Author's Note

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life is a Bitch

life is not easy when you don't get along with people your age and even though you try to make friends with them, they kick you out like trash every time, without a single explanation.
I've never figured out why no one likes me, I'm no different than everyone else, so what's everyone's problem?
All I can do is look after myself and watch everyone having a good time.

These are my current thoughts as I sit in a dark corner at a party hosted by Rarity, one of the hottest and most popular girls in town.
Of course, everyone from the neighborhood is here, no one will miss her party, because there is something for everyone.

There are popular girls and boys. They hope that their popularity will increase here, or they will exchange their current partner for a better model.

Then there are the sex addicts. These are unpopular individuals who hope to get someone drunk and drag them to the bathroom for quick sex.

Then there are the peacocks. They want nothing but to flaunt and look irresistible.

Finally, here's the rest. A small crowd of people who really want to have fun, get drunk and dance the night away with the help of their friends.

Can you guess which group I'm in?
If you guessed that in none, then you're right, because I don't belong here, I'm not even supposed to be here, but when I found myself here, I thought that maybe it's fate to move somewhere in my life.
But it's more like someone made fun of me and now I'm sitting here for their amusement.

But what if not? What if I just have to try harder, I can't just throw away an opportunity like this, when will I get another chance to get to a party like this?

I get up from my chair in a dark corner and look at a room full of people dancing, drunk, or talking.
But who to go to?
I shouldn't be picky and just go to someone as long as I'm motivated.

With my first step, I emerge from the darkness of the corner of the room as if entering another world, I hear dance music and a glow of colored lights illuminates everyone below.
I walk through a crowd of people who don't pay attention to me, my gaze stops at a small debate circle, I take a cup from the table that can't contain anything but alcohol according to the smell.
Before I get to them, I manage to drink half a cup of alcohol or whatever it is, because I can feel the heat in my stomach.
I unobtrusively join the circle of boys and girls chatting.

"You've probably already tried it hehehe" Girl in pink lipstick.

“No, I was just wondering, what about you? The boy in the black pants.

“Don't you want to talk about something else? Gelled hair.

"What? Did we start your sensitive topic? Pink lipstick.

"I don't think it's a good party theme either" Girl in black braids.

"But don't be such a cracker, it's fun" Pink lipstick.

"I don't know about you, but I didn't come to listen to your sexual fantasies" The girl in the green dress.

"Alright tell us some fantasy of yours and we'll change the subject" black pants.

"No, I won't talk about that" Green dress.

"It's true that even I would be interested in what's going through your head" black braids.

"Me too" join the others.

"You see, everyone is interested, so talk" Pink lipstick.

"Fine! She drinks the cup all at once and picks up another one from which she drinks a few times.

"It really turns me on when a guy calls me big sister during sex" She drinks another cup and throws it away.

"wow"

Everyone watch and process what the Green Coats said, but I, being the only idiot, let a small chuckle pass between my lips.
I wouldn't expect that something so small could cause such a disaster, because apparently everyone has heard it and they don't like it very much.

“Who the fuck are you? Gelled hair.

"Just someone at a party" I don't know how to answer such a question.

“So no one, so how about you go mock somewhere else while you listen to the private conversation!” Pink Lipstick, who is apparently the most drunk of them all, raises her voice.

"I don't laugh at anyone" I try to calm the situation down.

"HEY! This creep is bothering us here" Black braids shouts while supporting a drunk girl in a green dress.

I feel the whole universe looking at me and not smiling, I finish the rest of the cup, which is knocked out of my hand.

"You don't belong here you wretch" the black pants approach me with a harsh expression.

"I don't want any trouble, I just came to enjoy some fun among the people"

"Then you should go before you get into trouble" He nudges me.

I'm not going to argue, so I turn around, but I didn't really look where I was going, and from the commotion, I bumped into a girl that the guy is taking, apparently somewhere where there will be privacy.
I didn't have time to say a word or reach out to the downed girl on the ground and I already had to duck from the incoming blow to the face.
Fortunately, he is quite drunk and thus slow.

"I'm sorry, it was an accident" I try to calm him down.

Fortunately, his partner grabbed his muscular arms and after whispering a few words, they both left.
For a moment I forgot what I was doing when I heard behind me how the debate circle was talking about me.

"That's exactly why such wretches shouldn't be here"

"Exactly, not only are they scumbags, but they're no fun either"

"Tell me, once..." I jump into her speech.

"What if you were looking at yours, you don't even know my name and you already know me better than I know myself?! I yell at them in anger, but I immediately realize that it was a mistake.

