!!Warning!! Contains! [spoiler]Sex, Sexual Assault and Suicide![/spoiler]
This story goes into really dark themes that made me, The author have suicidal thoughts and should not be read by anyone who has dark thoughts, dealing with depression, afraid of death or annyone who can't take gore or sex!!!

The dark themes in the backstories is real life things that have happened! I apologize in advance to anyone who have experienced what i have and take offence to this or if this story makes anyone depressed!

Also the timeline of when stuff happened in real life and when it happens in the story is not going to be in sync to not make the story to dark(Or messed up).
Also the personality of the main character Sarah is not how my personality works, i am way more messed up :pinkiecrazy: and do not think about suicide :yay: (Anymore:pinkiesad2:).
I mainly wanted to try and think how other people with other personalitys would react to what i have experienced with a little of Equestrian crazy in the mix. (Is that messed up?)

Now, the actual story!

Sarah a 19 year old girl who have dealth with depression and other horible things has finaly had enough. Now here she is, standin on the roof of a two hundred meter tall building and looking down to her demise. But the universe likes to mess with people. Or more directly, chaos gods likes to mess with people.
But Sarah does not know that.

This story is about Sarah and her life in equestria after dealing with a failed suicide attempt, Celestia dealing with the grusome thought about someone trying to commit suicide. and Luna just being luna.

This will all be read from a jurnal view.

Also a huge thanks to the awesome Tybahza for helping me write and being a proof reader!