Chapters "I has nopony."
That is how this all began. I was on MLP X-Press very late at night. I posted that comment in the SSP chat room, thinking I would make somepony laugh. I was completely wrong. My name is Windy Chaser, and I recently had something that happened to me that's good. Well, until the end...
Well, let's begin.
This all took place when the episode of MLP, titled, "Simple Ways" was aired on the Hub. I am a huge brony, so I didn't miss it. If I did otherwise, I would have woken up hours later. I'm glad I didn't, because after the epidode ended, and I started to play Minecraft with my best friend, my phone was set face-down on my desk, and it gave a sharp vibration.
It was an MLP X-Press notification. Now, let me just say that when I posted that comment, that it was true, the last relationship with a mare ended about a year ago. Anyway, when I turned my phone over to look at the notification, I thought it would just be somepony saying lol about my comment, or haha or something along those lines...
But instead, it was completely different. It was a message from a user named, "Fluttershy90915". The pony - being I didn't know their gender - said, "I will be your ssp." I felt a bit of a chill run down my spine when I saw that, and it was all from joy. Somepony who didn't even know me wanted to be with me. I responded with, "Ok, cool :)". The pony asked if I was a colt or a filly. I'm a straight colt, so if this person was a mare, then I'll be pretty happy. I responded with colt, and they responded to me with, cool, I'm a filly. I was so excited...
She wasn't very serious and committed to our relationship at first I think, because she sent me, "So I guess we're in love now, lol." I respond, not being as committed either with, "Yeah, lol." She seemed to have an awesome personality, and I was right. I went to go take a shower, and I told her, she said ok, and I went. She waited, and when I send her a message, saying, "Hey, I'm back", she actually responded. I felt so good! She didn't just forget about me, or blow me off, but she wasn't kidding about wanting to be with me. We talked for a little while, then I had to vacuum the house, and I felt that it wasn't good for time, because I thought it would look like I was trying to blow her off. I told her, and considering the time it took, she was very patient. I asked for her Steam name, and she said it was "flutterwonderlulz". Strange how it was different how her MLP X-Press name is different than her Steam name. We talked for hours after the chores, and really started to bond as a couple.
Eventually, I had to go to another town to go to my elder's birthday party. I told her about it, and she responded with something that made everything change for me. "K, please talk to me when you get there. I love you." When she said this, it was official, I loved her. I have only been talking to her for only about four hours, and she already is telling me that she loves me...
I listen to Asking Alexandria, Bullet For My Valentine, and Avenged Sevenfold in joy while going down.
The minute I get to my destination, I send her a message through both Steam and MLP X-Press.
But this time... She didn't respond...
I waited for about two hours... When she responds with, "Hi, my Windy." I don't know her name, so I say, "Hello, my Fluttershy." She didn't get offended like I feared it would. In fact, she told me she wanted me to call her by that name. I went to eat dinner, and I came back, and started to talk again. We talked about what we were into, and we had ALOT in common, she listened to rock like I do, she loves MLP, she plays music, and she was a gamer. I knew that she wasn't Fluttershy, because I knew her, and she's one of my good friends. I sent the real Fluttershy a message asking her if she sent me anything in an MLP app. She said no, and that confirmed that she was not her. I didn't care much, though. I still loved her.
We talked for a while, when she sent me a message with an emoticon that showed the face puckering its lips. She gave me a kiss through messaging. I sent her the same thing, and she gave me an emoticon with a smile and blushing cheeks. I told her I loved her, and she said the same thing. Eventually, she said something that made me feel greater than I've ever felt before. "Windy, we should get married as filly and colt."
She said something that made me jump, and every hair on my body stood up. "Let's make love :)". I love her, and, to be honest, I was gonna ask her, but this is a huge risk. If my parents found out I was sexting a random mare, they would be livid.
I couldn't refuse, though...
We would sometimes make sex jokes, so I don't know if she was serious or not. She was completely serious...
I had to go to a class just then, so I told her that I'll do it with her when I get back.
I got back from my class, and I told her that we were gonna have sex before I left. She told me that she wanted me to start, so we sent back and fourth messages containing what we would do to each other. I started with doing a normal face to face position, and went to very simple well known positions, so she was pleased, but it wasn't enough for her.
We woke up the next morning, an hour earlier than I normally do, and we made love again that morning. We even talked at school. We had sex many times during the week. I've never felt better.
