It's amazing how far one can get from themselves when perusing a goal, what someone is willing to do and put themselves through just for a means to an end. I suppose that's all my friendship with Cadence was the entire time, a means to an end. I do have to admit that I'm still not sure what my friendship with her was, for all I know my subconscious could have planned the entire thing out the moment we met. I can only wonder how much she hates me right now. I led her into a trap, and then treated her terribly. If she does think less of me, then I only have myself to blame.

Such short sentences to try and explain the way my twisted heart is feeling. To be honest, I'm not sure I have enough time to write it all out. My magic is failing me, and by now I've dropped the quill three times just writing this sentence. I've landed in a desert, been here for who knows how long without any food to sustain me. In short, I'm as good as dead, and this is my final memoir. One last chance to apologize to everyone, and try and explain the pain in my heart.

First and foremost, I have to apologize to Nirath, for getting so far away from our original goal and becoming something that you wouldn't even recognize, stooping so low as to take the place of my best friend in a futile attempt to save a dying kingdom. In fact, it's probably a dead kingdom now. I can only hope that whatever is up there watching this world will have mercy and allow me to see you one last time before I am judged, if there is something after this life. I knew that you believed in something, but you were always too afraid to show me or tell me for some reason, and so I simply let it be, but now I wonder if even that was a mistake. I love you Nirath, and I promise I'll be there soon.

I have to apologize to Cadence next, for so many things. For lying to you, taking away your life, your wedding, and your husband. I hope that if you do ever read this, you'll come to forgive me, and I sincerely appreciate you being there for me, even when you could have run and never seen me again. Those last few days where I was masquerading as you must have been hell for you, and I'm sorry it came to that on my part, I'm glad you and Twilight were able to stop me. I hope you live a long and prosperous life my friend, do it for me.

Next comes my hive. There are so many things that I want to say, need to say, but can't, because nothing that I can say could possibly ever make up for what I did to my subjects. The horrors I put them through, the pain and the misery of living under a queen who's lost all notions of right and wrong. I know that I could easily just say that everything I did was for the good of my people but that would be a lie and it wouldn't fit in here. I suppose the closest I can come to even repairing a small portion of the damage I caused is to say this; I was never fit to be queen, no matter what the teachers said, despite how I was born and who I was brought up by. There wasn't anything that could prepare me to lead a small hive against the entirety of a kingdom. I give all the remaining portion of the hive my sincerest apologies, and for the ones who died in my service, you have my gratitude for following an insane queen.

Well, it seems as though night is falling on this desert, and it has taken me nearly all my strength and over half a day just to write this. There are still many more I wish to apologize to, but I'm afraid I can't. I suppose that this is Queen Chrysalis saying goodbye to the world.

Author's Note

Yes, this is short, yes I apologize, and yes, I am ignoring the comics for the sake of an ending. There will be a few bonus chapters coming out soon enough though, but only a few of them will take place after Chrysalis dies. Just a warning, the sex tag will come into full effect into one bonus chapter, but it's a completely optional read.