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Don't Look Inside

by Elu
A young man committed suicide. What drove him to such an end? What inner thoughts and memories made him end his life? Most importantly, he was somehow painfully transformed into a pony and sent to Equestria. Will he find peace or madness?

On a regular summer night, a young man decided to end his life. Bringing a gun to the lake in the middle of the forest, he sealed his fate himself. There was nothing and nobody to stop him from committing suicide, an act he carried out swiftly and without hesitation.

Did he die? On the Earth, most certainly. However, he underwent a painful transformation into a pony and was thrown into an unfamiliar, different world he couldn't have possibly known anything about.

But no matter what happens to his physical part, the inside, the mind is what matters the most. It stays with him.

Don't look there, for you might find the deepest and the darkest thoughts and memories that are better left buried.

The new cover art done by JamesA.
Additional tags: Drama.

All sex scenes will be marked with *** at the beginning and end, making them skippable. I'd recommend not skipping them because of their relevance to the story and feels of characters.

SPOILERS IN THE COMMENTS!

This is by no means a simple story about a sad human quickly gaining love and appreciation from ponies and easily fighting his inner demons and then having a perfectly normal life. Such battles are not easily fought, and even less easily won.

The story is dark, depressing and unnerving. It is advised that if you are under the effects of depression or similar mental issue, you should visit a professional doctor and ask for help. If you don't trust them enough, go to a friend or a family member. Or even better, share you thoughts with a loved one.

And remember, your life is always in your own hands.

This is a much darker take on the human-turned-pony stories than what I've written before. Tread carefully and don't be afraid to stop reading if you're not feeling well.

On a more positive note, join the Discord to discuss the story and get to know other people who like my stories!

Support me on Patreon if you'd like!

Complete
Dark
Alternate Universe
Sad
Sex
Suicide / Self Harm
Tragedy
Violence
Human
Gore
My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
 
OP

175590 words: Estimated about 15 hours to read
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70 Chapters:

