Entry 4
Date: 22nd April, year 2 ALR (After Luna’s Return)

So today is my birthday (Whoop dee fucking doo!). Not really. I don’t celebrate my birthday anymore. It reminds me of home, as well as being the same day that I was imprisoned, so today doesn’t hold as many good thoughts or emotions as it used to.

It’s been three days since I had my little breakdown and aggressive outburst, but I’m better now. Regardless, I finally learned the date from Pinkie after she came to visit me this morning.

Twilight told me that Pinkie wanted to visit me because of my self-isolation, and that she brought cupcakes. After remembering about how much I upset her the other day, I let her into my room out of guilt and hope shed forgive me...

Plus I was getting hungry.

“Hey Pinkie, sorry about being so moody last time.” I apologised sincerely.

“It’s okay, I know everypony can’t be happy all the time.” She responded, “So I brought cupcakes to help cheer you up! You didn’t get to eat last time.” She put the pink box on the bed and opened it. Inside were six cupcakes with two of chocolate, strawberry and vanilla, where one of each had sprinkles on them. All the good stuff.

“Wow, cheers mate. You didn’t have to do this for me.” I reached in and pulled out a chocolate cupcake with sprinkles on it.

“Don’t be silly! Just because I didn’t have to, doesn’t mean I shouldn’t!” She replied gleefully.

I took a bite out of the cupcake in my hand, and what I tasted was nothing short of perfection. I’ve never had such a delicious cupcake before in my life. “Holy shit this is fantastic!” I exclaimed with real joy for the first time in years. If either my mum or Alex had heard that, they'd smack me for saying someone else's cooking was better.

“I’m glad you think so!” Pinkie clapped her hooves together and giggled happily.

I reached in and pulled out another one, but I offered it to Pinkie instead. “Here, I couldn’t eat all these myself. I’m not very good with sweets.”

She looks at the cupcake in my hand for a moment, before smiling a big grin, and literally devouring it in my hand. Like, she just ate the entire cupcake in one bite, while it was still in my hand. She even managed to chew and swallow it with my hand in her mouth. She spat out my hand before thanking me for the cupcake. She then put her face into the box and pulled out another.

I just stared blankly at her for a few moments, while slowly taking another bite of the delicious confectionary in my hand. The chocolate one with sprinkles was good, but this strawberry one is pretty great as well.

“So what brings you around here? Just came to deliver these cupcakes?” I ask while she was chewing on her third cupcake. Only one left, and I took it without hesitation. Pinkie looked a bit grumpy at that but hey, she brought them here for me to eat.

“Sure did! Thought you could use a pick-me-up!” She shouted a bit too happily. She is way too happy.

“Yeah sorry about that. I was a bit down, but don’t worry, I’m feeling better now, especially after those cupcakes.”

She smiled brightly, “yay!” She jumped up and down on the spot while cheering.

“Riiiiight”

“So what are you doing today?” Pinkie asked with a smile on her dial. Heh

“Not sure really, probably just lounge around, maybe go out and try to find another of the Element bearers to talk with.”

“Well look no further! Pinkie Pie at your service!” She giggled playfully to herself.

“Well aren’t you just a barrel of laughs? Alright Pinkie, what did you want to talk about?” I asked the chipper mare in front of me.

“You! I wanna know more about you! So I can make you smile when you’re feeling down.”

I stared at her momentarily. This crazy mare was willing to go out of her way just to make me smile. She’s definitely a better person than I am, but I don’t give a fuck. I don’t exactly have a reason to be nice nowadays. “That’s awfully considerate of you Pinkie, but why would you do that for me?”

“Because everypony deserves to smile!” She stated, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“…”

“…”

Silence reigned for a few moments, all the while Pinkie was staring at me with a massive grin on her face.

“Well what do you wanna know?” I asked with a bit of hesitation.

“I wanna know what makes you laugh!” She shouted in response

“Well to be honest, just about anything. I have a pretty open sense of humour, and few things insult me.” I stated. I wonder if they have racist jokes here in Equestria? If not, then they’ll probably end up making some about me, fucking ponies

“That gives me a lot to work off! Is there anything in particular that you always had a good giggle at?”

“Hmm… I think I remember this one time at my birthday party, my friends and I were playing Halo, when I grabbed the sniper on a ledge, I turned around and pulled off three headshots, which won me the free for all game. I laughed for a good solid 10 minutes.” I chuckled at the fuzzy memory.

“I have no idea what any of those are but that reminds me! When is your birthday?” She sounded a bit desperate. God knows why though.

