A invisible kiss

My eyes dart open, and a scream threatens to explode from my throat. My eyes water as fear consumes me and I try to focus on something in my room. I spot my new notebook on my desk and stare at that for awhile only to realize that I'm in my dark bedroom not in nightmare I was in minutes ago. My body shakes in fear as I remember each moment from the horrifying dream and I can't think. I close my eyes and take a deep breath while putting myself in sitting position. Sighing, I let my sweaty head drop to look at my hooves and look to my clock which reads four in the morning. My eyes close for a moment I have been having these nightmares for about a year now, and whenever my parents ask me if I am fine I just nod. I just, don't want to go back to that stupid psychiatrist.

Feeling fully awake now, I leave my bed and go downstairs. Quietly letting my hooves hit the stairs, something odd stirs inside me. I feel as if I am being watched, and some pony is just sitting in the shadows. A little freaked out, I head quickly to the kitchen and start to make myself a chamomile tea, it something that soothes me and brings me back to reality in the se hard times. At the same time, I fetch myself some breakfast and start letting my mind wander to imagining six impossible things.

Number one, would I ever be beautiful? To be beautiful it is a thing that almost every mare wants but not that every mare gets. I know ponies say be you, but seriously where are those ponies today? Probably wasting away in some bar.

Number two, that I would be smart but that one is kind of my own fault since I do not have a burning passion for learning, I learn my own way and only things I want to know.

Number three, I wish I wasn't so much of a miserable case like I am doing now. I mean, how the hell do ponies have a positive look on everything? And I know ponies would tell me to stop thinking just about myself buy I just can't.

Number four, to be a bit more appreciated, don't get me wrong I like being under the radar but to feel invisible is also not entirely right. I don't even have one pony friend! I am alone. Well, except for no, he is not my friend.

Number five, for ponies sake, I want to be normal! I never asked to be different and have to cover myself with some hideous attire!  I just wish that they could see me for me and not how I look.

And lastly number six, I wish I was loved. But not like last time where I got hurt in the process. My heart yearns to be cared for and I wish for the pain I feel to stop. I am so empty inside and it kills every time my heart beats. If only someone would sweep me off my hooves and protect my heart, never to break it.

With those thoughts out of my mind, I take a sip of my tea, eat my breakfast and head back to my room, all the while thinking about that last one. To be loved.... Is something extraordinary. It's a risk that is worth taking though some may come out with a broken heart but if it works, you have that one person that will love you for you. You are able to experience the sparks up your hooves when you hold hands, the deep love when you look into the person eyes, the comfort of another, the skip of a heart beat and most of all the goofy smile that appears on your face when you think of the pony. Love is worth it but some are scared to try because of the heartbreaks...

As I enter my room, my eyes dart to one piece of paper on my wall in particular. It's a poster of a mare, Princess Luna to be exact. I have always wanted to meet her personally, and ask her how she got through with it. The poster has beautiful shades of blue, purple and black and in black bold letters it says: Let it go. One of my dreams were to have meet her, to spend one day with her....But that's another thing I should add to my impossible wants list... So I decide that I'll go to Canterlot this weekend, yeah maybe i'll actually meet her but that's almost impossible. Wait is that? I think to myself as I spot something on my bed. There on the sheets is a envelope with a... a rose? Who would give me such a beautiful flower with a note? Fast as I can, I grab the note and head outside on my interest to read it. The feeling that the note contains information that will change my life forever is overwhelming and I open the letter. Taking a deep breath, I look and see wild writing and it says:

Dear Rainbow,

                    My thoughts have been all about you since the last time we met. In such a short time, you have captured my heart and sent me on a chase to retrieve it. You're the most beautiful mare in my eyes and everything about you is… Perfect.  Others don’t see the real yo u but I do. You have many secrets and a heavy past but I would burden myself with anything because you're the only one that matters to me. You're my one in a million and I have known that since your eyes met mine. You are you and that is all I ask for in a mare. Your smile can brighten any room and make my day in a flash. Smile and be happy because now you know someone really cares about you.

You can also keep my heart because it forever belongs to you...

          - The Phantom

My face flushes red and it takes a minute before it sets in. I just stare at the note and let my mind run wild. Some pony cares about me? Is this some kind of cruel joke? But just as my feeling of confusion arrived, it left and I feel an intense feeling of joy, and happiness like I had won some kind of beauty contest. Warmth fills my body and a smile spreads across my face. The thought of someone actually caring for me sends me in a shiver of delight. Silent tears of happiness stream down my face but I wipe them off because of the embarrassment of me crying. I may not know who The Phantom is but I do know that he cares for me...

My eyes move along the room till they land on the calendar and I realize that today is circled with a big bold red marker. I get up from my seat outside and investigate what is really on it. My eyes narrow down to the date and grow wide when I finally figure out what day is today. Today is the exam, the exam I have been preparing for since I first heard of the school. Nerves and stress trample my body and I take deep breaths to try and calm myself down but I can't. Princess Twilight Sparkle herself is going to be running the interview and that only makes it harder. I had been so wrapped up with the note and my feelings that I had completely forgotten that today is the day. There are two steps to enter the school.

Number one is the interview. The interview is a test to see how you react with your knowledge and your psychological side. It's really to see if you are worthy to attend Princess Twilight's school for gifted ponies, in fact it's very similar to Princess Celestia's school for gifted unicorns except this one is just, well, better it was founded by the very Princess of magic herself.

Number two is the test. You much show your magical abilities in front of Princess Twilight and she will decide if you are to enter the school or not. Only 100 ponies make it in the part two and then only 20 enter the school.

I immediately forget about the note and quickly head to my dresser. For such an occasion one should wear formal attire but also keeping in mind that it has to hide my wings. After going through most of my closet, I pick a short black dress, that I had gotten for Hearth's Warming and a nice cardigan to make sure my wings are not shown.

Leaving my room, I head to the bathroom and look in the mirror. I brush more of my mane towards my face making my bang longer and take the curler out to do my hair.. After I am finished dressing and doing my hair, I look at the clock and it reads seven in the morning. Fretting over the fact that I'm usually out of the house by this hour, I quickly grab my bag and leave the house to start my journey to school.

It has been 5 minutes since I started walking and it's taking much more time than I thought. I wish I could just spread my wings and take off, but I can't. So I let the thought go and press on towards my exam, frightened that I won't make it in the school.