Journel

September 1st, 2014

Twilight asked me to draw her today. I did as she asked, taking two full hours to get it right. But I couldn't help but wonder why she wanted me to do it anyways. Of course I asked and she simply said she was curious and wanted to see my style of her. I was fine with this answer because I knew it was the truth. She was Twilight Sparkle after all, the little adorkable pony I have grown to see as one of my best friends.

Meowth keeps appearing here, in this world. He stays invisible but he also tends to cling onto me whenever I go back onto the internet. He seems to be driving me away from anything Pokemon related. I keep seeing him tense up and panic begin to course through him. I see it, I feel it. I hate seeing him like this. He refuses to directly answer my obvious question and will simply emit a low growl if I even attempt to bring it up.

I feel like someone else said something to him to make him feel like this. But I know how sensitive him mind is. I cannot and will not try to read his mind, he would know almost instantly. I guess I just have to wait for something to happen, wait for him to tell me because now, I cannot do anything to help him.

My grandma and aunt are coming tomorrow. I feel kind of happy but mostly tense. I know I will have Meowth with me the entire time to remind me and to keep me company, but I can't help but feel tense about all of this. I do not want to fuck up, not when I have everything stabilized now. But I will struggle through this next week, I will have to if I am to survive the rest of this life, right?