzled her! (mainly cause I just wanted another nuzzle from her)
"Thanks Fluttershy, for being with me when I needed you!" I just stared into her perfect blue teal-ed eyes. She was perfect.
"No problem, I'm still so sorry for getting you into this!" 'Shy said
"Are you kidding me, This was not your fault, I was just trying to protect you. From the looks of it I did a good job!"
"yeah you did, thanks for that! but there's one small thing I forgot to tell you..."
"Don't worry about it! Now what about your last friend that we were going to meet! You seemed really exited for me to see her yesterday, I'm sure she'd be willing to talk to us today also, once she learned what happened."
"I'm right here..." A rainbow colored mare stood in the doorway. I heard Fluttershy let out a small eep* I got out off bed and walked over to this mare.
"Nice to meet you my names Change" I stuck out my hoof, but when she didn't take it I just put my hoof on the floor again awkwardly... I tried not to stare but it looked like this mare had also been crying, she looked pretty banged up too, had a bandage on her wings and dry blood on her hooves.
"Hi Change, look I'm really really really sorry for what I did last night" Tears swelled in her eyes. I looked back at Fluttershy for answers but she was crying too. "I was just trying to protect Flutterhsy!" The rainbow mare was crying full blown now. "I never meant to hurt anypony!"
"What are you talking about I looked down again and noticed something else. The blood on her hoof was a lighter red. Only a changling has blood that color. I took a step back at the discovery I had just made. She was the girl that had attack us last night!
It took a while for us all to calm down. I will admit I tried to keep myself between her and Fluttershy for most of the conversation. But it became clear to me that she was just trying to protect 'Shy too. She had said she had been napping on a cloud waiting for Fluttershy to show up with her friend. Rainbow had assumed that the friend was going to be a pony and was surprised to see a changeling considering that she had just fought some a few weeks back. Without much thinking she just went into Protective Dash Mode, and tried to stop me from 'hurting' Fluttershy. She had no idea that I was the friend that 'Shy had made and wanted her to meet. It took a long time for her to explain between the spastic cry's and sucking in the air. When she was finished 'Shy had said sorry for her at least a million times and Dash had apologized a lot too. It seemed she really did feel bad about hurting me.
"It's okay..." I said
"w-what?" Rainbow Dash was still sobbing kinda hard
"I meant I forgive you"
"After what I did, you're just going to forgive me?"
"Trust me, If this had happened a few days ago, I probably would have tried to eat you by now, yes I forgive you!"
"But w-why? I tried to kill you!"
"Because, if Fluttershy can be friends with you, than I am determined to be friends with you. I really like Fluttershy!"
"..." Dash just sat there dumbfounded that this so called 'monster' was showing enough compassion to forgive her for what she tried to do
"Rainbow Dash I understand completely your feelings!, All you were trying to do was protect Fluttershy. We both got hurt for the same reasons!"
"..." Still no response
"Dash, I wouldn't have tried so hard just to be given the silent treatment! I want to be friends with anybody Fluttershy is friends with. I am willing to put all of this behind us if your willing to give me a chance!"
With one last sniffle the prismatic mare was able to muster up "Definitely! Anybody who is that loyal to Fluttershy is good in my books! Even through I don't like reading that much!" We all laughed at the last remark
"Thank you both for making up, and thank you Dash for apologizing" Fluttershy spoke up finally "I think we will have to try to meet up again later, maybe with less fighting next time please?"
"Definitely" Me and Rainbow said it at the same time and looked at each other. We hoof bumped and she hugged 'Shy then got up and left.
"Thanks Change for being so forgiving" Fluttershy grabbed her saddle packs and walked over to the window to wave goodbye as her speedster friend flew away into the sunlight. SUNLIGHT, it was the next day already!
"wow, how long was I out?"
"um, a few days, I think two"
"Dang, remind me not to tickle her anytime soon"
Even though 'Shy laughed at my joke she said "That's not funny" We both proceeded out the door and began our path back to Fluttershy's cottage.
I Meant What I Said... even that
As we made our way inside Fluttershy's cottage she went right to a journal type thing.
"Watcha writing" I said it a country accent just because I could
"I'm writing what I learnt about friendship over the last few days"
"cool, what are you writing in there"
"I'm writing about trust and loyalty and stuff like that" she crinkled her face a little as she thought about what to write next
"Awesome, whats the journal for?"