"Look you fucker, you're not going to open your mouth to anyone here, is that clear to you? The black pants step on me roughly.

I wanted nothing more than to meet someone, have some fun and forget for a while that I was an outcast, but no. No one will just give me a break and all I will listen to for the rest of my life is that I am something less than others.
With my nerves taut as a string, I keep calm and turn to leave again.

"Hurry up, you're just making the atmosphere worse here"

Why do I let them treat me like this? Do I really want to be the eternal outcast that everyone despises? How is it possible that everyone knows that I am different and unpopular?
With that last question I stop, turn around and say out loud.

"What's your problem?! I'm here like everyone else to have fun!

I literally have the attention of everyone in the room now, the music has even stopped playing.

"If you really want to know what I have a problem with, it's with the fact that you don't know your place well" The gelled head steps on me angrily.

"Who decided that I'm a loser? Just because I don't hang around bars at night, pick up every girl who doesn't have panties on, and don't have gelled shit on my head, doesn't mean I'm less than you!

To summarize, today's pluses are:

1. I got to the party where the most popular people are.

2. I heard that it doesn't matter how popular and arrogant they are, they still talk about complete shit.

3. I could tell the biggest jerk I know to his face what I thought of him in front of all his friends.

4. At least for a moment I was the king of the party because everyone could die laughing at the sight of the gel head.

It's not bad, but compared to the one negative, I don't know if it was worth it.

As soon as I manage to get up from the ground, I go to the toilet with the constant stares of everyone around me, the blood that flows from my torn lip is mixed into the water I rinse my face with.
In the mirror I see bruises and more blood coming from my nose.
He gave me a hard time, but everything I said was true.

"If being popular means acting like a jerk, then I understand why no one takes me" I wipe the blood from my nose with a tissue.

"You don't have to be a jerk for people to like you, don't change and believe in yourself" I hear a voice so sweet that my ears can almost taste it.

I don't see anyone behind me in the mirror, I quickly turn around and run between the doors, but I don't see anyone anywhere who intends to talk to me.
Leaning against the door, I look around, but whoever it was is already gone.
Disappointed, I decided to leave, no point in wasting my PRECIOUS time here, I'll bypass a bunch of dancing drunks.
With a look behind me, still looking for the owner of the sweet voice, but I can't see her anywhere, I'm going to bump into someone..... again?
I'm doing really well today.

"Watch Where You Go"

"I'm sorry" I say into complete silence.

I didn't understand what was going on, why isn't the music playing again and no one talking? Don't tell me the same thing will happen again?

“I've had my fill, can't I just leave? I say to the little diamond-studded pumps.

“What happened to you dear? A soft hand rests on my cheek and lifts my head.

I swallow in disbelief at Rarity's beautiful, made-up face, which is decorated with purple wavy hair that sparkles due to the tiny diamonds in it.

"It's nothing... You're beautiful" I blurt out as she lets go of my face to the giggles that echo around me.

"Thank you, you're sweet" She sways her hips in a tight short skirt and blouse with a plunging neckline that sparkles like her hair.

"I should...." I want to leave, but I'm not allowed to.

"Then where are you going, flatterer? She'll stop me from leaving.

"I'm leaving, I have other duties" I would like to turn around and go somewhere else, but I'm as if hypnotized by her big beautiful eyes, highlighted by thick eyelashes.

"But it would be a shame to lose such a treasure, how about you stay here WITH ME longer? She whispers seductively in my ear, while I have a perfect view of her cleavage from which I can smell a sweet scent.

"I..um..I don't want to be rude but..." I feel myself blush and feel hot when I realize that everyone around me is laughing like crazy.

I slam the door behind me behind which there is loud laughter, while I'm all sweaty with a pounding heart that might jump out of my chest.

With an unhappy look, I sit on the stairs thinking about the embarrassment I experienced, about the fact that I will listen to it every day for the rest of my life.

"Why won't you leave me alone?! I yell angrily at the bulging flap of my brown pants.

When I get home it's well past midnight, after a quick shower I lie down in bed and try to sleep but I can't, I can still smell that sweet smell and I have her breasts in front of me.
Because she was leaning forward, I got a view of the inside of the loose blouse, where nothing covers the beautiful full breasts, while she whispers in my ear - What if you stayed here longer..... WITH ME.

"FUUuck" I'm tossing and turning in bed with all sorts of fantasies about how this could have gone on.

"Well, I won't fall asleep like this" I put a box of tissues next to me.