Journal entry - March 24th, 2015

I have no Idea what my Twilight was explaining to me today. She keep talking about...I'm not sure. All I know was...it was 6:30 when she started talking and when she finished it was 7:47. She shook me when I zoned out. The whole time I keep making a list of why I love Fluttershy.

She's cute, funny, adorably shy, a happy person, completely positive, he wonderful voice...I would say more but...I can't be here all day.

I've noticed the more time I spend here, The more Nightmares I have. There of...me in a very dark place. A distant cry for help is heard in the background, I look on all sides but see nothing but darkness. The cry gets louder and my head starts to hurt. The cries turn into screams and my head pounds so loud I can't even hear myself think. I scream, "SHUT UP!!" The cries stop. I feel weak and fall to my knees and land in something wet. I look down to see that i'm kneeling in a pool of blood followed by a stream, multiple streams feeding it. I slowly look up to see everyone...everyone I have ever known or seen in a large pile beaten, bloody, and without eyes, tongues, fingers. They all stare at me. The cries start again, so loud I cover my ears, which are bleeding from the sound, and fall into the pool of blood; Covering myself in it. "SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!!" I begin to cry as the screams stop.

I hear one...One voice that I fear every night. A girl walks to me and sits beside me, and pets me. Her...long pink hair covering her face and body, But I know who it is. Fluttershy. "Shh...It's okay eclipse. I forgive you...But..." She puts her eyeless face in front of me, some blood dripping onto my face. "WHY ME?!" She creams at me, I then wake up panting and gasping for air. I look around the dark cell like room. I don't go back to sleep for the rest of the night, I only cry into my arms.

...I think that's enough for today.

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Journal entry - March 25th, 2015

Doctor twilight got someone simpler to explain to me what she was talking about yesterday. I think...her name was Rainbow Dash. This is what I can remember what she said to me.

"Alright Eclipse, You ready? This is a lot of info to take in." I nod. "Great. Apparently Twi says that you're a perfect patient for an experiment that should help you get better. It'll be an operation, so you won't feel a thing. Also, Twilight says that you're not good at learning...you're...how did she put it? I think it was...Border-line retarded. Which means that-"

I cut her off, "I know i'm dumb."

"S-sorta..." A small blush appears on her face. "You can read and write but, you don't know much else do you?" I shake my head. I only got into middle school because the teachers didn't want me to be in there class anymore. i would ask, Why is that that? After a while that gets annoying to them for every question. I try hard, I really do, But...I just can't get it.

She continues, "Well...there also gonna try to make you a little smarter. Just enough so you can learn for yourself." She Says some other stuff that I don't remember.

That's all for today, Gotta go eat.

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Journal entry - March 26, 2015.

Nothing much happened today. A few Doctors asked me a lot of personal questions.

"Have you ever had an STD?" or, "Have you ever smoked?" And my favorite, "Have you ever drunk or eaten any of your own bodily outputs."
What the fuck doctor!?

They ask questions for a few hours, then look at each other and leave. I ask Twilight what they were doing and she said, "Don't worry about it." I shrug and look at the clock smiling. Medicine time! I walk back to my room to find fluttershy sitting on my bed, she smiles when I walk in. She rushes to me and hugs me tightly. She was sick yesterday. I hug back, blushing slightly. I give her a quick kiss on her lovely pink lips and she giggles.

"Nu-uh~" She wraps her arms around my neck and pulls me into a kiss. Man...she is strong, At least for a girl. My face begins to burn as I kiss back. I look deep into her half lidded eyes and smile while I kiss her. I pull away stare into her eyes...her beautiful eyes and say, "I love you fluttershy."

She smiles, "I love you too Eclipse." I begin to tear up, she notices and wipes my eyes. Her eyes still full of love, now have concern in them. "What's wrong Eclipse?"

I shake my head, smiling and wiping my eyes. "I-i...I'm just lucky. I never thought anyone as amazing as you could...could fill my empty soul." I smile at her and she smiles back.

She gives me a quick goodbye kiss and leaves, waving at me. I wave back, smiling.

Welp...that was the highlight of my day. Goodnight! Man I am so happy!

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Journal entry - March 26, 2015.

The hospital was burned down! Almost...A few rooms were on fire but the sprinkles put them out. Apparently one of the patients here was, "Interested" With fire and somehow got a lighter. No one was hurt...except for the guy with the lighter. He got burned over 50% of his body. Twilight said something about the experiments research. I think...it was that it was held back to another date. Apparently the sprinklers fried all of the computers and destroyed all of the papers. Luckily my journal was in the desk I use to write on. Lucky huh?

Fluttershy went off to find me and I felt my face melt form the heat. I could see her bra through her shirt...I keep staring and she noticed. I guess she didn't know because she covered them with her arms and rushed off, her face just as red as mine. I keep standing there red-faced.

We spent the rest of the day outside, until most of every thing was dried.

***

So Twilight told me that my operation would be on My Birthday! I'm guessing she planned it that way. She introduced me to a nice man who shook my hand lightly, he said that he was going to be testing and observing me for the next few days. He pulled me into his office and started to...touch me. I asked him to stop but he said it was part of his job. He patted up my sides and my legs. He did the same between my legs.

He stops. "I am sorry about that...It's a kind of Phobia. A patient was hiding a metal fork on him and...well he stabbed my chest. But anyway, sit please." I nod and sit in a chair that is in front of his desk. "Now...Eclipse I am going to show you a card that has ink on it. You tell me what the fist thing you see is. Don't think just say."

I nod. He holds up a card that kinda looks like a skeleton. "Death." He nods and holds up another, Which looks...like a sandwich, if I squint. "Food." He nods again. "And this?" It's a blank card. For some reason, I only see fluttershy...without eyes, a tongue, and lips. "F-fluttershy" I spout it quickly to avoid saying the real answer. He smiles at me and writes something down. It seems like letters. "You can go now."

A:B
DF:OP
RE:DF-NG

I am not sure what it means...maybe it's just a code so the patient can't see the results. Or even understand them. I nod and stand and leave.

I spend the rest of the day trying not thinking about fluttershy, but I can't. The more I try to not think about her the more I do. I don't even eat or take my meds. Oh well...

Author's Note

Here's chapter 2!