"um well, Princess Celestia wants us to write about our findings of friendship"
"That's cool, so, uh, What do you want to do today?" I just wanted to make sure I got some time with 'Shy
"Would you like to... maybe... never mind... how about, no" 'Shy was having a battle with herself inside her own head
"What was your first idea"
"oh you wouldn't like it, its too boring."
"Are you kidding me, we were walking in a park and then out of like an action movie, our walk turned into a fight scene. Last thing I need right now is some more 'excitement'"
"okay, so you're willing to go on a picnic with me?"
"oh course, I'd love that" almost as much as I love you I thought to myself, a barely audibly *pomf* was heard when my wings flared up. After a few nods and some awkward staring she walking into the kitchen.
"I'll grab some things and maybe we can swing by Pinkie's and get some treats!"
"That would be awesome" said struggling to pull my wings back to my body. Thankfully my face wasn't able to turn red with embarrassment.
"Can you go up into my closet and get the blanket for the picnic"
"Yeah sure" I quickly stopped in front of the closet and looked back behind me to make sure I wasn't being followed. I heard 'Shy humming a tune in the kitchen with lots of clangs here and there. I opens the closet and saw the blanket in the right corner, that's what I was supposed to be looking for but I wanted to find something else. I picked up a neatly folded dress from a box and sure enough. There it was, the newest copy of Playcolt: Made for Mares Edition. On the cover a rather strong looking stallion was posing almost completely nude. "okay, now we know she does that " I laughed to myself. I put the dress back and grabbed the blanket and trotted downstairs.
"got all the stuff?"
"you mean this blanket" I held it up
"yep! Lets get going then, We'll head by Pinkie's first" She reached for her saddle bag but I grabbed it first
"my honor" I smiled and took her stuff and put it in the bag before putting it on my back.
"Thanks Change" She gave me a peck on the cheek my legs buckled and I fell down. This earned me a giggle from her. "Come on silly let's go"
"Yes Ms. 'Shy I said jokingly standing up and saluting her
"At ease" She played along saluting also. We both laughed. "Let's get going, don't want to get hungry on the way."
I rushed up to the door and opened it for her. Trying to be extra gentle colt-ly. We started to head down to Sugar Cube Corner.
The trip was un-eventful we got into Sugar Cube Corner bought out stuff, didn't really talk much, and then we walked. To the edge of town near the park. She didn't want to go back to the park out of bad memory's of a few days ago. We stopped nearer the top in a little clearing in the trees. It was a Wednesday afternoon so not a lot of ponies were around.
"This seems like a good spot" Fluttershy stopped and admired the nice plush patch of grass she had found.
"Sure looks good to me" I grabbed out the blanket and with one big whip it was over the grass in a neat square "Let's eat!" I dropped the saddle bags in the middle and flipped open the pouches. Fluttershy gently removed the plate of cupcakes we had bought from Pinkie. I pulled out my special treat for 'Shy. I made some Dandelion and Cherry Sandwiches. She eyed them and gave me a nice smile.
"I'm glad you remembered!"
"Of course, I remember everything about my favorite pony" As soon as I said that I regretted it. Not because I didn't mean it but because it made it awkward at least for me...
"..."
"..." We both sat in silence, partly from what I said and the rest because we were eating.
"Hey Change, If you don't mind me asking... What did you mean yesterday when you said you really liked me?" Fluttershy asked before she took another bite out of her sandwich.
Darn she remembered...
"Well, it means just that, I do really REALLY like you Fluttershy. You were and are my first ever real friend. I think I trust you more than I trust anypony else on this planet and I think... well I think you pretty awesome!" It felt good to say that out loud. But I knew things would be different from now on... unless... no...
"well, um, if you don't mind me asking, what do you mean by you like me... because Twilight likes me and thats good, and then there is Spike likes Rarity kind of like and that's okay also, um, I was just wondering what kind of like you meant... if you don't mind me asking of course!" She was blushing like mad.
Now or never
"Fluttershy, I like you more than Spike likes Rarity, this may be stretching it, because I've never felt this way before, but I swear this is true, I think I love you... and well, ya know, since I said it, might as well ask... Fluttershy... w-will you be my s-special s-somepony" I stuttered a bit but looked her strait in the eyes. Her expression was so blank I couldn't know what to think...
