Hiding behind a smile

I was on my way to Fluttershy's home carrying a cart full of heavy bags of clothes.

Rarity returned to her place  to pack up some more stuff (something other than clothes I presume) and she'll be leaving somewhere around tomorow morning with Octavia. She told us that she and Octavia will be having a sleepover at her place because the train station is closer there.

One thing I still didn't get, WHY am I dragging all of this clothes... to Fluttershy!?

It just doesn't make any sense, if Rarity is planning on taking all of this clothes with her then why have me drag my ass across ponyville carrying tons of clothes all the way to Fluttershy's place? Oh well... I guess I'll get my answers from her.

I was very close to Fluttershy's place, I could even see her home if I focused my eyes but... it was no use! My arms were getting tired and I needed a break so I stopped dragging the heavy cart and decided to catch a breather.

I sat on the ground and rested my back on the right side of the cart if it was looked at from behind, the clothes actually provided some comfort for my back.

I closed my eyes and and started ignoring the cold air and started listening to my thoughts again.

So what should I do for fun? I mean once I'll get this delivered I'll be able to have a lot of time to myself to think but I might as well do it now since I'm taking a break.

Lately I've been asking myself if I really wanted to see a pony in agony and pain. I was getting aroused just by thinking about it... a pony begging for it's life, this REALLY IS something that can make me feel better!

I felt my conscience leaving me and my morals dropping. As for how I feel about this... well I can't say that I care, I never really cared much for others I just acted like I did just so I could fit in.

I have always felt that I didn't have any emotions, I only faked emotions just so I could earn their friendship but... it isn't exciting as it used to be! I need something that is worth my time! I need... to see a pony in pain, no... I should be the one that inflicts pain on that pony!!

I realize what I'm thinking now isn't right but I have no choice, It's what I want! To destroy somepony's life... this is something I need to do...

Could I actually get away with something like this? Hurt a mare and make sure she never opens her mouth? It's most likely that ponies would believe anypony over another creature, regardless of how friendly he was being. Not only that but what if I got caught? I don't even have this perfectly planned out yet! I thought I could just ponynap the unlucky mare, throw her in my basement, have my way with her and let her... go.

WHAT THE FUCK THAT WOULD NEVER WORK!!!!

If I'm really serious about doing this then I need to be realistic, now come on Nate, think! Use your deductive reasoning skills! How in the world can I rape somepony and make sure she never tells?? hmm........

I guess it depend on the pony? Yes that's it! First I should choose somepony. But who?

All my life I've been crushing on the most beautiful mare in Equestria... Rainbow Dash! Her coat is my favorite color and her hair style is very tomboyish, just the way I like it! And her eyes! Oh those wide beautiful violet eyes! It's true that pony eyes are seductive but... Rainbow Dash is special.

And her personality is also unique, it's something close to how I've always wanted to act around ponies but instead I decided to be this normal, nice guy.

And it's obvious I'll never get to have her, she is just so... she is... she could easily beat me up and fly away to tell everypony what I tried to do to her. But I would never do anything to her against her will! She is the one I actually have feelings for! So she is out of the question.

What about Fluttershy?

Even if I'm not really emotionally attached to her the condition is perfect! I'm about to visit her, she is quiet and... her home is flooded with animals. They would probably stop me, beat me up, and help Fluttershy go get help. But assuming I manage to have my way with her, assuming I successfully get to fuck anypony, what would the aftermath be?

Fluttershy would probably be in a mental trauma for the rest of her life and would probably never speak again. This could work against me since she she has her annoying friends! They would force her to tell them what happened and even if she wouldn't speak, they would find out what happened somehow.

Basically if I fucked anypony they would probably suffer a terrible mental trauma, that's a fact! So... I should get someone who isn't tied with the mane six, and wont be missed. But who?

"Nate?"

I snapped back into reality on those words

"Is that you? Haha! What are you doing sitting on the cold floor like that?"

I turned around to see Octavia standing next to the cart, she was wearing a lot of traveling bags along with a scarf around her neck. She had one of her eyes half closed in confusion and was smiling as usual, she raised a hoof and started knocking on my forehead

"Helloooo? Anyone home?"

"Hey cut it out!" I quickly got on my feet and sighed "What is it Octavia? Can't a guy take a break from time to time?"

the happy mare opened her eyes wide and smiled at me

"I'm going to Rarity's place for a sleepover."

"Yeah, I know." I smiled at her and started walking towards the front of the cart "I'm on my way to Fluttershy's place, I need to dump these clothes there for whatever reason..."

"Yeah, I know! Haha!"

I turned to Octavia and saw her smiling at me. She was extra ordinary happy today... It almost felt like she was faking it! She knew something.

"What are you so happy about Octavia?" the happy mare galloped towards me, now only inches away from me she replied

"I get to visit Canterlot! Isn't it amazing? It's the place of my dreams!"

"Yeah but aren't you staying there for like a few days?" there was a pause, her smile disappeared and she was now looking at the ground

"That's right. I'll be staying there for only 5 days."

I didn't want to see her sad, since I made her feel like that I quickly took responsibility.

I started playing with her mane with my right hand which caused her to look at me in confusion and said "N- Nate?"

she saw me grinning, I didn't know what she was thinking or feeling but I was enjoying myself. I kept digging into her mane until I felt her head, then I started scratching her with my nails

"ahh wh- what are you... doing?" I could tell she was enjoying it but at the same time felt confused and guilty. My grin gotten wider as I started to move my hand, trying to find her weak spot. I started scratching her behind her ear "Ah! Sto- umm.."