  1. Prologue: Arrival 2017-05-03 16:54:58 UTC
    3405
  2. Chapter 1: Encounter 2017-05-04 14:48:54 UTC
    2213
  3. Chapter 2: Poison in the Body 2017-05-06 17:39:22 UTC
  4. Chapter 3: Name 2017-05-08 16:15:47 UTC
    2985
  5. Chapter 4: Thoughts 2017-05-10 17:38:02 UTC
    2122
  6. Chapter 5: Castle 2017-05-11 16:40:52 UTC
    1887
  7. Chapter 6: Learning 2017-05-14 14:07:50 UTC
    2507
  8. Chapter 7: Outside and Inside 2017-05-15 16:48:06 UTC
    2398
  9. Chapter 8: Alone 2017-05-17 16:01:48 UTC
    2551
  10. Chapter 9: Apologies 2017-05-19 16:16:28 UTC
    2612
  11. Chapter 10: Chance 2017-05-20 06:53:00 UTC
    2263
  12. Chapter 11: First Impressions 2017-05-21 17:28:45 UTC
  13. Chapter 12: Expectations 2017-05-23 09:56:41 UTC
    2005
  14. Chapter 13: School 2017-05-25 08:31:14 UTC
    3541
  15. Chapter 14: Trouble 2017-05-27 14:55:23 UTC
    2891
  16. Chapter 15: Thoughts and Swords 2017-05-29 17:30:35 UTC
    2838
  17. Chapter 16: After Training 2017-06-01 17:08:56 UTC
    2183
  18. Chapter 17: Sleep 2017-06-04 08:21:56 UTC
    2595
  19. Chapter 18: Defense 2017-06-07 07:49:05 UTC
    2778
  20. Chapter 19: Aftermath 2017-06-10 16:32:56 UTC
    3296
  21. Chapter 20: Weekend 2017-06-13 16:22:46 UTC
    2427
  22. Chapter 21: The Treehouse 2017-06-15 09:25:12 UTC
    2744
  23. Chapter 22: Cold 2017-06-17 06:39:00 UTC
    1826
  24. Chapter 23: Spark 2017-06-18 15:18:26 UTC
    2266
  25. Chapter 24: XVR 2017-06-21 17:12:38 UTC
    3247
  26. Chapter 25: Thoughts and Talk 2017-06-23 17:13:44 UTC
    3049
  27. Chapter 26: Warmth and Steel 2017-06-26 16:52:31 UTC
    2936
  28. Chapter 27: Hospital 2017-06-28 17:39:54 UTC
    2579
  29. Chapter 28: Truth or Dare 2017-06-30 18:42:20 UTC
    2145
  30. Chapter 29: Can't Hold It Anymore 2017-07-01 19:28:52 UTC
    2377
  31. Chapter 30: Consequences and Preparations 2017-07-03 17:53:26 UTC
    2190
  32. Chapter 31: The Tournament, Day One 2017-07-05 19:45:22 UTC
    3446
  33. Chapter 32: The Tournament, Night One 2017-07-06 19:52:04 UTC
    1677
  34. Chapter 33: The Tournament, Day Two, Part One 2017-07-08 19:06:30 UTC
    4383
  35. Chapter 34: The Tournament, Day Two, Part Two 2017-07-10 19:08:19 UTC
    2872
  36. Chapter 35: The Tournament, Day Two, Part Three 2017-07-12 19:53:19 UTC
    3399
  37. Chapter 36: The Tournament, Night Two 2017-07-13 20:59:22 UTC
    1636
  38. Chapter 37: The Tournament, Day Three 2017-07-17 19:35:01 UTC
    2843
  39. Chapter 38: After the Tournament 2017-07-19 19:59:09 UTC
    2272
  40. Chapter 39: Means of Defense 2017-07-22 19:06:12 UTC
    1984
  41. Chapter 40: Safety 2017-07-23 18:58:32 UTC
    1924
  42. Chapter 41: Feelings 2017-07-24 17:31:21 UTC
    1661
  43. Chapter 42: The Royal Wedding, Preparations 2017-07-25 17:53:23 UTC
    1973
  44. Chapter 43: The Royal Wedding, Suspicions 2017-07-27 18:40:35 UTC
    2451
  45. Chapter 44: The Royal Wedding, Invasion 2017-07-28 20:18:04 UTC
    3875
  46. Chapter 45: Comatose 2017-07-29 19:04:14 UTC
    2702
  47. Chapter 46: A Week Later 2017-07-31 17:14:53 UTC
    2463
  48. Chapter 47: Reward 2017-08-01 19:37:03 UTC
    3048
  49. Chapter 48: The Mansion 2017-08-02 17:47:30 UTC
    2663
  50. Chapter 49: Relief 2017-08-03 19:13:37 UTC
    2334
  51. Chapter 50: Issues 2017-08-04 19:52:17 UTC
    3450
  52. Chapter 51: Words and Actions 2017-08-05 18:15:59 UTC
    2708
  53. Chapter 52: Endings and Beginnings 2017-08-06 18:34:19 UTC
    2420
  54. Chapter 53: Reconnection 2017-08-08 08:32:56 UTC
    2775
  55. Chapter 54: Distance 2017-08-09 13:17:32 UTC
  56. Chapter 55: Learning From the Past 2017-08-10 19:44:58 UTC
    2846
  57. Chapter 56: Learning From Mistakes 2017-08-11 17:22:05 UTC
    2403
  58. Chapter 57: Problems 2017-08-12 20:50:56 UTC
    2242
  59. Chapter 58: Personal Issues 2017-08-14 15:07:29 UTC
    2207
  60. Chapter 59: Back to School 2017-08-15 15:42:02 UTC
    2146
  61. Chapter 60: Bond 2017-08-16 18:04:17 UTC
    3241
  62. Chapter 61: Memories and Changes 2017-08-19 20:55:49 UTC
    2324
  63. Chapter 62: Conflicts 2017-08-21 18:37:50 UTC
    3375
  64. Chapter 63: Friendship 2017-08-23 19:32:47 UTC
    2263
  65. Chapter 64: Fears 2017-08-25 19:57:41 UTC
    2326
  66. Chapter 65: Nightmare 2017-08-30 18:09:06 UTC
    2600
  67. Chapter 66: Resolving 2017-09-02 05:37:03 UTC
    2650
  68. Chapter 67: Through the Eyes of Others 2017-09-07 16:40:56 UTC
    3513
  69. Chapter 68: The Deathly Duel 2017-09-10 15:25:18 UTC
    4195
  70. Epilogue: Eigengrau 2017-09-11 01:34:08 UTC
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