I'm Transgender... Documentation Biography

I can't explain them too much, but recently things have felt better. Dysphoria has been growing higher and worse, just like I had hoped. My new councelour seems to keep me feeling so good. I bought some new masculine T shirts and a new pillow pet, I named him Sharkisho.

Things have its up and downs, like yesterday night I had lost it when my two friends said, "She/her"! It utterly threw me off my game, because I had wanted most people to unfollow me. This social transition was hard already in the real world might as well get rid of people on here that I can. Though that hadn't gone too well, I only lost my four followers which was at least good others stayed with me which I hated, actually planning on PMing them about this situation I am in right now.

This social transition was not easy and it isn't still, because of the fact that I am a scaredy cat to tell anyone about me being Transsexual pre-t/op transman. But that is okay cause I am still figuring things out, was also really close to getting my teachers to use the proper pronouns but councelour explained a possible situation that might throw everything in this world off. So I have to put that on hold till thongs get figured out in a better way. However I do have some people saying, "he" which makes me feel great. When my councelour gave me a example of the teachers situation I was so happy! I can't explain why but it felt great and normal. She makes me feel bad after a while I just loose it simetimes cause of it. And no idea how i am gonna pull my friends on the side and tell them out my transition it will be hard.

But on another note, T and haircuts. Haircuts makes me a bit dysprohic okay well a lot. I feel so bad and annoyed by this haircut, usually in the mirror I observe my hair. I usualy roll it up to make it seem shorter, but it is kinda long for a mans haircut which isn't good in my situation. And my eyebrows are starting to fucking annoy me the most. I need to find a way to fix those as well without my mom noticing too much. She is already annoyed about my chest issues. Which I need to be more careful of around her cause you know my shirts might get taken away, and they mean a lot to me. I need them with me at all times no matter what she says. This transition has started and it won't end nope never, I am a new man of a new year. I am ready for the changes and the negativity in this. Bring it on bitch I will fight till the end cause I feel more sure and sure everyday. Things are getting better and I won't let them fall bad again.

So yeah I am excited about my future haircut in just a few weeks! After the wedding I will be able to finally change my hair! Tehehehe, I already got a good idea. I think it is time I switch this hairstyle up a bit. No idea how I will get it without my mom saying no, but I will try to work something out. She knows it is already too late and she will have to accept the fact. But yeah super excited about my hair and that I can pass more as a male. And another thing I am excited about is starting T, getting much more deeper voice and facial hair.

You see last year none of this mattered, but now it does. I am actually researching much more on it. And I recently found out about how I will be treated once I am on it for a few monthes which is a great note to look on. My guy friends would be amazing! Lady friends are cool too, but come on! I need a bro seriously need some guy talk time. Ugh, I am a guy too hello! Chicks and there annoying boy talk. -_-

Pretty much just more excited and feel so much better after two weeks of this transition again. Well update ya later

-Andre ended on the 12/14/14 at 5:05 PM.