Well? Is the Answer that Hard?
"Fluttershy... w-will you be my s-special s-somepony?" That was the question... Fluttershy seemed like she didn't know the answer. But why. The answer was simple. Just tell me no. Just let me know you hate me. My soul is crushed and I'm alone. Just tell me you hate me. Slap me, and rush away. I want you to crush me. I don't want to live if you don't love me. I could finally be free... I could go back to my dead 'family'
"YES" 'Shy almost screamed as loud. Well, as loud as Fluttershy could scream.That's not what mattered though... she didn't like me... finally I could die. I had the motivation to kill myself, she didn't love me my purpose was gone... she said, Yes... wait... what? YES?!? SHE SAID YES!!! SHE LIKES ME!!! My heart, as dark and cold as it was felt warm as it skipped a few beats!
"ye- yes? Did you say yes?" I was smiling, happy and confused! She liked me! I think
"OF COURSE CHANGE" She sprung forward and crushed me almost like Pinkie's hug "of course yesyesyesyesyes! Thank you Change!"
"Oh Fluttershy, thank you" She did like me, and I knew it. I don't know love yet. But I'm sure I will soon.
"oh wow Change, I've never had a special somepony before"
"really, huh, learn something everyday"
"Change I'm so glad, I mean, not that I want us to be like making out right now but I really like you. Oh gosh, how will we tell the others? What if their not as accepting?"
"You kidding me 'Shy? If those friends are half as nice as I think they are they won't care. If your in love that's something you can't change."
"I guess, I don't really care right now" She said leaned onto me tipping me over from my sitting position onto my back so that she was on top while we were laying down. It seemed even my shy mare could be brave when she wanted, it was quite attractive.
"unless you wanna make out?" She didn't even faze, no blush, no hint of shy, just confidence, our muzzles were barely apart. All I had to do was lean in to take it. Buck it.
I leaned in a our lips brushed, at first she pulled back a little, her Fluttershy side coming out. I could almost feel her eyes as the spread so wide. Then she pushed back. I ran my hoof through her mane as we kissed. I gently prodded my tongue at her lips, begging for entrance. She pulled back just to open her mouth. I ran my tongue along the side of her cheeks and along her teeth. Then they met, her tongue and mine. In an elegant dance they seemed to preform as she flicked hers against mine. She tasted as sweet as the cupcake Pinkie shared with us the day I met her. I breathed through my nose, not wanting this kiss to end. Oh sweet Celestia she smelt good. As I flicked her tongue again a soft moan escaped into my mouth from hers. She let out adorable squeaks as I rubbed my hoof between her wings. I knew this was how pegasus had made out. (don't ask) I gently caressed the base of her feathers. I flipped her gently setting her down so that I was on top. I pushed harder into the kiss. Our tongues still dancing. Celestia DAMN she was hot! I felt almost guilty for thinking that about such an innocent mare... but then again we were making out. I pulled back giving us both some time to catch our breath. A thin strand of saliva was still connecting our lips, she broke it licking her lips, almost taunting me by batting her eyes.
Darn... she really knew how to push my buttons, I went back in, closing my eyes and my mind as my body shuddered as wave after wave of pleasure filled kisses bombarded my muzzle. I was still rubbing at her wing. It drove her practically insane how slowly I would tease her feathers. The kisses were amazing, each one better than before, each one a little longer and more passionate. I wanted nothing more than to just sweep her away and never return with my Fluttershy. But I'm not really good at flying while making out, so I guess this would have to do. Celestia damn this was fun, and tasty, and it was 20% cooler with the cutest mare in Equestria! I did like- no- I truly did love this mare with all my heart!
After that steamy session, I felt happy, I felt like I had a home. Fluttershy loved me... It felt good... not only did I feel loved, but I felt hole again. I had family, more so than I ever had before. I had a mare who I could love and that would love me back. All I wanted in my life was to protect her and make her happy. Now I can work on the happy part too. Wow, who would have thought that me and Fluttershy would be hooking up so fast. I had met her just 8 short days ago (I wasn't even awake for 2 of them) I actually was the luckiest stallion changling type thing in the world! All thanks to the mare in my arms right now. I was ready for anything to come our way!