“Uhh…” Fuck I can’t remember. 1,000 years of solitude has left me with fuzzy memories. “Umm… April… the something. Fuck come on when was it? Gimme a second Pinkie… April… April… April the… twentyyyyyyy.” I extended the ‘y’ at the end of twenty to help jog my memory. “Twentyyyy… second! April the twenty-second.” I said, my voice full of pride for managing to remember that. Ooooohhhhhhhh.......shhhit… now I remember why I made it a point to forget.

“Well that’s good! That means today is your birthday! Let’s have a party! Woo!” She rushed out the room the moment she said party. I could hear her shouting “Woo” all throughout the castle.

I sighed dramatically before slowly getting off the bed, and walking out the door. I tried to find Twilight so she could tell her friend Pinkie that a party was not necessary, nor was it wanted, but I couldn’t find her anywhere. Well that being said, I only searched the castle library, since that was where she spent 90% of her time. I did however find her in the hallway leading to that weird throne room thingy.

“Oh hey, could you come with me for a moment?” She stops and asks me.

“Uh… Sure.” I followed her to the doors of the throne room thingy, where she stopped me and entered herself. The door closed and I waited a few moments, not really sure what I was supposed to do.

“Okay, come in!” Twilight shouted from inside the room.

I opened the doors and was greeted with a sight that was most unexpected. Six ponies and a small dragon were gathered around a giant banner that said “Happy birthday Rage guy!” In bright rainbow colours.

“What.” Was all that I could say at that moment.

“Pinkie Pie told us it was your birthday today, so she invited us all over to a small party she put together.” Twilight informed me. How? In such little time. This mare is ridiculous. “She said that it’d be sad if somepony didn’t get to celebrate their birthday, so we all agreed to come.”

“Some more than others...” I heard Rainbow Dash mumble from the other side of the room. I looked at her only to see Twilight whack her in the shins. It actually made me smile for the first time in a thousand years.

“But…” I started, trying to object to the party, but as I looked around and came to Pinkie, she just had a massive smile on her face. Seeing that, I couldn’t… I want to leave, but if I do, it’ll crush her and ruin even more of the little reputation I have. “Okay then.” I said as I slowly walked forward towards the group. Twilight and Applejack were smiling, along with Spike and Pinkie. The rest had various looks. The yellow one who Twilight mentioned was Fluttershy, was hiding behind her pink mane. The one named Rarity was watching me with a keen eye as I slowly walked forward, while the one named Rainbow Dash was watching me with distrust.

The party itself was something else. Something that I have not experienced in a long time, and that was friendly interaction with people. Ever since coming to Equestria I’ve never once celebrated my birthday, and the simple fact was because of the day it reminded me of. There was a cake and everything, with one thousand candles somehow shoved into it....I guess it's the thought that counts.

“How did you manage to forget your own birthday?” Twilight asked, a bit intrigued.

“Well aside from that fact that I was in a stone prison for 1,000 years, I also have a terrible memory.” I paused for a moment before looking down to the ground with a drink in my hands. “But, it’s also because this day reminds me of the day I lost my only friend since coming to Equestria. Today's the day Nightmare Moon came to be, as well as the day of my imprisonment in stone as the Embodiment of Rage. Not just that, but the biggest reason I'd forget my birthday, is because the 22nd of April marks the anniversary of my arrival in Equuis. So, today’s not a day I really like to remember anymore...” I replied truthfully.

Twilight almost immediately looked like she regretted that she asked me that question in the first place. Her ears dropped against her head, and her gaze fell to the floor. “Oh.” She said with sorrow in her voice.

“Don’t worry about it. By tomorrow, I’ll have forgotten about it. Besides, the party was fun so there’s that as well.” I smiled to her briefly. “It’s getting late and I'm getting sleepy, so I’m gonna head to bed. Tell Pinkie I said ‘thanks for the party’.” I waved goodbye before leaving the room and heading back down to my room and into bed.

To be perfectly honest, I’ve no idea how long I can keep this 'lone wolf' façade up, but these feelings are starting to turn genuine. I may actually be feeling happy for once since coming to Equestria. Maybe, just maybe, these ponies aren’t as bad as I think they are. Maybe these six are different from all the others. I really hope so, it’s a very lonely world when everyone in it either hates you or wants you dead just because you look different to what they're used to. Racist arseholes...

Julian signing off.

Author's Note

Sorry, I said I was gonna post this earlier than I did, but I had formal, then a formal after party, which was hectic af.
So yeah, new chapter!