My year at Ponyville High

I awoke feeling well rested. I had had no nightmares. The voice that has been haunting my dreams didn’t appear. It seems I had made a blanket out of my welcome mat. I got up and dusted myself off noticing my hoof felt a lot better but still hurt, it was early morning I could tell that without even looking at my clock, as the sun was only just rising.

I felt different today, whether it was because I had an amazing yet uncomfortable sleep or some other miracle. But I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off of me. I felt rejuvenated. As I made myself breakfast I turned my music on and got lost in the beats.

I felt happy for the first time in a long while, I came to a realisation while my oats warmed. I no longer felt guilty. I no longer felt ashamed and I no longer cared. All my life I have been the under dog. All my life no pony has ever done me a real favour. In then end it is all the same. I am abandoned.

“I’m glad to see you are finally relaxing and letting loose. I guess healing your hoof and soul somewhat helped too.”

I threw my glass of milk I had just poured against the ceiling.

“I love scaring little ponies in the mornings!” The Draconequus clapped his hands together.

“How did you get in here Discord?” I remember visiting his statue as a filly. I have never actually met him nor have I seen him since.

“I was told to keep an eye on you,” he then grabbed his eye and put in on my head giggling, “And that’s what I’m here to do! Although Miss Berry you are one pony I’d been watching for quite some time before.” He smirked.

I flung his eye away which he caught and popped back in, “Who told you to?! And are you the one that has been stalking my dreams?!” I shouted.

“Now that is interesting, I did not know that you were having trouble sleeping? And unfortunately I can not tell you who gave me this mission.”

“Why not?” I asked defensively.

“More to the point, your dreams… describe them to me.”

“No!” I said and started to stomp to my room.

“Why not? I could help!” He followed.

“No! Because you wont tell me who asked you to watch over me!” I was almost to my room.

“That’s not fair! I’m only here to help you! Not terrorise you.” He pleaded.

“No!” I stopped and turned to him and slammed the door in his face.

“You are acting like a filly!” he yelled from outside my room.

“I have to get ready for school.”

After an hour of showering, brushing my teeth, styling my mane and wasting time I emerged from my room to see a comfortable discord laying on my couch.

“You take a long time to get ready.” He grumbled.

I huffed and ate my now cold oats.

After ten minutes of awkward silence he gave in. “Fine I will tell you on one condition.”

I glared at him waiting for him to continue.

“You tell me everything that goes on in you life. When ever I ask. It is essential I know.” He smirked mischievously.

I pondered this for a moment. There wasn’t really much bad that could come from it, He could help, and I’m sure I could just not tell him some things.

“No. I will know if you lie to me. I am the king of lies…” he poked his tongue out.

“No… I have the right to leave out some things.”

“How dare you keep negotiating! Fine whatever! Just tell me the bad things… like the dreams, I don’t give a shit.”

“You first.”

He scoffed at this, “You play a tough game Miss Berry, Fine! It was a pony of royal blood that asked me to watch over you.”

“Who?” A pony of royal blood? But why would any royalty be interested in a pony like me.

“I will give you one more question, pick wisely, who… or why?” he snickered, “But first, describe me your dreams.”

“They are always in a dark place. It is pure silence half the time.” I felt a chill run up my spine. “It sounds evil, but it says it wants the best for me. It says it gave me my cutie mark… as a gift? I don’t know maybe it is my imagination…”

Discord was in deep thought, “Hmmm… It is strange, I will look into it more. Now to answer your question. What do you choose?”

“I actually don’t want to know anymore. You can tell me another time, I have to get to school!” I was going to be on time today and nothing was stopping me! Even though I really did want to know who had asked him to watch me.

As odd of an occurrence that was it wasn’t stopping me. Nor did it phase me as much as it would have another pony. Today I was in an amazing mood!

I arrived at school with time to spare, I wiped the sweat from my brow and was excited to start the new day. I tucked some things into my locker and as I shut it a pony I didn’t want to see appeared next to me smirking. I opened my locker and closed it again. Multiple times.

“Take the magic trick back, do not want!” I said to my locker in frustration.