She closed her eyes and was now shaking in pleasure, it was intense for her to be scratched like that so I sat on the ground again, forcing Octavia to sit with me, I then continued to scratch her ear.I brought her head on my lap and continued playing with her mane.

"Please Nate.... s-stop!"

she couldn't take it anymore, her breathing was deep but very slow. If she didn't have to be somewhere, she would probably give in already but she managed to say 'stop' so I guess the fun was over.I removed my hand out of her mane and started acting stupid "Did I do something wrong?"

"What... was that?"

"What was what?"

"Ugh!!"

She came to her senses and backed away from me "What were you trying to do just now!? Were you..."

"Was I what!?" There was a very long pause after that. The situation quickly turned awkward for the both of us as we just stared at each other in confusion.I could tell by the look on her face that she didn't feel angry anymore, she didn't know what to think. I on the other hand I knew exactly how this was going to play out, I just continued to act dumb.

Finally she spoke "Why were you... touching my ear... like that?"

I opened my mouth but stopped myself for a second before I could say anything, I looked away for a moment then back at her and said "I thought ponies liked to be touched there"

Octavia started to blush "Oh! Dear, it's not nice to randomly touch somepony like that"

"I'm sorry, I didn't knew that"

Octavia started to suspect my act "Oh I think you did," she took a hoofstep closer to me "you were smiling in a very strange way!"

without hesitation I quickly looked at her in the eyes and muffled "I like you." and quickly broke eye contact.

Her pupils shrunk a bit and she froze in place. It wasn't long before she started talking again "Umm... well, I don't know what to say... I"

"You don't have to say anything Octavia, I shouldn't have acted like that." I turned to her "I'm really sorry!" then we didn't say anything for a while.

I have to admit, It was fun to have touched her like that, and I'm sure she wont make a big deal out of it now that she thinks I like her. But that's not what I've wanted! What I want is to have a pony chained up in my basement! I want a pony for me to keep! Somepony who will suffer, bleed and get beaten like never before!!!

It's obvious that I can't take Tavi since she is going away on a big event, and if she were to went missing right before or after visiting Canterlot then that could be a problem.

Like I said, I'll have plenty of time to think about it once I get home.

I got up and grabbed the cart "Well Octavia, I should get this delivered and I'm sure Rarity is waiting for you so... bye." and without another word I started pulling the cart.

Octavia was just standing there in the cold air "Wait!"

I stopped "Yes?"

Octavia once again galloped to me so I could have a good look at her

"well the thing is what you did was really... special! And well... I was wondering if you could maybe cheer up Vinyl? Or..."

I raised an eyebrow and my mouth formed something I would imagine looking like a small 'o'.

Octavia started blushing "Ahh what am I saying!? Just forget it... umm you were right Rarity is probably worried about me. I gotta go!" and then she quickly went on her way.

What was she trying to say? Did she tried to ask me for more? I know she liked it but, wait! She mentioned Vinyl! What was that about? I was right! She really does know something!

"Wait, Octavia!" she stopped dead in her tracks and one of her traveling bags fell behind her, she quickly turned around

"Ohhhh what is it? I'm in a hurry!"

"It's just that you said something about Vinyl..." There was a pause "What happened, is something wrong with her or something?"

Octavia looked sad, as if she was ready to confess something she hasn't told anyone yet. Looking at the bag she said "I really don't want anypony to know so please keep this a secret!"

"I promise!"

she looked to her right, then her left then turned to me and quietly said "Vinyl has been feeling a bit down lately."

Those words forced my mouth open and made me loose grip of the cart, luckily it stayed in place! Octavia grabbed the bag with her teeth, turned around and started running "Ok gotta go! See you in 5 days! Bye!!" I just remained standing and looking at her leave, I started listening to my thoughts again.

Vinyl? Is this mare going to be the unfortunate one? I grabbed the cart again and started pulling. So... Vinyl has been a bit depressed for a while now, and now she is going to be alone for 5 days. Will anyone notice if she went missing for 4 or 5 days? Could I use her depression to my benefit? And just how much could I do to her? I mean, she is a unicorn!

She could just use her magic to stop me or to break free...

but it's such a tease! I finally get a pony thrown at me and it happens to be a unicorn!

What a turn off.

Or... I could use that potion I drink that prevents my headaches, since my head hurts when I'm around magic this potion makes me sort of 'ignore' magic and that makes me feel all better. Now if a pony were to drink it, would it eliminate all of her magic? Or at least make it so that she forgets to use magic for a period of time?

I can't go asking this around all of a sudden because then it would be easier to figure out what I've done to her. I have to assume every possible outcome if I'm serious about doing this and not getting caught!

I was now passing the short wooden bridge, which was close to Fluttershy's home.

Now, if Twilight and the others were to suspect me of doing something to Vinyl, and I'M SURE they will, and if I've asked if my potion eliminates magic from ponies on the day Octavia told me that Vinyl was down, then I'm finished! So I better keep this to myself!

Shouldn't be too hard, I've been keeping everything to myself all my life but now, someone... or should I say... somepony is going to have to join me!

Vinyl... I never thought I'd see the day where I would be planning how to ponynap you, lock you up in my basement and torment the shit out of you just because I was bored but... here I am, about to knock on the door of one of my many friends who I so deeply cared about.

On an errand to mindlessly drop tons of clothes in her home because that's just the way I am, a nice gentle person that would do anything for anypony.