Journel

August 30th, 2014

I guess today went as swimmingly as it could go. Me and my mom went to Khols to look for school clothes and anything else of the sorts. We went other places but nowhere where something of importance happened. Maybe it was important to them but to me, I was more troubled than anything today.

Bringing anything up about Meowth's world, his origins, will cause him to attack my mind, flashing his pain and anger towards the subject. He was not there with me but he is smart, he does not have to be in this world to know what is happening through my eyes. He uses our technology and so I cannot blame him for reminding me to just ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist. It's the most I can do for the one I see as my son on multiple different occasions.

Wheatley, the one who I love the most you can say, was with me this entire trip, hanging onto me though never noticed nor seen by anyone but myself. I know why but I decided to not bring any attention to myself or him. For all these years, that was one thing I completely understood and knew how to do. Even in my state of having a childish and broken mind, I knew what to do and what not to do. But my true self has never clicked in with other mortal humans, and I know for a fact that it never will.

I'm beginning to notice a disturbance between two of them, Kevin and Aleks, and I know why. It's because their locked away memories, that they themselves have locked away, are coming back and they are having trouble hiding it. I want to help them but again I am held back. Fuck them. I bloody hate doing this everyday, unable to help them anymore without 'permission' to. I want to fix that but I so far have no idea how to. Wait, I might just have an idea... But I need to think it over. I need to plan this out. Yes... this idea just may work. All I need to do now is to put it into action.