“Hey loser!” Silver Spoon said, I thought I noticed her blush, “Looks like you are no longer a blank flank, welcome to the land of big ponies.” She snickered.

I looked around her and saw no pony standing behind her to back her up, I smiled, “Where is your little friend?” I asked.

“None of your business!” she spat back, this pony had some real attitude problems.

“Well that’s good to know, know make like a good dog and go run to her or something, because my life is none of your business!” I took a step toward her to show I am in no mood for her crap. I am happy today and I plan on staying that way.

She gulped hard and I could see it in her eyes she was deciding if she should retreat or not. She didn’t, she took a step closer, “What are you going to do huh?”

I glared at her, “I don’t even know you, I don’t give a shit about what you think or say. If you don’t step away right now I will kick your plot so hard, the stick you have shoved up your ass will break in two.” I stated.

She gasped, looked around to see if anypony had been listening, which there was about fifteen ponies gathered around our little spectacle, I even heard one pony yell, “Are you going to take that?!” That seemed to set Silver Spoon off.

Before I had time to react she had already knocked me to the ground. Because she caught me off guard she got a good swing in. I managed to shield myself from the next hit but at the cost of damaging my freshly healed hoof, she had gotten the upper hoof by pinning me to the ground. She pinned my forelegs down with her knees and was sitting on top of me, this gave her the utmost advantage as she swung repeatedly, smashing me directly in the muzzle. I was all for fair fights, but one I was caught off guard and two, I was sure that is if I didn’t do something soon she was going to cause serious damage to my face… or brain.

I am not proud of what I did next but it was necessary. I magically engulfed her mane and pulled her backwards off of me. I held her within my grasp until I could get to my hooves. Mainly because that had just about spent all of my energy. I let go as I swung connecting my good hoof to her jaw and making her lose balance hitting the floor hard. I didn’t want to hit her in the eyes because of her glasses. That would risk glass going in her eyes and my hoof. I could taste my own blood and I started to feel dizzy. But seeing the rage in her eyes as she got up I knew the only way she was backing down was if somepony broke us up. Which wouldn’t be happening soon because a lot of ponies were cheering for more.

She took a swing at me, but I dodged just in time and gave her an uppercut she would feel in the morning. She grunted loudly and went into a rage of just swinging frantically, I dodged as many as I could but they were coming too fast. One connected to my forehead at the base of my horn, at the exact same time I connected a hit to her left cheek.

I fell to the ground. As did her glasses. She towered over me and I looked up. I had never been in so much pain. She turned around and I thought I was over. I thought she was about to walk away, it was obvious she had beaten the crap out of me. That was when she laughed wickedly and raised her hind legs. I was wrong I found that out as she bucked my face so hard it sent me flying down the hall. The last thing I remember was muffled voices yelling something about something… yeah I was knocked out.

I awoke groggy and feeling like a pile of dung. It hurt as I opened my eyes, the light was so bright and my eyes were so sensitive. I was cold and in a bed that wasn’t mine. My hearing was muffled and I could barely hear the beeps of the hospital machine next to me. Yeah… I got bucked up!

I tried to talk but as I tried to move my jaw tears came to my eyes and I made a tiny gurgling squeaky sound. My vision fixed itself and my hearing was almost normal. I noticed some flowers by my bed, and wondered who dropped them by as they were the same ones my secret admirer used.

I also noticed at the end of the bed a chair dragged nice and close with a sleeping Twilight Sparkle leaning on the bed. I immediately felt stupid. I felt embarrassed. I had still not confronted her about what I did. But I guess it doesn’t matter now. It was only a peck after all. I doubt she would be here if she didn’t forgive me. I noticed they were pumping a lot of things into me. As I pulled myself up the bed I accidently rustled too much and awoke the sleeping mare.

She groggily turned her head to the side sighing as she did so, only half opening her eyes. Then her eyes widened in what seemed like disbelief and she rushed up and hugged me tight. This caused a lot of pain on my behalf and once again I made the unflattering noise. She tried to pull away but I held her close letting her know it was okay.

