Salt, Anger, And Booze

Salt, Anger, And Booze
Part 4: Pure Anger Management

By: Major Frostwing

The next day was weird. They had taken me off of the heart monitor but kept me on the meds and fluids. Weird to be walking on my feet once again. Everything still had a dull throb of pain going through me but I was allowed to walk. Yay fucking me.

I was walking with Nurse Red Line as she showed me to my anger management class. I was a little annoyed by having to do the fucking thing but I needed this. Red Line looked at me as I let out a sigh as I kept pulling my med bag around on that fucking rod with wheels.

"This is a big step to change yourself Jon are you gonna be ok?" She asked as I let out a sigh.

"Not really I just need a beer to be honest... or maybe a cigarette... maybe a bullet to the side of the head." I muttered as she looked at me with those worried eyes. "I'm kidding... I'm just nervous." I said as she patted me on the shoulder.

"Don't worry Jon Anger Management isn't that difficult." I sighed nodding to her. "Remember if you start to get angry you can walk out and come get me." She told me smiling that sweet as honey smile.

We stopped in front of a large set of double doors. I looked above the door seeing the plaque saying what the room was used for. "Anger Management." I let out a sigh as Nurse Red Line pushed the doors open. I looked in the room seeing a few men and women sitting in chairs looking back at me. I saw all the motivational posters in the room which made me want to throw up.

"Ah Nurse Red Heart is this the new member of our group?" A doctor asked walking up to us." I looked him over and knew for a fact I wanted to deck him... Don't ask it was just a feeling. He was a dull blue color white bright yellow hair. I looked to Nurse Red Line as she smiled to me.

"Yes this is Jon. He has a weak heart that can be damaged by his anger. He wants to get it under control." She said as I looked down at the doctor.

"Hello Jon I am Doctor Calm Wind. It is nice to meet you." He held out his hand to me as I grabbed his hand squeezing tight which made him wince. "Q-Quite the strong hand shake you got there Jon." I glared at him as I continued to squeeze but stopped when Nurse Red Line set her hand on my shoulder.

"Jon your heart." She said with a stern look. I released the doctor's hand as I moved into the room walking behind one of the guys sitting in their chair. I grabbed the back of the chair tilting it forward before pulling it out from under him. I slammed the seat down as I sat down. "I'm sorry doctor He really wants to better himself but doesn't know how to do it."

"It's ok Nurse Jon will learn eventually to help himself by riding himself of his anger problems." The Doctor said pulling a new chair out setting it up for the guy who's chair I had taken away from him. "Alright friends we have a new friend joining us would you like to introduce yourself?"

I looked at the doctor before looking at everyone else in the room. "My name is Jon."

"Hello Jon." They all said in a monotone voice.

"I am an angry son of a bitch that pretty much only came here so I don't die... So fuck it." I said as I looked at all the other "Friends".

"It is very nice to meet you Jon. Do you have any hobbies?" Calm Wind asked as I glared at him.

"None of your fucking business Doc." I said leaning back in my chair.

"Alrighty then... Well Jon let's introduce you to our little family." He said as introductions began I didn't really listen.

"Alright everyone I want you to try and write something nice about the person on your right. It could be something simple or something elaborate it doesn't matter just try to be kind to them." I looked to my right seeing a woman with purple fur and orange hair. She looked over at me smiling which I responded by snapping the pencil between my fingers. I smiled as her own faltered. "I see you broke your pencil Jon let me get you another one." The doctor said handing me a new pencil which I snapped in my hand when he looked away.

"Oops." I said as I held my hand out to him as he put a new pencil in my hand this one I snapped as he watched me. "I don't like pencils." I said flatly as I saw my right hand shift from white to black. "Give me your pen." The doctor looked at me with a smile.

"That's not how we ask for things Jon. You need to say please." I got up from my seat seizing the doctor by his lab coat pulling him face to face with me.

"Give me the fucking pen Doc or lose a hand." I threatened as he looked at me still smiling I then noticed his hands moving. I glanced to see everyone in the room had stood up as if to stop me. I looked back at the doctor before holding out my hand. "Please give me the fucking pen." I said through gritted teeth.

"Of course Jon." The doctor said as he dropped the pen into my hand. "Now what do we say?" He asked as I shoved him back before taking my seat. I began writing a few things down on my clipboard not paying any attention to those around me as I continued to write.

"Alright everyone pass the note to the person on your right so they can read what you wrote." I rolled my eyes passing over my message to the woman. I took the one from the guy on my left.

"I like your shirt." I read as I glanced over at him to see him shrug.

"Whatever." I muttered balling up his message before tossing it over my shoulder. I felt a tap on my shoulder looking at the girl I wrote my message to.

"You just wrote a death threat... It isn't even addressed to me." I looked at the message before taking it back and passing her the one I meant to hand to her.

"Damn right that isn't for you." I turned around seeing that fucking parasite in my head. "It's for her." I muttered crumpling up the note throwing it at the shade.

"This one just says shoes... what about my shoes?" She asked as I glared at her.

"The colors match the rest of your outfit. That's it." I went back to glaring at the shade.

"Um Jon we are about to begin the next exercise. What are you looking at?" He asked as I growled looking back at him feeling my anger flare and pain in my chest. I took a gasp of air as I grabbed my chest. "JON!" The doctor rushed forward checking on me. "Breathe Jon calm down think of what makes you happy." I continued to breathe hard as my mind went into a panic. "Fire Light go get Nurse Red Line NOW!" Her ordered as someone ran out of the room.

"Damn this heart." I gasped out as the Doctor tried to calm me down. "It's all her fault."

"Jon I'm here what's wrong?" I heard Nurse Red Line say as she knelt down in front of me setting her hand on my shoulder. I closed my eyes as she pulled out a syringe injecting it into my arm. After a few seconds my heart ceased it's painful tantrum and began to beat normally. I took a few deep breaths to make sure it wasn't going to start back up. "Jon. Are you OK?" She asked as I looked up in her eyes before wrapping her in a hug. The constant fear of my heart just giving up on me was starting to get to me.

I was just so scared and so angry that I couldn't do anything to stop it. "I'll take him back to his room Doctor." Red Line said helping me get to my feet leading me out of the room. She stayed with me the whole way and even talked to me not as a patient but as a friend. That's what I needed most right now was a friend.