Author's Note
Sorry this chapter was short, but it was for a reason...
Chapter 5
Today, we didn't have any plans, so I just talked with her, and we were bored the entire day. It was Sunday, and all we did was just talk, play some Garry's Mod, and then I finally did something that I have been planning to do for a while. I asked her for a photo swap.
I sent her my picture first, and then she sent me hers. She looked amazing. She soon told me that she looked like that, but that there were many reasons why she couldn't show me a picture of herself. She told me that she thought I would tell her that she didn't look good. I wasn't mad, but more mortified that someone with that much audacity would dare to call the one I love something like that. I simply told her that those guys don't get the right to make you think of yourself like she did. She thanked me, and asked me what I wanted to do. I could tell by the way she was hinting at it, that she wanted to have sex.
I asked her if I was right, and, of course, I was. This experience was going so good, until she suddenly fell asleep. I didn't mind much, but I was still pretty confused.
I fell asleep, and had sex dreams, and that was all that happened Sunday.
Something has gone wrong. We don't seem to have an archived copy of that chapter. This made me so pissed at her... I knew my hope was losing its influence on me, and it was going quick.
When I went to tell Alexandria the bad news, she was still offline. I sent her a LOT more messages, and I ended it with, "Don't worry, I'll save this marriage." I went to school depressed... I kept my hood on the entire day, never laughed, never smiled, nothing was enough to even make me grin even the slightest.
The worst part was when I was listening to, "To The Stage" by Asking Alexandria. The words described exactly how I felt. It's the chorus... In the song Danny Worsnop says I know that I should walk away, but I can't bring myself to quit this game. She's just a beautiful girl with the weight of the world on her shoulders, I'm just a kick in the teeth from a world that's plated gold. When I heard that, I almost had a mental breakdown. I almost had breakdowns the entire day.
When I got home, nopony was there, and I took the opportunity to talk to Alexandria. To my horror, she blocked me on Steam...
I then used my iPod to talk to her. I said, this is Windy, and that I've been needing to talk to her. She just said hi. Nothing else, just hi. I told her about how the parents discovered the truth, and the next thing she said broke my heart into two...
I'm sorry, I just don't want love right now were her exact words.
I asked her if we could just be friends, and she didn't make the wisest move, because what she next said made me erupt...
No, I can't, because this was just a prank.
I responded with the most hateful message. I said things that to this day, I regret. Here's what I said in a nutshell. "I can't believe I wasted so much fucking time with you, you might as well die." She said that she was sorry. I said I was sorry too, but that's all I said. She said that she hoped I could forgive her. And I did. She then said that she's sorry, and that I'll find somepony else. I just said goodbye, and that was what she sent back to me.
That was our very last conversation... ever...
I stood in silence for a good 5 minutes, until I threw my iPod and screamed and yelled, "FUCK YOU." I hated my parents for taking her away from me... I could have done something different....
Something....
I cried myself to sleep that night....
Until 3:00 in the morning I collapsed from exhaustion, and even when I fell asleep I dreamed I was still crying...
It's been over a month since this, and I still haven't forgiven them... Well, I'll tell you what, I'll never forget her... She was good to me even when I lied to her, blew her off, ignored her, and was an asshole to her...
If you're reading this, Alexandria... I'm sorry....... I never meant a word......
Well, I guess I have to end it here...
The end...
Please watch this...
This so great! I've only known her for a half a day, and she already wanted to get married. I know I should have been the one to propose, but it's okay anyway. "That would be amazing :)" I sent her. She confirmed it, and we were not legally married, but I don't care, I have never loved a mare like this before, and I've dated a lot of mares. I had to message her on iMessage, so I give her my email, and she sends me a message. I add her to my contacts as, "Fluttershy", and that was the last time I talked to her on the MLP X-Press app. I kept it just in case, though. I am a fourteen year old colt, which is why I wasn't driving, so I talked to her on the way home. She asked me if she was sending me too many messages.
I said that I loved talking to her, and she said that she was glad that I wasn't bothered. We talked while I played Minecraft, and when she said that she had to go bed, I was talking to my best friend, and I instantly told him I had to go to bed, when really I just wanted to talk to my wife.
By the way, we were talking in my kitchen and she asked me if I would leave her if she knew how old I was. I promised her, and I found out that she was 16.
So he said goodbye, and I went to bed.