Eventually she pulled away and I noticed a tear sliding down her face, “You know taking on a earth pony that teaches self defence in her spare time was stupid, she may not look like much but silver spoon is a tank.” She tried to laugh but it died instantly.

How was I to know that? She really doesn’t seem like the type… I should have used magic. I grunted in response which didn’t hurt… too much.

“They didn’t know when you would wake up… they weren’t even going to let me in here until I got permission from the princess…”

I tried to give her a look that would clearly say I’m sorry. I don’t know if she got the message.

“There is a note pad and pen on the desk if you really need to say something-“

I looked at it and tried to levitate it to myself, but was rewarded with searing pain running through my skull, it was like I was being electrocuted.

“Don’t try to use magic!” Twilight yelled too late, “Your horn uh… well it cracked…”

She hoofed me the note pad and pen, I knew straight away my hoof was in a cast, yeah so much for healing it Discord! But I was determined and without magic, I would be a very messy writer.

I wrote on the pad, ‘How long was I out?’

“A week exactly.” She answered and watched as I wrote more.

‘What is happening with Silver Spoon?’

“Well…” She looked away from me as she spoke, “At first she tried saying it actually was self defence… I even heard that her father tried paying off the school and the authorities. Unfortunately for her there were quite a few witnesses… it was a shame none of them jumped in to stop her…” She grunted in frustration, “You are lucky the Scootaloo jumped in and helped while her friends ran and got a teacher.”

I underlined my question again and raised an eyebrow.

“Well right now her appeal is being looked at and she will be lucky if she doesn’t get charged with attempted murder… But in the end it lies on you what you do.”

I stared at the note pad for a long while. Attempted murder? I wouldn’t call it that, I have been in plenty of fights… this one was just a lot rougher then usual is all.

‘I don’t want her to be charged with anything.’ I wrote and looked at Twilight waiting for a response.

“But she almost killed you Berry! Do you even understand that?!” She looked at me pleadingly.

I tapped what I had just written again.

“Why? She was out of control! She deserves punishment!” Twilight said angrily.

‘I egged her on just as much. I deserve punishment. And I got it.’

“But she didn’t other then a few bruises! She took your magic Berry!” Tears were free falling from Twilights eyes.

I did my best to smile, ‘No she didn’t. I will be fine, the only thing she truly hurt was my pride.’

“I don’t understand how you can be so forgiving…” she stroked my cheek ever so lightly.

‘Who left these flowers?’ I wrote changing the subject.

“I don’t know… they were here even before I got here.” She said looking at them confused, she lifted the card out from in them and read, “Get well soon, I will be counting the days until you are better, Love your Secret Admirer.” She frowned as she said the last of it.

I felt a blush come on and I looked away from Twilight.

“Somepony is popular.” She laughed but it sounded forced.

The air in the room became tainted with awkwardness. I heard her sigh sadly and felt a pang of guilt in my chest.

‘Are you okay?’ I scribbled.

“Yeah… I’m sorry PassionBerry.”

I tilted my head to the side, I didn’t need to write this down.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you who it was… and it was wrong of me to put all of my problems on you.”

‘No. I’m sorry. You have nothing to apologise for. I shouldn’t have done what I did. It was wrong. You were vulnerable.’

“Don’t apologise. You were being there for me. Thank you. But I don’t think I am ready for that… You are a great friend Berry… but you are not emotionally mature yet. And you have other commitments you need to tend to.”

I pondered this for some time, my heart was breaking but she was right. I'm really not emotionally mature for any kind of relationship I may have hoped to have with Twilight Sparkle. She was getting over her heart breaking and it needed time to mend.

‘Thank you.’ I smiled genuinely at her.

“Well I am glad you are now awake, now I have a few things I need to go tend to, did you need anything?”

I shook my head, she hugged me gently and like that she was gone. I was left alone in the cold empty room. I sunk deep into the bed, I worried about if Scootaloo was okay, I should have asked Twilight. I’m sure she would have told me if anything bad had happened. Then I worried if she finished our project. I felt guilty I had not finished it with her.

