Conversion Bureau: Journal of a Convert

Entry 5 – Saturday 5/19

It’s strange as it being the last weekend as a human. Even though I’ve been planning it, there’s a part of me that is still having trouble fathoming the fact that in a few short days, everything I knew will be changed. My whole life will be new, as if there never was a Meredith Matthews on this planet. I wonder if people will remember me when I was a human, or will that cease to be just as this human self.

I guess it’s bittersweet, leaving one life to become something else. Sure I know I have Azure to help me, but she’s only one pony. What if in becoming a pony I don’t like it? What if the other ponies don’t like me? There really isn’t a way to undo what I’m going to be doing.

Azure definitely sees that I’m going through a crazy time in my mind. this week. Then again, it’s not like I’m trying to hide it. She told me that her decision to become a pony wasn’t as easy as I first thought. She said that she spent over a month planning and considering all options about such an important choice. I told her that she could have come to me to help her, and she apologized for that as she assumed that I would talk her out of it. I guess that both of us need to still learn things about each other.

Azure told me that she had something planned for me on Sunday. She said it was something that I would really enjoy. I admit while I’m excited, I’m also nervous. Azure, when she was human, liked throwing crazy spontaneous parties. I wondered what she could do as a pony especially being a unicorn with magic.

I guess I’ll have to find out tomorrow!