In the morning, I was awoken by my sweet wife, who said, "Good morning, my lovely Windy." I sent her messages saying that I slept good, and that she said she slept good, and we both shared messages with each other. Then I remembered the movie my friend and I were going to see.
I was sad that I couldn't talk to her for a while, but I did get a chance to show my friend to my special somepony. I didn't tell him about our marriage, but I mentioned that I got a fillyfriend. He would flip if found out I got married in my teens. We finished the movie, and I talked to her more. Sadly, it was a school night, which sucked, because it meant we couldn't talk as much.
Anyway, I lived in Cloudsdale, and she lived in Manehatten, so taking a trip to see her in real life was not a possibility, sadly. We sometimes would talk about it, but we agreed that it was a really emotional topic. Anyway, I told her I love her, and wished her a goodnight. She said the same and we went to bed.
I do love her so dearly... But, something worries me and chills me to the bone. I have VERY overprotective parents, and they do not let me chat online. So if they found my conversations, it would all be over.
Eventually, it was the day before Hearts and Hooves Day. Thank Celestia it's on our 4 day break, because that meant we could talk all weekend. Today, I asked her what her real name was in 5th period. My real name is Windy Chaser, so I wanted to know what her name was. She said her name was Alexandria. I told her it was awesome, and she thanked me. I got home, and we played Minecraft for a bit, until she suddenly disconnected. I just figured she was busy, or that she got bored. I told her before that she could never get me mad, because I loved her too much.
Anyway, I sent her some messages, and I thought she just fell asleep. I waited all night for her...
She never responded to me for the entire night.
I got so panicked that I started to weep softly to myself all night until exaustion took its toll, and I fell asleep.
We soon had sex again, but it was pretty late at night, so as we finished, she asked me why I loved her...
Anyway, it was Saturday, and my family was going to a store in some place in Cloudsdale. My wife and I talked all the way there and back. Night soon fell upon us. I broke a long silence between us with a statement that seduced us both to tears. "How I would give to be in Equestria, with you in my arms." She said yeah, but it's horrible, because we both know that it will never be possible.
She was saying that Equestria doesn't exist, and that we'll never be able to live that fantasy that we both desired so dearly. We tried to change the subject, but it was so hard to put this off of our minds. It worked though. She asked me if I would ever leave her. I said, "Alexandria, I'll never leave you... You're all I want out of life.". She told me she would never leave me. I then told her that I would love her forever.
She replied with the same thing, and we soon fell asleep.
When he asked that question, I wanted to just disappear. At least then, I knew I would be safe. I knew what this meant, and I did not like it... I was gonna have to lie. I told Alexandria that I would do anything to protect her. I told him at first I didn't know them. He didn't buy it. That bastard opened our conversation, and saw our messages. I had to lie again...
I said that it was just some guy at school, and that we were making jokes. He asked if I was telling the 100% truth, and I had to lie for a third time...
Yes. I felt sweat dribbling from all parts of my body, and I was so nervous, I was shaking. I did not want to lose her. We ate, and I tried to make him feel re-assured that I was telling the truth. He already told mom, and that meant she would get involved, too.
When he said that... I wanted nothing more than to just break his jaw with a hammer. He told me to FaceTime "him" to make sure that he is really just a boy. This panicked me so greatly. If she picks up, it's over.
I prayed to Celestia that she wouldn't...
To whatever good luck I had left... She didn't.
I soon took notice of what she said before I left. She was wondering why I wasn't talking to her. Great, now I've had to ignore her. I told her (by command of my step-father) that I forgot my phone, and that I had to do a project. Now I was lying to her. At this part, my heart was beginning to break. She responded with a plain and simple, "Ok".
I went to get to work, and he gave me that god foresaken smug look again. I hated him so much for that...
I cried... I cried for the rest of making the project. When I finished, I told her to get on steam... and we got on... I told her what happened. She told me she was so scared, and that she didn't want to lose me.
I told her I know, I won't let them find you... then she panicked, and left the chat room.
I then had to lie to my mom... It was not easy. Luckily, she fell for it, and I went back to the room to tell Alexandria the good news... but she got offline. I then packed my things up, and went to sleep. I didn't stop, I tried to think of a solution. I came up with a well thoughout plan... but all of my planning was smashed...
I told Alexandria what my plan was, and I sent her ALOT of messages. I was scared I panicked. And I did... Well... Something happened again that made me almost break down on the spot... Mom found out it was not who I said it was... I still had hope... But it was fading out quick.