As time passed a nurse came in every now and then to check on me, or to change my medicine over. I soon started to try and get my magic working again, almost every time it drove me to tears but I eventually managed to levitate one fallen petal from the bouquet of flowers I had received. This brought tears of happiness to my eyes. My magic hadn’t abandoned me.

I eventually got a nurse to play some music in my room. She didn’t mind as she felt it made the whole room feel less like a prison. I couldn’t agree more.

It was late afternoon by the time I got a knock at my door, it was nurse Redheart, “You have a guest, would you like them to-“

I nodded, finally something to relieve my boredom!

To my surprise, Scootaloo, AppleBloom and Sweetie Belle walked in all taking a seat close to the bed.

I quickly wrote, ‘I’m sorry.’ And shoved it at Scootaloo.

She had what remained of a black eye, it was almost healed but I could still see it.

“What!” She laughed, “Don’t be! I’m sorry I wasn’t there to back you up!”

The all nodded in agreement. I shrugged.

“Twilight told us you were dropping the charges, why?!” asked Sweetie Belle.

I showed them the previous paper saying I egged her on, they just shook their heads.

“That still don’t mean she can just get away with it!” AppleBloom stated.

“Yeah!” the other two chimed in.

I shrugged and wrote, ‘It’s my decision in the end. Anyway can we talk about something else? Scootaloo did you get the assignment done in time?’

“Seriously? It was a potato clock there wasn’t much to it.” She said in a cocky tone.

“We would have been here sooner but… School. Everypony won’t shut up about the fight, so don’t expect to hear nothing about it when you come back.” Sweetie Belle spoke.

“But don’t worry! I will be walking to school with you from now on.” Scootaloo stated and blushed.

‘I’m not a foal. I can walk myself.” I grunted and shoved a pad in her face.

She replied by poking her tongue out at me and giggling.

‘But seriously guys, Thank you.’ I tried my best to hold a tear back. Damn dust!

They all Daww’d at me and gently gave me an awkward group hug.

“Well we better get going mah sister will be wonderin’ where I am.” AppleBloom said and headed for the door, “It was good to know you are gettin’ better Berry!”

Sweetie Belle soon followed, “Yeah I have a curfew and I’m about to be late!” she panicked and chased after Apple Bloom, I heard her yell bye down the hall.

I looked questioningly at Scootaloo, she smiled down at me “I have absolutely no where to be.”

She closed the door, something the nurses never did, and turned my music up. Sitting back in her chair she closed her eyes and listened to the beat of Vinyl Scratches music. I soon lost myself in the music to.

About three songs in she turned the music down so it was just background noise. I raised an eyebrow. She ignored it.

She stared at me for a while. I was trying to read on her face what she was thinking, but she was a blank book.

“Are you in pain?” she asked.

I shrugged, I wasn’t at the present time, but when I moved it would send jolts of pain.

She leaned over the bed and hugged me, not with her fore arms, but with her wings. It was the most gentle hug I had ever received, the feel of her feathers against my coat felt like bliss. She held me tight against her for a long moment then released me gently.

“Don’t do that again…” she said, “You stupid gorgeous mare, don’t ever do something so naïve again!” she said angrily, “Silver Spoon had almost killed you, ya know?”

I nodded.

“Over what? A stupid taunt… that pony was never able to control her temper!” She gritted her teeth.

I raised an eyebrow mockingly.

“I can control my temper! I would never harm another pony! I am nothing like-“

It took all of my energy to grab Scootaloo mid rage, I pulled her close to myself and brought her in for a kiss, although it was painful it was worth it. She melted into my hooves as she kissed me back and I was once again breathing in the smell of passion fruit… not much dirt this time. It was a light kiss that seemed to last forever. I could feel how red her cheeks were as the heat radiated off of them and onto mine.

I pulled away as the pain started to become too much. She looked as if she had just flown to the moon and back.

“That was… unexpected…” she said confused but as red as a tomato.

I sat back and gently smiled. I was too tired to write anymore. I think she noticed this.

With a heavy sigh she said, “I will leave you to get some rest okay, but I will be back first chance I get!” she finished enthusiastically.

Giving me a quick peck on the forehead, avoiding my horn, she left. But not before turning my music up. With that I had a feeling I would be getting no more visitors for the day. Soon enough I was drifting into a deep and well needed slumber.

I awoke early morning feeling we rested and a little better. My jaw didn’t hurt so much anymore it just felt stiff. I could finally muster up enough courage to stretch out my body, it felt painfully good. I could feel a weeks worth of being cramped up in bed through my body as I stretch, feeling my back crack felt unbelievably good.

I wanted to get up. As I started to pull myself up and about to swing down onto the floor a nurse quickly rushed in. I sighed in frustration as she gently pushed me back into bed and tight tucked the sheets.

“Ain’t taking no chances with you right now love. You can walk about tomorrow.” Nurse Redheart smiled triumphantly.

I groaned, Evil mare.

“How is your jaw feeling today?” she touched her hoof gently underneath and I lifted my head for her to get a better look, “Looks much better, I take it you can talk now grumble bum?” She giggled at this.

“It only hurts mildly.” I huffed.

“Well good, because I am sure there will be plenty of visitors for you today!” She said cheerfully, dusting the fallen rose petals into her hoof, “I will be back to check on you later.”

I kicked at the tight tucked sheets, “Damnit!” I had forgotten to ask her to at least put some music on.

After forty five minutes of staring at the wall I was growing impatient, and I was in a cheeky mood.

I started to groan with frustration to boredom, very loudly. The groans only grew louder the more I was ignored by the passing nurses and occasional doctors.

Soon enough nurse Redheart stormed in, “Berry! You are disrupting the other patients, what is the matter?!”

I released one more groan for good measure, this made her stomp her hoof, “I’m Booorrrreeedddd!”

“What do you want me to do about it?! And stop making those sounds, anypony will think you are dying!” She said angrily.

“Can you turn my music on…” she looked at me incredulously, “Pwease!” I gave my best pout.

She rolled her eyes and shook her head, “Fine but not very loud… your taste in music is… well yes.” She turned it on quickly and spun on her hoof. I noticed her stop just outside the doorway, “Oh thank Celestia! Please go in!”

All of a sudden Rarity was shoved into the room and the door slammed shut behind her.

She gasped, “Oh my, what did you do to that poor mare?” she teased.

“I only wanted my music on!” I said offended just as I noticed Rarity about to turn it off, “Seriously!?” I yelled to stop her.

“Ugh, you actually like those sounds?” she shrugged and walked over to the chair by my bed.

“Yes I do! Anyways what can I do for you Miss?” I asked as she leaned on my bed getting a closer look at me.

“I just came by to see how you were…” she paused and raised a hoof to stroke my cheek with the utmost gentleness, “I heard you were awake, more to the point, how are you?”

“Well other then being more then a little bit restrained,” I made a show of it by trying to lift my hind legs but that darn nurse must be a tight tucking pro, “And a little sore, I would say I’m pretty dandy!” I smiled.

“I also hear you are dropping the charges?”

I shrugged, “I asked for it.”

She raised her eye brow quizzically but shook her head, “It is your decision. Just do what you feel is right.”

I sighed into her hoof as it was still caressing my cheek. She retracted it quickly after though coughing awkwardly.

She looked at any point in the room but at me, soon she noticed the flowers, “Oh these are pretty,” she levitated the card over to herself reading it. She frowned slightly at it and put it back.

Sensing the tension in the room was becoming too much, “Is something wrong Rarity?”

She had been in deep thought, she sighed inwardly, “You Berry… I tried forgetting about you and then this happened… and it’s all my fault!” She threw herself around me and started to cry.

I stoked her mane to the best of my ability but I was distracted by the thought of being crushed… and confusion at her statement.

“I wished for you to disappear!” It was like something sharp pierced me directly in the feelings, “You almost did! Oh Berry! I’m so sorry!”

I laughed and this made her pull back confusedly, “You have nothing to be sorry for! The amount of times I have wished for something to be gone, well what are the chances? Plus no way was this going to be the end of me!” I said triumphantly.

“But-“

I put my hoof over her mouth, “Do you want me to beg for you to drop it? Because you can ask Nurse Redheart, it is the last thing you want.”

This made her laugh, and her smile brought a fire to my heart. It felt good to make ponies laugh and smile, I had had enough of making them cry, especially Rarity.

“I love it when you smile.” I blurted my thoughts aloud.

She blushed fiercely. She was still holding on to me as she leaned in, “I keep trying to forget you Berry… But you keep saying things like that and I will never let you go.”

I felt her hot breath on my muzzle. Her lips were so close to mine I could almost feel them. I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to take her then and there. My body was aching to feel her. Most of all my body was aching for her affection. But all to quickly she pulled away, giving a quick wink.

She started to head for the door and all the scenarios I had just imagined in my dirty mind shattered. I had to remind myself it was for the best.

“Sorry Berry but I really must go now. I have an appointment at the spa with a close friend which I really mustn’t be late for.” She waved a hoof goodbye and with that she was gone, leaving me to my boredom once again.

Moments passed which soon turned into hours. I had listened to the same music track a hundred times now and it was starting to frustrate me.

There was a light knock at my door and excitement over another visitor eased me from my foul mood.

“Come in!” I called all too eagerly, the pony made their way in, “Rarity! Back so soon? How was the…”

My heart sank. I wanted to run. I wanted to evaporate into nothing. She was followed close behind a mare I had not seen since some very unfortunate circumstances. I had been avoiding this. Fluttershy had walked in behind Rarity, she had made no eye contact with me. Only the floor. She was lucky.

Rarity closed the door swiftly behind Fluttershy and made her way to the chair at the end of the bed. It seemed they both were keeping their distance.

I gulped hard trying to swallow the lump that had formed in my throat. I was glad the heart rate monitor was no longer hooked up.

“The spa was cut short.” Rarity answered my earlier question, “It seems you have been quite the mare about town Berry.” She said sourly.

I looked away. There was so much I wanted to say but none of it would come out right. How was I to know they were friends? How could I have known what I was doing at the time was wrong?

“It seems you have to apologise to both of us. And Fluttershy has something she needs to ask of you. But you first.” Rarity stated.

This angered me. I don’t know why but it did, “I have to apologise?! For what? I didn’t know she was your friend at the time and even then she was there for me when I was confused and alone. I thought I had said everything to you that needed to be said Fluttershy but I guess I was wrong. I am sorry for walking out that morning, and I am sorry for coming between you and your marefriend.” I noticed her fidget and finally look up at me.

“But Rarity I don’t really think that you have a right to be mad at me. I didn’t even know you at the time!” Tears freely rolled down my cheeks, I kept my composure as best as I could. “Fluttershy, what we did was amazing and magical, but it was a mistake.”

Fluttershy appeared to be having a hard time bearing all of this and burst out in tears at my last statement. Rarity was soon hugging the mare trying to calm her down while glaring daggers at me.

“What did you expect?” I shot at her.

“You could be a little more sympathetic you know!” Rarity shouted, “Rainbow Dash just broke up with her!”

“I’m not a fucking mind reader!” I stated.

Fluttershy looked up at Rarity, “C-can you wait outside, I need to speak to her alone…” she hiccupped the last few sobs.

Rarity sighed and dragged herself away, she reached the door before giving Fluttershy a reassuring look… and me a deathly glare, then closed the door behind herself.

We sat in awkward silence for a few moments, the only sounds to be heard was our heavy breathing.

“What happened?” I broke the silence.

“No pony wishes more then I that our fling didn’t happen…” she said meekly, “But in a way I guess it needed to happen… Rainbow Dash and I are not broken up… exactly… just on a break.” She looked away.

“She needs time to heal… to renew her feelings towards me, and well… to explore with other ponies.” She looked at the flowers sitting beside my bed and sighed, “I knew it.”

“Knew what?” I looked between her and the flowers.

“PassionBerry, if you want to help repair the damage you-“ I glared at her, “-and I did… You are going to have to have sex with Rainbow Dash.”

My jaw dropped and I winced in pain.

“What!?”